As long as I keep it awake it can't get me !

Vielen Dank, Wolfgang!

Ich wuensche Dir ein schoene Wochenende.

Joanna ;o)

God Friday and the sun is shining, I should be with my missus and enjoying the day but instead I've isolated myself in my flat in a really bad mood and smoke to much and drink to much coffee.

Not feeling like gambling at all might be the good aspect but everything else seems just to turn worse rather than any better.

Here me winging again !

Today I told my missus even I still hate texting why I'm so depressed and what I think is the only way to get out of it and I've got the expected replay.

Maybe I should just give in and take everything as it is and get on with it but would that really change anything ? I don't think so and sooner or later we just would end up at the same point or maybe worse than where we are now because my opinion is that giving in is still not accepting it leave alone understanding it.

I'm actually disappointed that she came here on this site to get advise, but all she actually did was telling that I gambled our wedding fund away and that my addiction is new to her. Ok I see both aspects very different but that's not the point. Fact is that this is all she did I don't even think she knows that her matter got transferred into a different forum. It's not down to me to tell her this but obviously it's in my head.

It's not down to me to tell you about my hopefully future wife this is what she has to do herself.

And I still hope that we get everything sorted at the moment I just don't know how.

Good day to you all

Wolfgang

And here we go again,

We made a start in talking meaning my missus and me and we decided to draw a line.

So let's do this and stay focused on the important things what means for me I definitive stay here on gamecare for help and maybe to help and for my missus and me carrying with wedding planing 🙂

Happy Easter weekend to all of you

Wolfgang

Hi

I've just been looking at your blogs and while I was reading the tv is on in the background and a casino/ slot advert came on from a well known high st bookies etc

I'm absolutely livid,I'm incandescent here we are desperately trying to sort ourselves out and these diabolical ads just keep appearing

It's DISGUSTING that these ads are being allowed - I'd just hate to think about those poor people hooked, desperate and in utter despair at the situation that they are in - it MUST stop

They are hooking people in who are almost certainly in a very bad situation to start with targeting the weak,the desperate and the poor - I'm sure they are in unison with the payday loan companies it's terrible and disgusting and must be stopped

Sorry about that I needed to get it off my chest!!

On the bright side I'm on my 13day off tomorrow And i feel great 😉

I hope you guys are feeling strong

Good luck with the wedding plans

Take care of yourselves

Glads dad

Hi GladsDad,

Nice to see you here yes you are right putting a stop to all this adverbs would not solve the problem, but it would be a step in the right direction.

But however it's good to read that you are strong and stay away from it.

Keep it going mate and keep intouch

Wolfgang

morning Wolfgang

Thanks for the kind words upon my thread, in honesty the rewards of recovery for me today are taken in huge amounts when other folk take heart from what I write upon my diary.

If we can gift a portion of the effort and dedication we gave to our addiction to gamble to recovery the results are plain to see.

Keep making the right choice for you my friend,throw all you have to give to arresting the punt,it will reward you greatly in the long run.

Regarding those adverts fella, the fact is they will always exist,gambling will always exist, for us it is about living in harmony with it,accepting that the destructive gambling will only bring more destruction to our lives.

I hope the situation with your girlfriend improves,time away from gambling will only help.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Good morning my friend Dunc,

Yes you are so right, just like the good things in life, the devil gambling has all ways been there and will all ways exist and it is just down to ourselves to reach out for the right things and avoid what could harm us and or the ones we pretend to love.keeping this in mind and live it day to day I'm sure we will succeed and bring the deserved freedom to ourselves and will be able to be achieve our real targets in life.

You keep it going my friend and yes ...

... Duncs stepping forward never back.

Wolfs do to 😉

Your friend Wolfgang

happy easter monday everyone,

the sun is shining and I've been shopping with Lou for the Easter Dinner already, so is a good start in a nice,bright and gamble free day.

Things improving more and more meaning everything is good and safe on my side and will now take a bit time to read through as much as possible new posts.

I hope that you are all fine.

Wolfgang

keep strong mate thanks for your post that really helped, hope you had good easter, have to be honest not read your full diary yet but will do soon , but your in the right place , lets do whatever it takes , I for one feel I am getting my life back and want to keep it that way and im sure you do to , well done on staying gamble free, thanks your friend simon

Hi Wolfgang - I'm really pleased to read that things are going well for you and Lou and that hopefully you have both emerged from that dark place into a bright future.

Have a good Easter Monday - sun shining in London too!

Joanna

Well done Wolfgang,

I really hope your day is still going well and you enjoy Easter lunch.

It really feels good not to gamble today. Sitting chilling out reading these diary's.

Still working out in my head how I will explain my recent slip to mom. I guess honesty will come to the forefront. just to see mom upset kills me...

Hope everyone enjoys the rest of the day..

Hi Wolfgang

I'm very pleased that your Easter break has been a gamble free happy one.

Keep up the good work

Stay sharp strong and focused

All the best

Glads dad

It's a good morning,

I've just went through some posts in different threats and have seen that my missus Lou is active in the family and friends forum and I'm so happy about this.

Not that she hasn't been anyway always supportive and tried to help me where ever she could, but there is so many I just can't explain to her about my addiction.

Sometimes just because I don't know how to put it into English, sometimes because even I know how to put it into English but don't know how to say it and it's not sounding selfish or arrogant and sometimes just I feel to disgusted with myself.

That's it of me for now I've got to go and do some work

You all stay strong life is really worth it

Wolfgang

Wolfgang

Fella great to see the fog created by your gambling seems to be lifting my friend.

By making the right choice you will continue to see it lift.

Well done.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Good morning diary,

Note to myself: You are a lucky guy surrounded by good friends and family.

They never asking for miracles just for honesty.

You have not to prove perfection to anyone.

Just be you and don't let the devil in you telling you, "you have to be more and I can give it to you"

Stay focused friends destruction and loneliness is as real as love and harmony but you have the choice every day new again and again.

Wolfgang