back at the beginning again

Hi tom,

Get through day 6 you will feel great tomorrow, do anything to distract you, something that is totally out of routine, as NT says you have done really well to get through these first few days, keep going and win today.

Best wishes.

Suzanne xx

Thamk you so much for your comments. I was literally at the bank withdrawing money to go to the bookies. I just decided I had to there was no negotiation with myself. I had to put my bets on and that was that. I read the comments and something just clicked it's weird but now I have no interest. I'm on my way to buy a hoover with the money I was gonna gamble as the missus has been nagging me about a new one for ages.

tom my reality is the urges are going to keep coming. that's my honesty.

but today you've had a good day and you're going to have some cleaner floors and probably better bedroom relations.

enjoy both

Hi tom ,

Good to read to did not act on those thoughts/urges this morning, this will make you stronger now, get through the day, and tomorrow you will be one week free from gambling, and over that 6 day itch, that will feel great won't it.

Well done keep going.

Suzanne xx

Day 6

From the moment i woke up today I knew I was going to gamble. Even though I knew I shouldn't I was still gonna do it. Its became a routine every Saturday for the last 10 years. Wake up and go put my bets on. I can't go a weekend without my coupons on and not watching the scores. I head to the bookies and on my way I read a few comments on my page from people who gave me encouragement and suddenly the urge was gone. I used that money to buy a hoover and treat my family to a meal. Day 6 complete the first 5 days where to easy. Today I really realised that this is one tough battle and there will be hard days but if you find a way by it its very rewarding.

tom1986...Great work today 🙂

I had this, & found it to be pivotal in my journey...I hope you feel as proud as I did that you managed to choose 'No'! Here is the proof you need that, this time you are stronger than the vile gambling demons that hate to see us getting our lives back!

Hat off to you mate! May this, sticking 2 fingers up to a decade of damage, realisation stay with you through any urges that may come calling - ODAAT

Day 7

After a tough day Saturday sunday went really well. Didn't bother with gambling managed to watch football without thinking about betting. Thanks to everyone who has helped me this week if it wasn't for your comments I wouldn't have made it 1 WEEK

well done tom ! fantastic

Hi tom,

Well done on one whole week,

Stay strong and positive and keep going.

Suzanne xx

Well done on getting through the week and a tough weekend you made right choices and they do get easier to get past.

It's amazing. I spoke to my fiancГ© yesterday about everything and she was very understanding. She has an eating disorder so she knows what it's like to battle an illness. The last week I've just realised how much gambling really can ruin things. In my house we have 4 kids between us although only 2 are my actual kids. One of my fiances kids are disabled and it can be very stressful at time. I used to say I like to gamble as it gets me away from the house and the stress. But I would come back in a bad mood after a big loss so I was a big part of the problem in the house not just the kids. I won't put my fiancГ© through that again. She commented last night on how happy I've been recently and that's where I explained what's happening. She thought I maybe had a problem but she didn't realise how bad it was. Its amazing how 1 week of no gambling can change so many things. I've been told there is still hard days ahead. I don't doubt it people have went months and months without gambling and then gambled. When i get the urges I just have to make sure I read my posts and remember this feeling.

Day 8

Its only 5 pm. No urges at all. Feeling great. Night shift so away to bed. Can't bet in my sleep so that's day 8 complete.

Hi tom,

Well done on 8 days.

Suzanne xx

Hi Tom, great going! I'm so glad your family are dealing the rewards of your journey already! There will be tough times ahead but with honesty, hard work & perseverance, you can beat this - ODAAT

Day 9

Another day feeling great. No urges. Long may it continue. Away to bed as working tonight night shift has its advantages.