Back once again for the renegade gambler...

My dear friend Ryan,

Thank you so much for your post. You have huge heart! Going through such heartbreaking time in your life, yet finding time and care to post to others..thank you for your time and thoughts.
Please know that I'm here for you, you know where to find me & if i can help in any way - i will!

Sometimes i feel like a spoilt child. I should b counting my lucky stars for everything i have in my life. However my mind is refusing to work that way. The confusion & negativity takes over more than i can cope with. It's exhausting.

Life is for living, we need to make the most out of it huh..it's just the case of starting the wheels rolling.

I am very proud of you and can only admire your strengh, determination and commitment you have in buckets. Every day is different, but please keep that spirit up, keep pushing forwards and keep setting yourself free.
We both know what lies ahead if we trip and give up for one second. Fighting on is a must & i am very pleased to be walking alongside you.

Look after yourself, ride the waves out and never forget how important part of this world you are!

Blessings - hugs

Take care - one day at a time ☺

Hi Ryan, thank you for taking the time to write on my page, I know you're going through a tough time at the moment, so it's gratefully appreciated. Your words on congrats and encouragement mean a lot, so again thank you. I hope you're managing to stay strong through this awful time. Take Care. Cx

Not much to add today really, but just a quick post to say we're still making progress on the not-gambling, but plenty of potholes ahead I'm sure. Anyway, today is 96 which means all being well I should be tapping the 100-day milestone on Saturday. Wins in the football and the rugby for Wales would help to make that a good milestone to pass, might even have a wee beer or two to help me on the way to 200 too.

Here's to Saturday pal, 100 club for us both. Keep up the good work!

Hi Ryan,

Just checking in. Hope you're looking after yourself and being kind to you. Milestone round the corner, I'm very proud of you!

As always, my thoughts are with you as there is no quick fix to heal the emotions you still have...

Look after yourself

S x

Ryan,

Thank you so much for your post. It made me cry but since its daily accurance i let ya off 😉

I don't know what to say. I know you deal with depression also, it's vey difficult mental state to overcome huh. Darkness is scary.

I apologise for my words. I just needed to get it all out. I am here..i am fighting and just for today i will be kind to myself ☺

Hope you are being kind to you too!

Please please remember where i am..if i can - i will help.

Hugs and thank you again.

Please don't worry about me, i need you to look after you now ☺

S x

Same goes to you dear friend, fighting on we must!

"There was never a night or a problem that could defeat sunrise or hope". Bernard Williams

Rings a bell ☺...never give on giving up!

Thank you again and hope to catch up soon

S x

Hi guys,

I'm still punching on day 100, even if life seems to be responding with three or four punch combos for every step I take forward. Anyway, I haven't gambled for 100 days, and hopefully when I pass the next milestone I'm still as determined to avoid any kind of betting activity.

Adieu

Ryan

Aww man..forgot the main part - well done on the century!

High five dear Ryan ☺

Many many more your way, you're more than capable!

S x

Hope I'm wrong, but Sandra you seriously need to get to sleep! I'm absolving myself because I'm already crazy and assume I don't get any sleep anyway! Either way, hope you are okay and still punching through the demons that the addiction brings forward. I am, and I wish they were more solid so I could punch these f*****s away.

Morning Ryan :))

Just stopped off to wish you many congratulations on reaching your Century , youv'e been through a bit of life's s***t just lately but your resolve has held strong my friend so big respect .

Thanks for the post the other day and I'm sure your right , they'll be much Comedy Gold floating around regarding Mr President for at least the next 4 yrs anyway LOL ! .

Have a great day my friend and take care .

Best Wishes

Alan

Hi well done on remaining gf, I hope things are starting to settle down now after your sad loss x X

Well, another week is in the books, and if I'm honest the more time I get to think about losing my father, the worse it seems to get. I kind of know that it was inevitable, the first fortnight was just a crazy amount of work, and I didn't really get the opportunity to process this. I feel as if I have lost my mentor in this life, if there was anything I wanted to discuss, or I had an idea which needed a critical and sensible eye cast over it, it was always him that I would turn to. He was a rock to all of us, especially to my mum who I am quite worried about how she will do by herself. She has plenty of friends and they are pulling around, but the basics of managing the bills and even knowing what to do if something goes wrong may be challenging. We also have to downsize the house to something smaller, so we do need to clear out a lot of things rather quickly. Busy, busy, busy for me, and as my brother has mental health problems (much worse than mine, and he has already had one medication change since the loss as he was struggling), and my sister is a social worker and has so many demands from her employer, I'll need to tough out this period.

Anyway, for now I'm going to have a drink, maybe one too many, and will get back to the real work tomorrow.

Hope everyone has a good gamble free weekend.

Ryan.

With honour and strength my dear friend.

My sincere condolences on your sad loss.

Duncs.

Keep that head above the water Ryan. Steady and calm, keep making those lil steps forward.
You have so much on your shoulders but you also have the strength to keep pushing on.

Be proud as today is a day to keep thise boxing gloves on...for you, for your family and everyone around.

Proud of you

Take care

S x