Back to MY Future

6 months later on.....

All seems to be going well and only 1 month from today till I get to a year!

All is going well for me and I can only hope that others on here are too. It really does make a difference if you can stay away from gambling. Im a much better person than i was and my life is now heading in the right direction, Ill try to keep reading on here more as ive neglected that a lot recently. It was this site that made the hard early months possible.

I hope everyone can stay strong

BT

Hi Biff, I thought I recognised your username. The opening batsman who was open and honest telling his wife and friends. A massive congratulations to you. I think I mentioned in a post to you, that sometimes you get a really good feeling of whether or not somebody is going to stop. You were a clear example of this. I had little doubt that you would remain gamble free. Well done and keep up the great work. Russ

Hey Thanks Russ, Im glad to read you are still doing well too.

All the best for the next few weeks/months

BT

Well I'm very dissappointed to be back here again as I thought I never would be,

I had a very bad day yesterday and so Ive decided to come back and start the process all over again. Sigh

I will endeavour to write most days again, it got me through the worst stages last time. Im very positive about this as Ive done it before I can definately do it again. First target is 10 days. Overall target......FOREVER!

Regards

Well not quite everyday but im back. Ive had a good week no problems to talk of, well except the obvious temptation to put a bet on but things are in place to prevent that. My card has been disabled and it makes me feel a lot safer that im not going to potentially balls things up.

Its a funny feeling. Knowing I want to gamble knowing im not going to and knowing that im much happier not gambling. Confusing times, when I thought my brain was reasonably intelligent.

Anyway back soon. I hope everyone is trying as hard as me its definitely not worth it. Stay strong ppl

X

Day 0.

Really struggling now. So much running through my head. So dissappointed with myself. Im.so so tired of this. I feel numb again. All the horrible feelings come flooding back.

My b*****r acct suspension ran out yeaterday...great timing! So was able to deposit, within a few lucky wins I was punting over 1k on football again. Luck ran out as it ways does. Managed to stay 150 up but thats not really the point. Why was I even doing this?

Tomorrows another day. Start afresh sleep it off start again........

Gutted