Boxing Day 1

Back on day one (3rd May)

Really starting again this time. Been struggling a lot lately. This time I have to do it !

It's no good starting all over again & doing it exactly the same way you tried it before! I know, until I came here & fessed up (handing over my finances) I had thousands of Day 1's 🙁

Soz Clare, I can't remember what tools you have already tried but if you haven't tried counselling or GA then what do you have to lose? I know you abstained for s long time when you were running the challenge but there must have been something in your mind that convinced you to start repeating the same mistakes that made you look for support in the 1st place!

You know how much better you felt in recovery, it's out there, if you fight hard enough - ODAAT

Thanks ODAAT. I've decided that this is a proper day one. A real day one with more blocks in place. A friend is by my side again on this and helping me with looking after finances and putting blocks in place etc.

I know I can do it. I've done it before and if this doesn't work maybe I'll look at GA but would really hate to go down that route. Probably would dent my pride too much and feel like a failure !

Thanks for dropping by Claire.:))

Like your positive attitude on your real day one, and pleased to see you back on the challenge thread.

Do understand you not wanting to go down the GA route, but please remember nothing changes if nothing changes, even small changes can help alot

Have a good positive gambling free day

Suzanne xxx

Thanks Suzanne. Today has been a good day one. Been busy at work and then making plans for my birthday coming up soon. Keeping busy helps me and making plans. Got a family holiday to save up for and that's a motivator for me too as need to pay for some of that still plus our spending money.

I will do this !!

Day two and been keeping busy. No opportunities to gamble and really determined now.

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This is your time now Claire, you know you can do it,:))

Take care and stay focused, the only worst sceniro we can do is actually gamble Hun:)) remember that one.

Suzanne xxx

Thank you Suzanne and day three going well. I'm staying safe with blocks in place. Looking forward to being less skint and not wasting my pennies !

Thanks for dropping by Claire,

keep going:)))

Suzanne xxx,

Thanks Suzanne X

Day five and all is well. Still feeling as determined as day one. Pay day is in sight and I know that if I continue to abstain I'll be much happier and wealthier. For me, I must remind myself constantly that I cannot win by gambling. Proof is in the debts !

7 days gamble free and feeling almost back to normal. Amazing how gambling depresses me, even though in my head it was enjoyment. Taking time to rebudget to start saving up again whilst continuing to steadily repay debts.

First week is always tough going when gambling is at the forefront of your mind. Started to think less about it now and urges are a little less frequent. Having my blocks in place is helpful.

Here's to week two

Well done on passing that first week:)

OAUs Claire

Suzanne xxx

Thanks Suzanne x

Day 9 and still going !

Day 10'... Good goin gamble free !