Change time

Onto April now still gamble free and urges diminishing if anything 

It does feel different to any other time I’ve tried to stop almost like a switch has been flicked or something. Long may it continue 

Obviously the wreckage of my finances remains but this will be sorted it time 

Still gamble free and no urges whatsoever 

Im starting to reflect on the person I have been for many years in regards to gambling and realising how the lack of understanding that I’m ill and I’m not weak and useless has dawned upon me

Its hit me so hard and I’m starting to understand myself more 

I will always have this illness and the medication is not to do the thing that causes me harm. Sounds so simple but as we all know who are afflicted with this addiction it’s anything but

Another few weeks have passed by and I remain gamble free had some random urges recently but managed to come through them. 
Sleeping so much better at the minute but still the carnage of what I’ve done in the past still haunts me 

Onwards and upwards 

Keep up the good work Jamie, you are doing absolutely amazing! I need some of your will power. I’ll be working just to pay bills going forward but I have to stop gambling, it’s ruining my life. 

Posted by: @charosully

Keep up the good work Jamie, you are doing absolutely amazing! I need some of your will power. I’ll be working just to pay bills going forward but I have to stop gambling, it’s ruining my life. 

I’m in the same position and in regards to working to pay of debts and I know this will take years to sort out . The gambling part of my brain still trying plants seeds in my mind but at the moment I’m fighting them off with not to much difficulty 

Approaching 6 months gamble free I think now can’t believe it’s been that long 

Still remain gamble free and going strong . I’m starting not to have any urges at all maybe a split second here and there. Fast approaching 6 months without gambling 
Be a big milestone when I get there 

Days without gambling are flying by now. It’s almost like I’ve forgotten I’m a compulsive gambler which I think could be dangerous going forward but I’m confident for now my gambling days are behind me 

Eyes are open still this battle will never ever end and I know that now 

@jamie27 Congratulations mate!

Amazing achievement, but keep taking it a day at a time and remain vigilant.

What do you feel has worked for you so far?

Posted by: @t604bvfskn

@jamie27 Congratulations mate!

Amazing achievement, but keep taking it a day at a time and remain vigilant.

What do you feel has worked for you so far?

I’ve not really done anything specificity different to previous attempts to quit I just think I’d reached a point were I’d had enough of repeating the same cycles over and over again.

I used to put myself down a lot thinking I was s**m for doing what I did when the penny dropped that I was not a idiot and that I was ill something changed. It’s very difficult to explain but I know I’m only ever a second away from disaster still

@jamie27 if your determined to stop it possible i only realised in my last relapse i wasent determined to stop i wish i read some of the stories on reddit to prevent my last relapse however i cant change my past i realised i was only abstaining from gambling i had no intention to quit im only 2 weeks g/f however i feel much better then when i was 3 years gamble free the difference is this time i have been honest with myself i made a decision i want nothing to do with gambling even when i won this time i wasent at peace my health was being affected and my addiction was playing tricks on my mind, ive made bit of financial mess however it could have been alot worse for me, ive made huge changes within the two weeks, i still have the odd urge here and their however this time i have so much hate for this industry, it taken my health my time which i will never get back, now moving forward took this negative into a possitive im working on change i wasent the best example of myself u have to be 100% honest with yourself