Changing for the better

Hi Mrt,

Thanks for your post on my diary much appreciated.. I have just read through all your diary and your betting patterns are very similar to mine..why we do it seems unexplainable....the only thing i can colclude is the thought of winning a huge sum from just a £20 spin keeps cropping up in my mind and that is the urge that has to be ignored and keep ignoring until it no longer keep proping up..we all want something for free..but i guess in life nothing is free. mrt I wish I had read the post posted on your diary on the 5th of Nov as that is simply the TRUTH. I think everyone needs a page like that to remind them of the true nature of this addiction 'ENOUGH IS NEVER ENOUGH' good luck m8 I will continue to keep up to date with your progress.

MrT you are not alone. I have slipped up time and time again, I have had so many Day 1's its ike groundhog day! I'm on Day 1 again too today so I am with you all the way brother. Just think how good Thursday 20th January 2011 would feel if that was a whole year since your last bet, think of something you would like to do that day, make it anything at any price and work towards it, thats what Im going to try and do

Thank you one and all for the welcome back.

Day 2 nearly over and frankly no urge to gamble whatsoever. Been here before of course so only going to take this one day at a time at the moment.

Good luck all, keep at it.

Catch up soon.

M

Well into day 3 and no thoughts of gambling so far.

I am only to aware, however, how they can sneak up on you.

Nothing much more to report at the moment.

Take care all.

M

Mr T i'm with you mate..its a difficult challenge. Your progress so far has been amazing if i can last that long i would be satisfied within myself that i might be able to beat this addiction but take one day at a time see each day of not gambling as a positive one and watch your money grow. G

Day 4

No urges to report. Haven't had the time to worry about that today! Immersed myself back into work as before.

If I can stay focussed on work and family life then it will make everthing else that little bit easier.

Good luck to all fellow recoverees.

M

Have just read my diary over and over again.

"Enough will never be enough".

When will I ever learn.

M

Day 1 again

Today I will not give in.

Good luck all

M

Hi MRT,

You came into chat a bit late. Sorry to read you are still struggling with this horrid addiction. I am struggling at the moment too...the difference is I am consumed by urges to gamble but I don't do the gambling bit...it's a struggle but the pain of the urge is less than the pain after a gambling session.

You will get there. I personally don't count the days..it puts pressure on me. You have had periods of total abstension MRT...they haven't gone away so today isn't really day 1 for you...it's just a day when you are choosing not to gamble.

You will get there...hang around here, pop into chat or use netline.

Thinking of you...Jas x

Day 3 and payday!

No urges to report after the last blow out.

Have removed all available funds, leaving enough for the direct debits and handed them over to the other half. Best to remove the tools. No funds - no gambling.

Good luck all

M

Hi MRT

Just supporting you in your struggles. Use netline as we discussed in chat...I find it really very useful and it has been successful in squashing many of my gambling urges. Consider the online counselling too.

Take Care...Jas x

Good to speak to you in chat,

Thanks for your post. It is a tough one to beat, this gambling business! I am glad to hear that you are going to try being less hard on yourself.

I am terrible for the old 'all or nothing' thinking, and get myself all whipped up - all because of my stupidly high standards for myself. Can I tell you a guilty secret? sometimes I am too demanding of others too. I can be very critical, and have high expectations. Its not something that sits comfortably, knowing that about myself.

Do you know what though? no one is perfect. Everyone has faults, and why should I, or you expect ourselves to be any different? Sometimes just becoming aware of it, and trying to accept it can do a lot of good.

Take care,

f x

Got a lot out of chat yesterday. Thanks to all involved. Has given me some things to really think quite deeply about and a fresh resolve to beat this addiction.

Today I will not let myself be drawn in.

Take care all.

M

Let us know how you are today M,

Jas x

The end of a 16 hour day.

Had no time to think about not gambling. Suppose that's one way to beat it!

Good luck all.

M