My first post was last Thursday and I hoped to be GF for 11 days by end of the year. This won’t happen as I have relapsed several times over the past week.
My last bet was yesterday at 3.30pm so I’ve managed 24 hours this time which is progress.
I’ll be posting in here to monitor my progress and I hope to look back on this post by end of next year as the turning point.
I’m financially on the brink. I have to pay plumber next week for a new boiler and mortgage payment is due at end of month. My cc is maxed out. I think I can just about cover it all but it’s absurd to be in this totally self-imposed situation.
I need to stay calm and push through to next pay date and beyond and hopefully within a year my finances will be back on a firmer footing.
I’m reading some of the stories on here for inspiration and I wish everyone well on their own journeys whether they’re at the beginning like me or years into their recovery.
Tomorrow, Saturday, is an obvious trigger day, but I already feel some sort of relief that I won’t be waking up figuring out all my bets for the day and spending inordinate amounts of time gambling and checking results and chasing the inevitable losses.
Bwin well done in making your decision I found when it’s in print it’s real and then you can trace your recovery! The days gf is a number to be proud of! I found that thinking gambling was going to kill me rather than me missing a comfort has helped! Also self exclusion is key to my early few days when tempted! Keep posting
Good luck Bwim, I too had a relapse this week, but am also firmly committed to a new year, new start.
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