Ok so I’m starting a diary! Every morning is day 1 and every evening is a downfall, over and over again. 5 years of this is driving me mad. I can go a day feel good then back at it. Slots are my problem. It’s like I’m stuck in a trance, knowing I shouldn’t be doing it but not being able to stop.
if I don’t stop now I will land myself in trouble. I can just about dig myself out of this hole if I stop now and accept I’m not going to win back my loses.
I owe friends and family money, not to mention I’ve racked up debt I’m struggling to keep up with minimum payments.
That’s it, I will beat this even if I have to bored you by writing every day. I’m done. I don’t enjoy life anymore, it’s so sad.
I’m working extra to survive and then coming home a losing it again. It’s madness.
This is a great place to start your journey, read through peoples recovery diaries for inspiration and ask for the support if you need it. You can do it, you have to want to more than anything. Its an illness an addiction, one of the worse ones out there, but only you have the strength to beat it.
First thing put every block in place you can, gamstop is great you can exclude from online gambling for 5 years, most bank accounts have a gambling block, and if you physically bet minimise your withdrawal limit, or trust in someone to keep hold of your money, and most importantly be honest with yourself and other people if you can, confide in your family, you will be suprised the amount of support you will get.
You've got this
Thanks Deborah! Appreciate your reply.
So I made it through day 1! 24 hrs done.
Watched some good tv and actually watched it, which I haven’t done for ages.
Off to bed and ready to tackle day 2!
Nice to know I want be waking up think oh no what did I lose last night.
Onwards and upwards 😊
Day 2. Sitting here looking at the financial mess. Nearly tempted to try for the big win this morning. Not doing it. Going to be strong. This is the cycle that I need to get off.
@ladies123 Thats the best frame of mind to have, the urges will come but breathe through them, occupy yourself for 20 minutes and they will be gone, and try to remember you will never win back what you have lost, but you win every penny that you dont put back in
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