Ok so I’m starting a diary! Every morning is day 1 and every evening is a downfall, over and over again. 5 years of this is driving me mad. I can go a day feel good then back at it. Slots are my problem. It’s like I’m stuck in a trance, knowing I shouldn’t be doing it but not being able to stop.
if I don’t stop now I will land myself in trouble. I can just about dig myself out of this hole if I stop now and accept I’m not going to win back my loses.Â
I owe friends and family money, not to mention I’ve racked up debt I’m struggling to keep up with minimum payments.Â
That’s it, I will beat this even if I have to bored you by writing every day. I’m done. I don’t enjoy life anymore, it’s so sad.Â
I’m working extra to survive and then coming home a losing it again. It’s madness.
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