Day 1/100

Back to day zero

Damm it what was I thinking..

Well I'll Explain what a stupid sod I am.

I get into the city two hours early to beat the traffic .Flew through quicker than expected and now have time to kill.I decide to look round the shops (last 5 mins)then use the TAB toilets.While I'm there I decide to look at races and make a note if I would have won or lost.Just happens I would have lost every race I watch.No urges ,and feel quite happy & "THINK" how in control I am.How wrong!!

This is the stupid bit!

(I'll re visit tomorrow as wife is back and time for sleep & don't want to rewrite from start tomorrow)

Hey... Today has proven how important barriers are to a compulsive gambler and how dangerous free time can be. You had access to money and time to kill its kind of inevitable that you would find yourself gambling. But hopefully next time you can be better prepared? I have had enough slips over the past few years to know how quickly us compulsive gamblers can go from absolutely determined never to gamble again to thinking £5 won't hurt to being straight back into the gambling cycle.

The positive you can take is that you admitted your slip straight away and didnt disappear for months as I did the last time.

Hoping tomorrow is gamble free!

Ali

I'm sitting in the TAB yesterday watching races & dogs go by then...

I see a harness race with a a horse called four aces.

You might think so what?

Bringing things back to earlier that day I randomly switched over the tv to see an old re run of only fools and horses .I hadn't watched that show in 5 years + but I felt like watching it .As the story unfolded Del Boy was down on his luck gambling .To cut a long story short he has Four Aces in his hand to win the game of

poker & the episode was called "four aces

"

As stupid as It now sounds I took this as a sign that I have to bet on this harness!hey what are the odds that the day I watch this episode I see a horse with this name.

I decide to take out just 30 pound of the 170 I have in my pocket and place the bet at 7-1.i convince myself this doesn't count ,a one off .Only because of my sign.

It starts right at the back .Left behind .Then bolts back to front with 600m to go,I think wow what a sign ,feel the rush of energy,start to smile then gets pipped on the line by the 2-1 fav.s**t I didn't expect it to lose.What am I thinking?well I still have 140 in my pocket but now I'm back to day zero I might try and put a quick 60 on 1-2 fav greyhound ..it can't lose ,I'll be back to evens and no harm done .it loses ,doesn't even place .Now I'm 90 down in a flash .oh cr** stil got 80 left .I try slot machine which I'd be dying to play on as I got my big 2000 win off it 3 weeks ago.dam lost 50 in a blink .im left with 30 pounds ,I panic put 25 on a horse at 15-1 & 5 on Quinella.

Horse gets beat on photo ,quinella comes in returns 50 pounds .i put slip in my pocket and head to work .TAB is 24 hours so when I Finish work I had to "collect"50 pounds .I put it straight on a random 5-1 2nd fav horse that had come in from 8-1.it runs like it has one leg ,I didn't hear it named once and finished almost last .

I don't feel bad ,I don't feel angry .i feel lost .

I saved what I needed to this week .the 170 was extra money I earned .Anything extra seems to get gambled.

Today I have an urge to win it back.i want the 170 back.its not out of boredom I want to gamble today ,but to "even things back up"

Sorry for the long post ,I just needed to get down exactly how I was feeling & relive it ,to try and understand it .

Hi Luke,

Sorry to hear about your slip up, When i read your post i smiled as it made me think about all the random signs that i thought i had or saw when i gambled, It verged on madness, playing the same machine, talking to it, rubbing it, kicking it... Having an itchy hand, seeing a magpie.... Utter madness.

I had an itchy hand it didnt mean i was going to win on some random chance game but when gambling I couldnt see that.

Its random chance and had no connection to a television programme you watched ?

What did you learn from your slip.... That perhaps your not as in control as you thought you was ?

I learnt that i cant win because i cant stop. Dont chase the money, the result will only be worse.

take care

blondie

Hi blondie,thanks for your reply..it is madness ,the universe giving us signs is the worst theory.

I think it's formed a strong connection in my brain I need to unwire.

It happened a good few years ago I was watching a film on zidane a football player ,then I saw this horse called zidane on tv very next day .i was convinced was a sign & my family needs money .i put 500 pounds on it as an all or nothing hunch.it won at I think 10-1.from then on I have lost so much chasing "signs"

I'm unhappy to say I have had a cr** 2 hour gamble frenzy.

I drew 160 out and wasted it on machine in 10 mins .returned to bank drew 500.

Lost 150 in machine and 180 on 3 horse races.

Had a random 5 on computer racing 11 and 1 quinella won at 58-1 .i put it on twice by mistake .

So all in all yesterday and today's horrible,stressfull ,time I'm even.

I left the shop thinking I must have been in a bad place to put the bet on twice without noticing .

Anyway I need to STOP.

No need to go chasing .I need to stop this "it's a sign"nonsense.i need to not want to bet on live sport to make less boring.

Day zero

Bad run

So last few days since Wednesday I've been back to gambling non stop.

After going back to even up on Thursday morning I returned mid afternoon to bet on machines -horses.dogs and computer generated racing.Won 250 ,wasted a bit then left after 2 hours 150 up.fought hard not to return that evening to a TAB.

Friday -no betting in he morning then 4pm went to TAB on way home and won 300 off a 80p quienella on computer generated 10-12.

First time played computer generated ever this week.

Gambled on a frenzy of 5 pound quienella on computer for next 2 hours ..nothing came up and finished 240 up .Friday evening logged on to iPad and placed 15 pounds on mix of long shot sports bets that lost.

I have seen this pattern a thousand times.

I win -win win then all of. Sudden I can't stop ,lose everything I won plus months wages in one day.

If I know it's going to happen ,how can I stop it?

Day 1

I'm aware of my bad habits

I'm aware I will lose more than money if I gamble

I win if I stop

I am a man of my word

I pride myself on keeping to my word

I will not gamble today

Day 1 comes to a close

Football is about to start & normally I'm right into betting on live events.Today I have stuck to my word.i have been out for a nice dinner and now going to relax and watch the football.

I am happy

Ok update from last few days

Went 4 days no gambling no thoughts.

On Monday paid out 1200 to buy a flash laptop which I love.And was wanting to spend time watching a movie on it or playing a game rather than gambling.

Then Tuesday went on mad spell betting virtual ,greyhounds and horses lasted about an hour or two.

Was 100 up.lost in the end around 50.

Wednesday was my worst day by far in a while.

Determined to win back 50 and "win"a bit towards laptop,I spent two hours in tab losing around 100 then I had work.After work I returned and just went on a losing ** with stakes getting higher and higher .i had just been paid and had cash in my wallet (around 800)

All of a sudden after feeding 20 after 20 I was down to 350

I decided to stake 200 on euro champs game.I was on such I losing streak if I didn't it would have just been gobbled up on random virtual races.

It's weird the race before I got to the tab both times result was 11 and 1 @58/1 my numbers .

,!if u was 2 mins quicker I would have been up quite500-750.i spent the whole time chasing these numbers on virtual.Lost everything in my wallet.Felt sick and shaky.But felt at least had football double to look forward to.I always get a thrill out of betting on live sport.

My games won ,and won back the 800 + 50 from Tuesday+ around 50 extra.

I am writing on here because I commit to not bet when I collect my money back today.

I give my word.I have been giving so many chances,I need to stop .

9 days since my last post-

I collected"winnings last Thursday safety from the tab.

Had string of online bets on football over last weekend and this midweek .reckon I was about 100 up.

On Thursday had 100 cash on me which I'd just been paid and spare couple of hours.The urge wasnt strong.id been out of bookies for over a week.

Just thought I could Do with turning 100 into 200.

Lost.

Thursday night comes in and really have the urge to win back money.Also figure I could afford extra 100.

Football bets have been good to me and see florentina paying 3/1.huge odds I think and stick the 100 on.They throw away 1-0 lead in a game they dominated.cr** feel really let down with that one.

Friday ,do a bit of sums and about 500-750 less saved than planned.+the 200 I could have saved!

I have a whole day of nothing to do so draw 500 out and get excited about an afternoon of gambling.

If I could even win half my stake I think,will be helpful.But aim to stop once 500 up.

RUBBISH..lose 50 on machines in 2mins

Swap to horses,greyhounds and virtuals.Wow feels like universe is against me.back horse 1 to win five time in a row ,loses every time .Lose about every horse race by a whisker or mix up exacta .

One big win brings balance back to 350 an hour in.Then slide back and before I know it I'm punting 150 (last of my money)on a all in virtual race.

I spread the money over far out quinellas,and 100 on 1 @4-1

Gone..total time 2 hours

Most up .NEVER up

Feel very low .More upset than angry.imknow I should stop but have creates this monster of a habit,lose in bookies,win it back online football betting.

I feel I've used all the luck last 2-3 times to get me back to even.

Then think 500 on 1.5 & 1.7 and not only no harm done maybe even little bit up.

Sorry for so much dribble,but need to get it down in writing.Fed up of writing my finances down and losing money that I need to be saving.

Ok lost another 350 last Saturday on betting mainly on Real Madrid .

Total last week 1000

Its been hurting this week ,I have had money to gamble but haven't as it's my savings that I need.

I've set myself a target of buying a new car in next year .

I'm pleased to say I am on Day 7 with no gambling.

With football on this weekend I am tempted to out a quick unharmful 10 pound accumulator on .But I knowing I lose I will go chasing winning it back and the cycle blows up!if I win I will get the bug and not stop!

No gambling for me this weekend.

Hey everyone !2 months since my last post ..I have bee. Meaning to write on here the last 4 weeks but tonight I am rock bottom.

I won 2000 pounds 5 weeks ago on electronic dogs and horses called trackside.

I kept the cash in my wallet,put it in the bank ,even gave 500 to friends and family to hold for me to new year.No use I was in and out of bookies everyday 4-5 times during a day.

I eventually 3 weeks ago got down to 1200 up and lost it all in one evening,!

Since then the 3 weeks have been a nightmare

Week 1 lost 250

Week 2 lost 300

Week 3 lost 300

Been holding out all day going to the bookies ,then tonight signed up to online poker site(first time online betting in 2 years)and lost 200 playing blackjack!

I now have 20 pounds in my bank ,struggling to make ends meet and cover rent.

I feel down,lost,hurt,angry,frustrated,numb,dull,uninterested. No self worth,bored,stupid.

I think one word somes it all so simply"ROCK BOTTOM"

Today I had from 11am-11pm to myself started well watched a movie,studying,got food..but boredom just kicked my a** and bey 8pm I was itching to gamble any way I could,I loved logging on and trying to win money.I LOVE IT...I was so happy in that moment.

Now I am hating myself,but when then pay check comes next week I will seek out the same buzz,it's so sad I need to stop.

When I won 2000 I didn't spend a penny on myself ,there wasn't anything I wanted to buy ....the thing is I just e

"enjoy"the feeling of gambling .Stupid but true.

I need help.

I am a waste of space.

Thanks for the post 101 sports.

yes that is exactly it with 2000 in cash in my wallet there was nothing I wanted to buy-now a ps4/Xbox one ,clothes ,presents,iPad all spring to mind with change .

Today I woke up with 50 in my online account from a random 2 pound football bet from man u game.i should have cashed it but within 1 minute it was gone.

I like the advice about looking after my money but unfortunately I receive random amounts daily and some weeks 400 -1000 in advance payments.Thes are the worse as Blow them straight away.

I am going to set small targets,first step from now no gambling in any form before Xmas .

Day 0

hello everybody!well what a terrible month in terms of not gambling.

it has been daily since my last post.

On my gambling app on my phone .I was 2200 up until yesterday then I had a whole day from 1pm in the bookies.i came back at 10pm with another 1600 in my account.3800 in total!

Then like a crazy person had dinner then went back "out" to gamble again at 11pm.

By 1am I had lost 1600 and returned home.

Late at night I seemed to get the most terrible odds on overseas races and stakes went from normal 20-100.pounds to 200-500.

I cashed out last night and feel sick over wasting all that money I had won.When I win a bet or a lot of money I just cant get gambling out of my head.i just cant stop.

Day 1 today I can do this!

Hi,so I've found a new way to lose money !

nba betting everyday!first went well had a few winners.

Now been 2 months of daily 25 pound bets with the odd 100 pound bet and no winners.The problem is on a day off I love the feeling of watching the game with a bet on.Makes my day feel exciting.Then if I lose I'll head to bookies and blow 200-500 pounds.Or till I've got no money that week.

last week won 700 on virtual racing then blew it plus 300 of my own.This week I lost 250 Tuesday & 550 yesterday .From 20 pound NBA bet to 150 horse racing ,then back for 170 nba to finally a football bet to try and get even 🙁

All up 1100 in just over 10 days.ii am just left with my rent which I CAN'T GAMBLE as comes out in 10 days.

Last month I gambled my rent and had to make an excuse to lend 500 pounds .

I need to stop .

Day 1 today