Day one again!!!!!

Hi Phil

You are already going forwards and learning all the time

This is a big positive for you

Well done on 5 days

Suzanne xx

Day 6 and going well so far, had no urges which is good as Saturdays are danger days. Enjoying watching Soccer Saturday and hoping for a goal for my team soon. Having been drifting along for a while my mind feels much clearer now.

Two weeks till payday which will be the next big test for me, but I am back in a good place and won't be slipping up again.

Just home from work on day 7 just in time for MOTD2. Really enjoying watching this Man Utd game, some exciting football and some real stars on display. Its nice being in work at the moment with a clear mind, the slip up I had really made work hard as it can get in my head and cloud over everything else. I'm thinking a lot more positively and need to continue in this frame of mind. The light is a long way away, but I am heading in the right direction!

Day 8 and just on my way back from work. I'm feeling pretty positive but it does make me mad with people going on about gambling in work. I've told one lad so many times that I have a problem and can't be looking at his bets but he keeps on asking me what I think about his football bet. I just try to let it go over my head but it's annoying when one of my barriers is avoiding all knowledge of odds.

Anyway on the positive side that's another day gone without a bet. I'm starting early tomorrow so I can finish at 7 and go to the match. Going with a lad who doesn't gamble which is good. No bets today and none tomorrow!

well done born again

8 days is top work

keep it up and keep posting keep sharing

it does make a difference

tri

Thanks for the support Triangle. It's day 9 and I'm in work early because I'm off to the match later. Just about got enough cash to get in and get a couple of pints so no worries about gambling for tonight. Here's hoping we pick up all three points, we need them!

The next big test is a week on Friday when I get paid, I've put more barriers in place and I'm in a better place so I'm confident I won't slip up. No bets for me today!

Day 10 and I am really finding work a struggle at the moment. I guess some people would think I was lucky because my job is easy and the pay is ok, but its just so boring. I no longer need to think very much to do my job and I will have to kill time later because there's not enough work to do. The saying is better the devil you know, but I need to get out of there. I have been looking for a while, but so far I have not been able to find a job on the same or more money.

The football last night was dire, it was a nil nil draw. I wasn't tempted to have a bet and don't currently have any gambling thoughts in my head.

Oh well time to get work out the way, the net 8 hours are going to feel like 12. No bets for me today!

Well done so far Phil, keep it going mate.

Your job might be boring but you'd be a hell of a lot more bored and wouldn't have cash to go to the football if you were out of work. I find it really easy to look from the top down, think about what I don't have and compare myself to others. I'm trying to look from the bottom up, it isn't easy but it will be worth it in the end.

All the best.

Day 11 and been a refreshing week so far, I have made a few changes to my life in order to take some of the weight off my mind and feel I'm progressing in other areas. Its natural to want a quick fix all the time but the reality is that after making such a mess of my life it won't fix itself overnight.

I will be glad to get today out the way and have my two days off. There's a big rugby match on Friday that I can't afford to go to, but can watch on tv and then I'm off to the football on Saturday. Two wins would be nice. And I certainly won't be going near bookies I feel so strong again and don't want it.

Day 12 and in a weeks time I will be paid, I really hope I stay in this frame of mind and don't get tempted as I feel good at the moment. I feel more like I did when I stopped in December, the urges are currently low and I feel strong and don't want to slip up again.

Looking forward to the big rugby match tonight, two wins from the final at Old Trafford. Although the way my finances are I would be lucky to be able to afford it!

Anyway got to be positive, no bets today and no football coupons tomorrow!

Hi Phil

Good positive post

Well done on 12 days of winning

Suzanne xx

Thanks Suzanne, day 13 today and after a big win in the rugby last night the football was absolutely dire. I am really regretting having bought train tickets for next weeks away game. But on the bright side I walked past a few bookies on my way to the ground and wasn't tempted. I was however a bit peeved that the pub had a football coupon holder provided by the bookies next door. I didn't take a look at the many coupons left on the bar. So bad result, but better than being in the house and a day without temptation. Few beers and some boxing tonight and then sadly back to work tomorrow.

Day 14 and not long home from work, survived another day without any temptation to gamble. Had to tell someone in work that I wasn't interested when he was going on about football coupons, don't like to be rude but certain people just don't listen when I tell them I'm a problem gambler trying to stop. Overheard a few moans and groans about todays football results during the day, there's only ever one winner and that's the bookies!

It feels good to again be in a world were I have no idea whats going on gambling wise, no awareness of odds and no knowledge of what races are on day to day. Long may it continue!!!!

Day 15 and been a quiet morning. Its the start of a big week, as my first pay day since I slipped up is Friday. I need to keep my barriers strong and most importantly not let the small amount that I have left after all my outgoings get me down. I need to focus on that small amount being better than nothing, which is what I would be left with if I gambled!

Just finished work and it's the end of day 16. Made a computer error which resulted in the wrong stock getting rejected so I will be getting a talking to tomorrow, hopefully not too severe! I'm normally really careful so I feel stupid and will be glad to get in tomorrow and face the music rather than having it playing on my mind.

No bad thoughts today, no urges and I'm feeling good about the future!