Day two 05/08/18.
Woke up after the best nights sleep I'd had in a long time as I didn't have to stay awake gambling or worrying about my addiction. I woke up today feeling nothing but relief. Maybe the realisation of what I'd done or what pain I caused to my family hadn't sunk in yet. I felt relieved that it was all out in the open, ironic how it was my addiction and my debt, yet I was the one that had the better night's sleep compared to my family.
That morning my brother had spoke to parents and had invited us all to his house, instead of originally spending an afternoon with his wife and two year old son.
First thing my parents did was they paid for my overdue phone bill. For the past two weeks leading up to this date, my phone contract was suspended by EE as I was unable to pay my monthly bill because I had spent my wages on gambling, rather than paying for my priorities bills. Although I was still able to use my phone on wifi, of course this is how I continued to gamble, I was unable to phone anyone or send text messages. Ridiculous really, what happens if I had broken down in my car somewhere and was unable to phone for assisstance? None of this crossed my mind at the time, the only thing that was on my mind was gambling, why would it matter as I could still use my phone on wifi to gamble. I may not have showed much emotion to my family but I certainly was thankful to my parents for paying my bill off.
In the afternoon, my brother took me to an EE shop to set me up a new phone contract and new number. A welcome relief to me, knowing that no creditor or broker or call centre or bogus number could constantly harrass me all day long. Not that it was the fact of me trying to run away from creditors, as all my creditors would be informed via e-mail and letter of my situation and that I would be sorting out a debt managment plan. It was the fact I knew I would have peace of mind, no longer if I received a phone call or text would I have to worry who it was and no longer would I have to lie about who was phoning me if my family ever asked. Knowing this felt really good and I owe that feeling to my brother.
How lucky I am to have such a caring and wonderful family around me at times like this.
Take care
Ry.
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