Desperate to stop - I can't afford to fail

Hiya mate

i am exactly the same

a day doesnt go by when I am not betting on football/racing etc

i cannot stop

Hi Luke

Firstly, welcome to the GamCare forum.  It's great that you have posted and thank you for being so open and honest.

Sorry to hear about your situation with gambling at present.  I have direct lived experience of gambling harms and have felt similar in the past.  A diary or journal is a great idea in terms of accountability and we have peer supporters available on the forum on a daily basis, should you have any questions.

If you feel there is anything specific you need help with or would like to hear more about our services, please let us know.

Try and remember to be kind to yourself and I hope day 1 has treated you well.

I look forward to keeping updated with your diary entries!

Thanks

Cabe

You can do it just one day at a time.rl remember  a day not gambling  offers you peace  and protection  and been able to sleep.if you gamble win or lose your peace  of mind is gona and no matter how good we think  we are in the end we always  lose.if we win it's just a lend that we pay back 10 fold. 

Stay strong and wish you well 

Remember if you win, you will just lose it back later. It's not worth it. Get  blocks in place. Good luck. 

Hi everyone, and thank you to everyone who commented. I've not been receiving notifications whenever I receive a reply - so I must admit - I didn't think I had any responses! It means a lot, genuinely.

So far, so good. I haven't gambled. Gambling really is a waste of time, money and energy. I can't establish in my own mind what positives it actually brings and I'm beginning to think my gambling is also a form of self-harm. I really need to learn to love myself, but I feel so 'behind' in life that, at times, I can't see any other way out than to gamble to accelerate my life - even though I know it just pushes the finish line further away.

I've booked in to talk to someone and frozen my card to limit any further damage. I've demolished my savings which I feel utterly sickened by, but there are more important things than money - I need to sort my head out to stop this recurring.

Now that I know people are engaging with this diary I'll try my best to post daily.

Stay strong, everyone.