Diary 2

Thank you Rob. I have flagged your post as abusive. Maybe see you at 8 in the chat room so you can explain why you think that about me and most forum users don't. Best wishes, Phil

Most forum users are in the complete grip of addiction and shouldn't be used as a bench mark to what is right or wrong. In fact if forum users are agreeing with you more than they are angry at you, you are doing something wrong.

Cool Rob. Cheers.

Phil :))

I'm not havin a go but I think sometimes you need just to not read too much into things , it is an open forum and as such just as in real life your alway's going to get people you favour or agree with and those you don't .

I personally don't have a problem with the way you post but that being said I can also see why some would find them occasionally a little as someone put it " Snidy " at times and in my opinion this is simply because you tend to refer to things that have happened or something or someone that has maybe upset you but only on your page .

Maybe it would be better if you have an issue with another poster that you go directly to them and actually explain what has upset you and wait for a response ? .

You know the way I post and in the couple of years I've been here I've had quite a few spat's with people, in fact I've argued the toss with the best of em ,with Louis and Dan being just two , the difference is that if I felt someone was at fault or said something I didn't like I would just go and tell them on their diary and despite those falling's out I still post on those pages today when I see fit and when I agree or disagree , as it is what it is and I don't believe there's anything to be gained in telling someone to stay off your diary , if were not wrong some of the time then we must be perfect and you know as well as I that were not here because of that fact !.

Youv'e conducted your recovery and other related issues the way you saw fit , youv'e made mistakes along the way just as we all do and when needed youv'e held your hands up and said so , youv'e come so far in your recovery not only with the ga,mbling but also the dependency on your long term medication and should be proud of what youve achieved in the length of time on this site and most importantly you haven't gambled one penny But sometimes you just need to count to 10 and "Breath " my friend !

Were all " Work's in progress " Phil , constantly changing , learning and adapting to our new gamble free life which at times can be quite strange and turbulant , even all the " Long termers " and I know I do still have their demons and personally I don't think they ever leave for good but they do get much less frightening ? .

Even last night I had such a realistic dream that I'd gambled again and I woke in a real sweat convinced I had , I've not had one of those for a long while but I guess there something I still need to deal with from time to time ! .

Sorry went a bit off track there !

I'm not even sure why I'm writing this if I'm honest Phil but I just wanted to express my view on recent events .

Keep doing what works Phil but start learning to relax and enjoy what youv'e worked so hard to gain :))

All the best Bud !

Hitting the nail on the head albeit with a lump hammer I do think Rob has a good point in both his posts. And rather than run to your familiarity of the ' flag button ' you should possibly heed some of the advice given.

I'm a builder Phil, yet quite interested in the peasant language of ours, so usually when someone starts a sentence of ' I'm not having a go ' usually means, I'm having a go.

So, Phil I'm not having a go, but just through my own personal experience resentment is a pal of addiction. I've also found that relentless ' sorry's ', are not so much sorry for ones actions but more a sorry for oneself.

So my moral is, albeit this is your diary and your rules but how about using it for your thoughts, vulnerabilities, recovery and not a place for sly digs or how others are doing there ' recovery '

Flag button bottom right !

No need to ban me from future posting on this diary Phil, as quite happy not to, and despite how you take this post I'm gonna wish you well

Thank you for the comments.

If anyone can see a recent post on my own diary or elsewhere that justifies me being called what I was called please enlighten me. If I've had a sly dig or made a snide remark on my diary or elsewhere recently show me where.

The abuse I got in D&D when I posted what I posted (which I deeply regret) a couple of months ago was nasty but I took it on the chin, accepted moderation and the reasons why and moved on albeit with more insight as I have posted before. I think the moderators of this forum are probably having the odd look at what I write and that's fine.

Anyway on with my journey with no more justification. As far I'm concerned this discussion is closed as I think I have made it very clear I don't want a spat with anyone.

Hmmm...all of them has hidden meaning Phil and you know it yourself... your defence mechanism as "it's my diary", "I'm off tranquillisers", ect....are a little worn off...that's only my humble opinion.

One knows another as i can be like that also, but not to such "deep" extent.

Best wishes to you

Hey Phil ,

Look bud you know how it is on here and sometimes a bit of name calling is thrown in to emphasise how someone is feeling, it's just like being back in the playground at times on here but has the desired affect in getting someones attention , if that was the worst I'd been called I'd be quite chuffed TBH , so take it on the chin and move on ,were all supposed to be grownups on here but like myself sometimes " The child within comes out to play " .

Despite Paul telling you otherwise ( sorry Paul ) I really wasn't " Havin a go " but wanted to put my point accross how some may perceive your post's at times . I don't believe wev'e ever fell out Phil as there's never been an issue and all I'm saying is that sometimes it's good to have a bit of reflection to see if you can see what other's may see ...............If you see ? LoL.

Were all a sensetive bunch on here at times Phil and those feelings can boil over ( I know mine have ) but as the saying goes " Tommorows another day " my friend and a blank canvas once again :))

Stay well :))

Thanks Alan. I appreciate your feedback. I just want to knock the subject on the head. Opinions have been expressed but I would rather just move on. Cheers, Phil.

Ok Phil that's your choice of course but on one final note I will just say that as Compulsive Gamblers we become very good at burying our heads in the sand and brushing over things without facing issues that feel uncomfortable , In recovery it has to be wart's n all and facing what doesn't away's feel so good ! .

Stay safe Phil

and as alway's I wish you well :))

Fight! fight! fight! fight! (Sorry couldn't resist)

I must of missed something big because I am not sure what comments people are referring to and haven't seen anyone supplying any.

Your Diary, your rules - no need to change Phil.

Cheers as always for your support.

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I didn't want to continue this but I have expressed remorse over the thread I started on D&D two months or so ago and other posts and have since then taken on board constructive criticism from Gamcare and posted on my diary and elsewhere with thought and sensitivity.
I do not want grievances with fellow forum members and will continue to describe my life and hopefully be supportive to others.
Best wishes, Phil.

Hi Phil you seem to be rather unfairly riding a storm at the momentfor what it's worth you have been nothing but encouraging and supportive, for that I thank you S:)

Thank you Sharon