Hi paul. Very well done so far, keep the count going. Anyone that is doing that well is an inspiration for people like me just starting. I hope u enjoy or 100 day anniversary to the fullest. Cheers
Day 0
Days until target 1
Thought I would come on and hang my head in shame as I have gambled, just for an hour and now I am back home but it happened.
Lost a small amount which will have me buying the reduced bread at the end of the day, darning my socks instead of online shopping as well as reaching for the blended malts instead of the single.
Felt like not posting for a while but I have to be honest at some point. Just fed up with not gambling and feels like my brain is being squeezed in one of those vices you see in secondary schools.
Had the possibility of losing a lot more as I have been saving for my almsot 4 months gamble free. Time to start again now, I have no problem with that, just want to rack up more days now, it really does feel like I am moving in the right direction, first 40 days gamble free then 80 now 117.
Each time I have slipped the ridiculousness of the situation has been brought home. Today in a bookies in an unfamiliar part of the city I looked around and smiled at the desperate souls in that shop, it was something Dickensian with every last hope placed on a 50p each way bet on a hopeless punt in lordknowswheretown. I smiled because I realised i was no better and no worse, I was there and it was a relief to lose some and walk away.
Oh what a struggle we live but we all live together, everyone has been so supportive on this site.
13 weeks and 91 days till the end of the year. In the past that would have been inconceivable but now it seems possible.
Xmas and New Year gamble free for the first time ever!! It can be done
Paulds
Sorry to hear about your slip. Hey ya had some good time behind ya gamble free and ya really don't loose it all in one day. Just a slip and there's plenty more days to conquer.
Hey paulds - am pleased to read your diary - good on you for coming straight into your diary and being honest with yourself. It happened - not good - but we can't change that so we move forward. You sound optimistic and I love that. A Christmas and New Year without gambling - can you imagine that! It would be amazing. It's many, many years since I managed so I'll tag along with your challenge if I can?
Cheers
J
hope your having a better day today. hang in there
hey paul
good on ya for getting straight back in there, the only way we gonna get through this journey is with honesty, yes ok you may have slipped but ultimately you back and itsll about one day at a time so there is no difference apart from you are stronger.
keep going bud
carl
Hey Paul,
G.A say that this is a 24hr programme hence the one day at a time. Its today that counts not tomorrow and not yesterday.
The beauty of life is that whilst we can not undo what is done we can see it, understand it learn from it and change.
You have the power again my friend and I know you will learn from it.
Take care
Blondie
Yo,
You know you can kick this addiction into touch for a sustained period .
Proud of you for your honesty , proud of you for not giving your addictive demons more power by feeling sorry for yourself.
It happened done dusted , now the future .
Hats off to you my friend , by posting you have helped us all , our addiction maybe out of sight , but is always there .
Shiny xxxxxxx
hope all is good with ya. dont be beating yourself up either. dont do no good and yeah just a new day with better things to offer.
hoping all is good with ya bud. dont be giving up on yourself cause we both know ya got what it takes and ya proved it to boot.
Hi Paul,
Sorry 2 read about ur slip, I know it's difficult but try 2 be kind 2 urself!
How r u?
I hope u r ok and staying strong 🙂
Hey dude, from the land of saw dust and pixy dust right back at ya. Sh-it we ain't perfect and neither is this world. But yeah know there's a happy spot ln it for us. So yeah one big hell no we won't go from the states to you dude. Yup the hanging can work to our advantage. And we ain't out to dry yet.
Oops forgot shaking my head now and not sure if It's the saw dust or pixy dust but that cloud is best wishes your way.
Yo,
Just wanted to say , that hands ALWAYS there to lift or give a well deserved pat on the back.
Have a great gamble free weekend , I know I will !
Shiny xxxxxxxx
so how goes it with you? hope all is fine on your end of the world. kinda slept the day away yesterday myself playing catch up from what i dont get during the week. guess its always a sure fire way of staying gamble free any way. lol
hope that gambling bug be leaving you alone and happy day coming your way.
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