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Ask yourself the question: What matters!!

...Houses & Cars, titles and clothes, all that wonderful money, none of it is really yours, you may get all heated up about it for a while. However, it was all around a long time before you sat down at the board. And it will be here long after you have gone. The fact is everything we consume and clutch will be lost. So you have to ask yourself...When you finally get the ultimate promotion, when you have made the ultimate purchase, when you buy the ultimate home, when you have stored up financial security and climbed the ladder of success to the highest rung you can possibly climb..And the thrill wears off.. and it will..How far do you have to go down that road before you see where it leads? Understand it will NEVER be enough...

Gambling seems to be the whole problem, trust me it isn't...It's only part of it...

My wish is to stop gambling...67 days says, I am!

BTW thanks Alleinpo,

Just recovering from sickness,

I added that last post because I thought it was deep and proves that our addictions were actually created by someone else

...Strange as it seems, we can continue to blame them or we blame ourselves...It doesnt solve nothing, because whoever we blame the problem/temptation will always exist...When we talk about our weakness are we doubting that we can overcome gambling? Or, are we totally truthful....I lost time, and time again, because I repeadetly lied to myself and it seems millions of others have suffered the same fate....Something isn't right, is it?

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Yes, it is a disgrace about that bet/ and they used him as a scapegoat...

I totally agree with what the counsellor told you...However, I am led to believe that there is something else controlling what we do. Because why would a person that knows gambling causes misery, poverty, crime and even death. Yet we still go back for more and it's our problem?.. I think that there is definitely something the government/media isn't telling us. There is so much BS out there already and the people in power decide a little gambling issue wouldn't hurt anything would it?

71 Days gambling free...

I have also decided to steer clear from alcohol...It is definitely in my best interests. I had chronic back pain for around 2 years and surprisingly I stopped drinking in January...The back pain disappeared after abstinence (aout two weeks later). I thought it was strange that after two years my back heals. Therefore, I went for a blood test last week and should get the results in the coming days.

I have told the DR that I dont have much interest in stuff and about my back and he ordered a full screening.

So, I am working as a Temp, which is a struggle for me and have some pennies to survive on...Other than that I haven't gambled which is a relief. I just need that magic cloud of energy to get me through the daily grind..

Starting to slowly put things in perspective...

It's a rocky road ahead. I still have a certain amount of regret about gambling. Although I have a pessimistic view of most things and unfotunately that is part of my personality I am trying to be positive. I think being postive about absolutely everything is detrimental to one's health.For the reason that, if people cotton on to it they will try to make your life hell- well that is how it was in my last place of work.

I need to find a balance.

I just hope that everyone on this pathway can see the light at the end of the tunnel!

Thanks.

I have been feeling 'better' for the past week, I didn't want to mention it..Just in case something goes wrong, or whether it has been anxiety...I can safely say... that I am actually happy!

I recently stopped drinking and really trying to adopt a reasonable diet that includes better choices of vitamins and healthy alternatives to 'junk food'...I have also incorporated into my off days jogging ... I am happy that there is No sign of my Chronic back pain which I suffered with for over two years...This really is fantastic!

I am smiling a lot more and I actually like my new job....The horrible cloud that has been hanging over my head is finally moving away!

All I have left is, fear of the unknown and this dreaded addiction that I have to keep my guard up against...

Regards...

82 Days...

What can I say? I am getting through the days, but it is challenging!

I had simple training at work yesterday and I have found it difficult to absorb information quickly...I guess because the training wasnt of much interest to me...

As a learner I feel that I'm slow and easily distracted....However, I believe I am creative and capable of most things..It just takes me a bit more time to do things properly. I want to be able to *** things quicker and that is what makes me impatient sometimes... I can compare it to gambling; wanting that money back fast!

I still see the lottery adverts from time to time. These adverts are designed to enevtuallly distract the thought processes;to slowly let your guard down and entice you back into gambling. As a C gambler we have to block those signals and remember where a single gamble leads to...Rock bottom! For every winner, there are literally billions of loser, something the gambling industry doesnt advertise...

87 days..

Day 88... putting myself down, and other people putting me down is something my councellor suggested that I metioned quite a lot...Maybe I'm too hard on myself? On the other hand, I treat everything in life as either winning or losing...I win usually and then I run away from it all...I am really starting to understand the pattern of issues that I face in my life; without the need to gamble or drink and drugs...Everything seems to Just become less clouded...

It's sad that the people who are supposed to be closest to me are actually my worst enemy. They want to see me suffer and they sometimes say it's okay to gamble when they should be encouraging and supporting me not to! I have to distance myself from these people. Some people get off on other's misery and it makes them feel bbetter about themselves. Sad society that we live in. Even sadder that sometimes it is our relatives that want us to be constantly struggling in life. I have to move forward no matter what the outcome and leave the negative people behind. I try to confide in the wrong people and it is a huge mistake if anyone out there does the same thing. We are all alone in the fight for survival and that is exaclty what it is a 'fight for survival'

Keep your friends close and your enemies closer. But deciphering who your real friends are is the hard part

There are a number of games that one could play. Now that I have stopped playing the games I have kind of realised that life can be a serious game that if played correctly you can still potentially 'win'. It has taken me so long to realise that it can be done regardless of the situation. We all have a chance, I admit some things we have no control over...Maybe, that's why I ran away to my betting shop corner knowing that my fate isn't in my hands...Or is it? The thing that I must realise is I can work towards goals! They are acheivable...I'm not rich, or a mind reader....But with a little money and intuituion I can go quite far...At least, I should try to play the life game..Reality

Well,

I'm at the pinnacle of my recovery over on the 100day challenge. Basically I completed it! Truth is, I cannot get over the fact that I'm 100 days older-yet wiser.

Life should be lived to the fullest, it's sad that many of us don't ever have that opportunity. Either you get your head down and stuck into your work or basically sit at home wishing your life away. I am not saying sitting at home is a bad thing (although it makes me depressed). I just wish that I could go back, I guess we all do? Well, here we are i'm nearly 42 years old and I was definitely still a young man when I started here nearly 8 years ago. I have learnt so much from this website and the support that you guys have given me over the years has helped me so much. I guess that I'm doing really well in my recovery? I realise that my gambling went out of control and have somehow blocked it out. I am sstarting my recovery over on the 100 day challenge and I reccomend it to anyone that needs another form of help- kind of a self support website based in oz.

Lastly, I heard this and just wanted you to read it and remember it when you feel the need to gamble. "Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results is classed as insanity".

This applies to gambling...However, during recovery you should repeat the abstinence, and expect the same result....It's called Recovery (well being).