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Hahaha! Just hilarious! What did Mickey think of your shuttlecock? 😉

I think I'm going to be laughing about that post for the rest of the day...

Cheering you on to your next target mate!

Lmm

 
Posted : 12th June 2012 6:26 am
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o*g, Im choking on my coffee, Steve you have missed your vocation in life buddy, you seriously need to write this stuff down and send it to scriptwriters, if this was on the tele, Id tune in every time 🙂 Maybe it was the shuttlecock that let u down, shoulda tried a codpiece !!!

Thanks for your post on mine, I can hear you whistling up here, and its a mighty fine tune you blow my friend.

9 1/2 weeks is fantastic, Im only a third of the way there, but Im 3 weeks away from the madness that was stealing my sanity, and I will be forever grateful to friends like yourself who have made this journey a helluva lot easier than it would've been had I tried to go it alone.

Keep posting, your a helluva nice guy and absolutely hilarious 😀

Gamble free day to you friend

Cameron

 
Posted : 12th June 2012 8:05 am
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Hahaha Steve, that was sooooo funny, I can't stop laughing 🙂

U r soooo supportive of others, a kind, caring person Steve. U should be sooo proud of urself . U r doing brilliant!

Stay strong and keep going 🙂

 
Posted : 12th June 2012 8:38 am
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Thanks guys, you're too kind. If my words make you happier then I'm pleased, you're less likely to gamble when you're happy.

I'm not going to gamble today, no reason to, every reason not to. Got more bites which are irratating me, from horseflies, not Mickey. Wore clothes this time, wrapped up sensibly. Despite this I still got punished. I swatted there flailing my arms as they attacked. I killed three but they kept coming. If I'd been holding my daughters Barbie doll it'd been like a scene from King Kong. They even bit through my trousers, on my hand and a whopper on my forehead which makes me look ridiculous. These damned horse flies, they're definitely on Steve's Deadly sixty list.

A quiet day today for me, just going to chill and let the world pass by, yesterday, despite my delusions was a very good day, I felt content from dawn to dusk.

Take care everyone and if you can't take care then let the barriers take care of you. You all deserve to be content and none of you deserve the misery gambling brings.Steve

 
Posted : 12th June 2012 11:47 am
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HI Ste,

You must have good blood those horseflies love a good old chew on you.... Have you ever thought of taking anti-histermine ( i have no idea if thats spelt right lol ). They can help you react less to the bites . Just a thought !!!

I agree with your post on my diary although this is serious stuff and it ruins peoples lives it always best to retain a sense of humour to see the funny side of things.

Enjoy your day watching the world go by.

Blondie the big 50...

 
Posted : 12th June 2012 12:40 pm
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Oh god you make me laugh lol lol lol

Love the scene that you set for your 9 1/2 weeks, i reckon it felt pretty d**n good !

I will never be able to look at spiderman pj's in the shops in quite the same way again, was going to get my nephew some but might have to re think !

Sorry the horseflies love you sooo much and i now have further visions with the one on your head!

Serious Steve you are doing really well and your humour lightens this forum up, it makes us see that we can have a good laugh, be happy, contented and just about ok with life as long as we remain bet free

Thanks for your post on mine and yes agree a drink can lower the defences but i know that i can fight the urges if they come and at the moment i have none which is bloody fantastic but i also remain alert just incase!

Keep Strong

Smiling laughing Lucy

 
Posted : 12th June 2012 4:56 pm
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Thanks 4 ur post steve.

Well done on nine and a half weeks and gud luck with your next target.

P.S. R u sure your not a comedian who has a gambling addiction dont worry your annoymity is assured on here haha

 
Posted : 12th June 2012 7:04 pm
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hi steve,

yes you are right, this illness is sooo miserable....when i relapsed i dont remember how i ended inside a casino...i was like hypnotized....we have to be every day alert i am afraid....

take care my friend

mike

 
Posted : 13th June 2012 9:02 am
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Hi "THE STEG"... it's an approriate name I feel.

Thanks for your post... sorry to hear about your situation and hope you can be back as soon as is possible. There is no replacement for someone with a sense of humour and a loud voice, and I am sure you are sorely missed by the kids and the staff.

"Choose life"... choice words... I will think about them... been a little more tempted than usual these last few days... but from others diaries it would seem there is nothing stable about recovering from an addiction. Choose Golf, I must... there is a self destruct button in me trying to get out... but "Choose Life" is what I will keep saying to myself everytime that devil perches himself on my shoulder.

Cheers mate.

Hope you are well too... approaching 10 weeks.. another month to the 100 not out. Boycott would be proud.

One day at a time , staying focused and getting stronger towards happier times.

Jon

 
Posted : 13th June 2012 8:59 pm
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Thanks for the "KIM and AGGIE" suggestion... I ain't gonna sleep now.. and if I do it isn't going to be the pleasurable "Kim Bassinger walking towards me in slow motion" gig I was expecting.. or rather preparing for, tonight.. It'll be the "big chunky blonde with a scouring pad asking me to bend over" nightmare, that usually only ends up in tears.

Thanks ;O)

Jon

 
Posted : 13th June 2012 9:40 pm
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Day 70, yes 10 whole weeks and I'm delighted but still focused. Just five more days to go to my next wee target so that'll spur me on. I haven't felt an urge for a while (touch wood) but I won't drop my guard. My bloody leg's stopped working again and the pain is pretty bad so I've had to take more medication regularly. At first it's horrible, they make me vomit and heavily medicated, I drool and talk like 'The Elephant Man' (bless him). But they might work and with intense physio I live in hope. Just a bit depressing at times always being in pain and taking 15 minutes just to get your knickers* on. Got to try and stay positive though and keep working to a full recovery.

Previously this pain and immobility has led me to gamble, out of boredom, escapism and sheer frustration. Yet not this time, I'm wiser now since I joined this site. I know myself better, I know my pitfalls and their consequences so I'll choose a different path. Still got my sense of humour though so that'll give me some strength hopefully.

I don't know about you but I'm really, really enjoying the football (probably the drugs), the matches have been great, despite the bombardment of gambling advertising and the fact that England are still in it at this early stage is a bonus.

Life then overall is sweet and on the up. I'm so grateful for this site and the opportunity it's given me to alter my life. I'm calmer (drugs again) and content, I'm determined to squeeze this recovery out as long as possible. All the best, Steve

*slang for undies

 
Posted : 14th June 2012 12:21 am
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Hi Steve, first off a massive congrats on reaching day 70, brilliant achievement my friend 🙂

Im sorry to hear that your leg is giving you gip, and I can relate to you when u say u used gambling as an escape from thinking about it and coping with it. When I was told I had angina I was gutted. Then when I had to go for angioplasty and have 2 stents put in I was even more gutted, but knew it had to be done, so u can imagine how I felt when 9 weeks to the day later I was taken back into hospital to have more angio stuff done, and they discovered that the stents were pinching a branch of an artery.

This was a dark time for me. Instead of being thankful for being 'fixed' I felt sorry for myself and turned to gambling even more. I can see now that I was doing myself so much damage in all respects, stress, worry, lack of funds, = chest pain = heart attack. What a fool eh ?

I can see it all now with a much clearer head and for what it really is - a mugs game.

Well done for coping with your pain my friend, and sorry for the spiel.

I hope your leg pain starts to improve soon, and that you get the physio to "work it",

take care friend, and again, huge congrats on reaching day 70.

All the best

Cameron

 
Posted : 14th June 2012 5:30 am
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Morning,

Consider it done

Can almost see you straining to pull that enormous catch in ,

Worried though about the strain this may cause to your knee, so less of the enormous more of the big.

Less of big more of the quantity lol

Take care, if my magic does not work , do not get you knickers in a twist,cause it will take you over half an hour to sort the problem out.(valuable fishing time)

Dusty xxxxxxx

 
Posted : 14th June 2012 7:21 am
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Morning Steve,

10 weeks ! , go Steve, go Steve, go Steve!

Thanks for your post and glad i can bring a small smile to your face even if it's drug induced!

Sorry to here the leg's not too good again but hopefully the drug's will do there magic soon !

Agree footie pretty good but the adverts are sooo too much, every one that comes on i look to see if it's a site i'm excluded from , have no urges but there is always a little something that makes me think , but i'am on guard and feeling positive so will just enjoy the rest of the tournament!

Dunlop green flash, boy they were my first tennis shoes when i started to play lol memories , good times but oh the training was hard lol Jimmy Choo's now that's more like it!

Hope you are setting the clock this morning to beat your time for the knicker dressing, a little something to aim for!

Have a great day

Keep Strong, your doing just great!

Smiling Lucy

 
Posted : 14th June 2012 7:30 am
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Cheers Lucy. I'm off to my fishing match now. Really excited, never fell asleep till five this morning, like a kid at Christmas. Weather very windy and overcast which isn't good. Gone for a change of tactics from last week, I'm dropping the werthers originals in place of Murray mints, hoping for a big performance. Drugged up still which is nice, hope they don't dope test us before the off, leg and back numb but better.

Glanced at the horse racing page today as I flicked through, didn't interest me at all which is good. Going to use my recovery now as a platform for altering other things in my life. Using the knowledge I learned here a nd apply it to other areas. Giving up gambling has given me the confidence and time to now begin concentrating on moving forward. Stay focused everyone, enjoy your evening, you've already got everything you need/want inside of you, your very own life support system, sometimes we forget it's there.

Steve

 
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