Festina Lente

I can really relate to that post ste, took a lot from it.. I have felt like my growth and maturity as a person was stunted when i gambled, its so empowering to take that back.

Well done on 3rd place, Septic pegs prediction was right 🙂

Blondie 🙂

So today you are an Octodaynarian... well done Steg.

Hope you are well and that the fish are biting for you, and the horseflies aren't.

Thanks for your posts on mine after my slip, and your direct approach... it is appreciated.

Jon

Hi Steve,

Just popping in2 say I hope u r ok and having a gr8 wknd 🙂

Stay strong 🙂

Hi ste, hope you havent been washed away in the floods , just a quick drive by to say hi . Blondie

Ermmmmm... starting to worry here a little mate.

Hope everything is ok.

Jon

Hi steve hope your ok and you had a good weekend.

HI Ste,

Hows you matey ? I miss your posts your sense of humour and your food for thought.

Right or wrong im worried about you, If youve ran away with Kim or even micky we will understand just let us know when the wedding is...

Blondie x

Hi all, havent posted for a few days. Haven't been kidnapped (no ransom worth talking about), no accident (apart from being drunk and weeing in the airing cupboard again, so annoying that) and definitely no thoughts of or implementation of gambling. Just eased off the site for a few day because it all went Jeremy Kylish, everyone was scrapping with others and in the end I had to stay clear and clear my noggin. It now looks all settled which, is like, beautiful man. Peace and love baby, make love not.....well you get my drift. If I want to listen to 'kick offs' I'd go and visit my mam in prison.

Well I've just got back from fishing. The insect repellant worked but not before I took three bites on my forehead. I looked in the mirror and I now resemble vivian from the young ones. Think I'm thinning out on top as well, stress that, not old age. Have to start back combing my eyebrows to compensate for the loss above.

I'll catch up again tomorrow when I've got more time but I'll leave you with this very, very old joke.

A man goes into his doctor's in a very agitated state. The doctor, reassuringly concerned asks what is the matter. To which the man fumbles at his belt buckle and drops his trousers. To the doctor's surprise the man has a steering wheel protruding from his underpants. 'what is it Doctor? The man whined. 'I don't know' replied the doctor ' but I can see its probably driving you/your nuts!'

Oh sod it goodnight, Steve.

Diogenes the Cynic? Well.. you would say that.. probably just googled the word cynic and got lucky.

Great to see you back after a short, understandable break.... I agree, and to some extent little snippets of the like are what rangled me in the first place... think I should have done what you chose to do... and stayed well away from things that should not concern this particular forum. Anyway, as you intimate, all seems cool and froody at the moment.

Think my favourite doctor joke is the:

"Doctor doctor, I wake up in the morning singing Tom Jones songs, this carries on through lunchtime and dinner. I just can't stop, I feel like I am losing control.... everywhere... Tom Jones songs. Is this rare?"

".............. It's not unusual"

Anyway... less of the oldies. Glad to see it was nothing more than a wise choice of action and that you are still resolute.

Good stuff.

Jon

Morning .

Good to see you back, spreading that sunshine of laughter that we all wait for with BAITED breath.

Here is my contribution :

WHAT DID THE FISH SAY WHEN HE HIT THE CONCRETE WALL ?????

DAM

Have a good one

Dusty xxxxxxxx

PS Jeremy Kyle not good for the SOLE, ............

Return of the steg..... return of the steg..... *does a little dance*.

Welcome back ste you missed the DNA results but not to worry its all b*****ks anyway lol...

Blondie 🙂

Morning, what's left of it. Blowy but fine, not warm but cool like the Fonz. Day 82, fantastic. Had a nice weekend. Maisie had a sleepover with her friend, they put rollers in my hair and then encased it in hair putty, then had the audacity to charge me a fiver, no wonder the rabbit ran off and her guinea pig's on Valium. At least they didn't paint my nails this time, couldn't get it all off last time and I felt self conscious. The colour clashed with my lipstick. That's a no no. Went to a fair, had a great time with Maisie, her friend and my two nieces. Went back on the climbing wall again, loved it, I want one, felt like spiderman even now my spider sense is still tingling. I'd rather do that than gambling right now. With my testosterone pumping as I abseiled down my eyes met with an attractive woman. I gave her my best look, sort of a cross between stalker and serial killer before I stepped backwards into the biggest load of dog poo I've seen in a long time, Great Dane probably with a dodgy stomach. When I looked up again, she was gone. C'est la vie. Still the kids enjoyed being chased by 'dog dirt peg leg.' we left on a high because I wasn't allowed on anymore rides. No one talked or laughed on the drive home, just held their breaths or hung their heads out of the car windows like overheated puppies. That was a Saturday afternoon, racing was on, not a thought,not a single one, about it.

Today I choose not to gamble. Got to go, my spider sense is tingling, someone is I trouble, where are my pyjamas, oh no theyre in the wash. Sod it I'll go for a big swim instead. Ciao Stegliano.

Just want to say, Cameron if you ever read this I hope you are well and strong, take care, Steve.

Day 83. If at the beginning of this journey you'd have offered me 83 gamble free days before I broke then I'd have taken that gladly. However, now that I've reached this point I want it to continue longer, how far, who knows, like holding onto that proverbial helium filled balloon, the longer I hold on the higher it gets, the harder the fall will feel now. Determined to hold on, see how high it takes me. It's nice up here in the clouds, I can see things clearer, all the problems are going on far below. Why would I let go now to rejoin them with a crash. Nah, I've still got the strength in my arms to carry on rising and my grip feels effortless at the moment, just enjoying the view.

Feel a bit down today, can't put my finger on it, part of being human I guess. Never slept well, (again), itching those bites. Also I came off the opiates for my back two days ago after three weeks or so solid. They're definitely mood changers, now I know why Michael Jackson hung his kids off hotel balconies laughing his head off, still doesn't make it right though. So maybe that's the reason. Also I haven't had a bevy in three weeks either, since the medication. This should be good but every time I open the fridge that bottle of Jacob's I got for father's day keeps whistling at me, which is annoying. Also, bumped in to two of my teacher friends colleagues whilst swimming and they were taking classes. So much fun, be nice to be part of it again one day but who knows. The doctors said they could do no more for my back and leg last July that it'll be permanent, did everything to prove them wrong this year but the last setback has knocked me a bit. Maybe it's time to accept the things you can't change and move on. Hugh Laurie, on House uses a stick to walk, hasn't stopped him being cheerful. I've still got good upper body strength and a decent left peg and the pains not as bad as the previous three years. Plus I've got the time down to slipping on my undies to about 12 seconds, so that's an improvement.

Feeling better already now that I've got all that angst and frustration out. It's funny but when you read back on your worries there is a little voice in your head which counters them and finds solutions, helps you, remotivates you.

Today I chose to not gamble, today I chose to be slightly miserable allowing it to run its course, tomorrow is another day. Take care all, if you feel like self harming after reading this then I can only apologise. Steve

Good morning Sir,

Can imagine you doing Victor Mildew impressions.lol

And although Hugh Lorrie in house has a very dry sense of humor, still can be a miserable git at times. Hmmmmm think that's true of all of us. But it passes, not that my family would agree with that. They are convinced that I was born miserable , lol

You take care today, stay away from babies, balconies , but most of all stay away from the fridge .

I know you thought I was going say gambling there, but you seem happy in the clouds so can not see those balloons bursting today .

Dusty xxxxxxx