Day 116 ...... Some people on here like to stop counting days after a while of being gamble free but for me it is still a big part of my recovey still and it gives me a little boost to see my day count edge up each day, maybe one day i wont feel the need to keep count but for now i will keep doing whats working best for me, i guess everyones recovery is different ... things are still going well at the minute, do miss a bet on the football but know its just something i just cant do anymore because of the harm it will lead to. Urges are becoming less frequent but are still there and always will be i suppose but thats fine as long as i do not act on them, the past still haunts me a little and will try and use that as a reminder of where i dont want to go back to.
Hello Chartom3,
I also like watching the days tick by. In fact i leave my phone on my profile and refresh it in the morning when i wake up!
Well done on almost 4 months, take care.
All the best.
Thanks for the support sjwsjw , hope you are keeping well and still making the right choices.
Day 118 .... My uncle past away this week and today i have been at his funeral, really has made me think of how i have wasted too many years to gambling and made me determind not to waste any more ... time for me to let go of the past and move on and enjoy spending my hard earned cash on the things that matter and not giving it to online bookmakers, life really is precious and its time for me to start living again without that gambling devil holding me back, things wont always be a bed of roses but determind to make the best of what i have.
Day 120 ..... Glad to be putting some distance between myself and my last bet,still find it hard sometimes especially at the weekends or when big sporting events are on but when i do get the urge to gamble i try to remember that sinking feeling that comes after a big loss, and of course the blocks i have in place are an extra insurance. Starting to really feel the benifits of being gamble free and hope these will only get better the longer i can abstain, have fallen of the wagon around this stage in the past so know i need to be on my guard at all times ... i wont gamble today, so today i am a winner.
Day 122 .... Hello diary, glad to report in still gamble free still think of gambling every now and again and sometimes think it would be ok to have the odd football bet but realise thats not an option for me any more as when i place that 1st bet i am no longer in control. Still concentrating on getting through each day gf and the bigger the gap between me and my last bet gets the better things will become.
Day 125 ... happy with my progress so far, not been easy with plenty of ups and downs but my life is so much better for removing gambling from it. By no means "cured" and have to be on my guard still especially at the weekends but heading in the right direction .... trying to put the same amount of effort into remaining gf that i did into gambling in the past.
Congratulations chartom on 126 days gamble free. I believe you have only gambled for one day in the last 230 days which is absolutely brilliant. That showed a lot of character to get up after that setback and carry straight on with your gamble free journey.
I get a lot of inspiration from reading your posts and it helps me understand my own difficulties better. Many of us can identify with your reluctance to accept the money was gone forever, but you have accepted it and that takes wisdom and courage. Like you I often think I would like to return to having football bets, but we know it would take us back on the road to purgatory and we don't want to go there again.
It would have been a sad occasion for you and your family when your uncle passed away. Bereavement does remind us that our time on earth is precious. We can question what we want from our life and than go about enjoying our plans, achievements and adventures. Wishing you well ...stephen
Day 130 ...... i used to gamble to try and win money for a better life for me and my family , holidays, nice things etc , but only after 130 days gamble free i now realise that i can get those very things by not gambling, things are by no means perfect but are so much better than 130 days ago in every aspect of my life,do still get urges to gamble but the blocks i have in place seem to be working and of course reading and posting on here is also a big part of my recovery.
Day 131 .... 131 days of winning,131 days of not seeing any betting tranactions on my bank statement,131 days of leading a better life .... long my it continue.
Day 133 .... still on the right track and making steady progress, have my good and bad days but the longer i have remained gamble free the good ones have started to outnumber the bad ones, blocks very much still in place which is why i have done so well this time around and all round i am in such a better place that 133 days ago .... long my it continue.
Morning dairy ...... 136 days since my last bet and things are still ticking along nicely for me, a big part of my recovery has been drawing a line under money lost and accepting that it was never coming back, and only since i have been able to do this have i truely been able to move forward properly.Plenty of regret remains and will try and use this as motovation to stay on the right path and each day nudge further away from my last bet.
Day 139 .... still glad to report that i am still making the right choices, signed up to the gamstop self excluding scheme which places another barrier between myself and my ability to gamble online which is always welcome, do still get the urge to gamble but these are becoming less as my gf days mount up, still very much a case of odaat and guess thats the way it will always be from now on .
Morning dairy .... day 140 and really am now starting to feel the benifits of being gamble free, no more sleepless nights, no more lying, no more dread at seeing the betting transactions on my back account ... its an easy choice when you think about it and unfourtatlaly i had been making the wrong one for far to long, time now to keep making the right choices as far as gambling in concerned and start feeling the benifits that come with it.
Day 145 .... still very much on the right track and making the right choices, by no means an easy journey but things are so much better for me when i am not gambling in all aspects of my life,sorry to see fellow gamcarers having hard times and know all to well how easy it is to fall back into bad habits,will keep fighting the fight as the benifis of being gamble free far outway that feeling after a big loss.
Day 147 gamble free .... starting to enjoy living a " normal " life again.
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