Final Chance

Day 9 .... No thoughts of gambling, wish it could be this way all the time, just for today i wont gamble determind to stay that way into 2018 and beyond have no other choice .....

Morning Diary ...... Day 10 gf, feeling alot more positive, blocks in place make it extreamly difficult for me to gamble even if i wanted to (which i dont).... still very much early days again for me and taking the 1 day at a time approach at the minute, going to use the new year as a fresh start for me ,draw a line under money lost and change my life for the better.

11 days gamble free , will keep going have to no other choice feel as if i am in last chance saloon whats gone is gone, cant do anything about the past but can make it a better future ..... just for today i wont gamble ODAAT.

Morning Diary ...... day 13 gamble free, doing ok had a councilling session yesterday which went well good to talk to someone about my problems, wont gamble today thats for sure dont need it in my life anymore, time to put the same effort into the things that matter that i did into gambling.

Day 14 ....Saturday plenty of sport on , but today i wont gamble, dont want to , dont need to ........ going to enjoy christmas with family and look forward to a gamble free 2018.

Day 15 ..... Still gamble free, wishing everyone on here a peacefull christmas and strength with the battle we are all fighting .....

Day 16 ....... great day spent with those who matter when gambling could not not have been further from my mind, money lost still preys on my mind but need to move on and make a better future which can only be done by remaining gamble free .... wishing everyone on here a merry christmas and a peacefull gf new year 🙂

Day 17 ...... Boxing day, when in the past would have been spent in front of a screen losing , sometimes winning, but mostly losing 100"s if not 1000"s of my hard earned money ..... not today... today will be spent spending time with those who matter having fun and being "normal" ... will head into the new year gamble free and hope to make 2018 one to remember for all the right reasons .... happy boxing day .

Hi chartom3,

Just at the start of my journey ... had horrible binges over the years, ending up going from £13k up to £35k down inside an hour. All I can say is well done on getting this far. I know you’ve had lapses and I was concerned about the same so finally told my partner everything and handed over all control of my finances. I’m finding it hard to get over the guilt of the losses which could drive me to try and get back but we both know even if we won some, we couldn’t get it all back, and we’d lose it all again, and more. We’re in a similar place of trying hard to let go of the lost money, but notice something Alan posted on your diary earlier ...we have a lifetime to recover our situation so no rush ... i’m hoping that by focussing less on gambling we can still actually win by making more productive use of our time and rest of our lives. Anyway, we’ll done on the 21 days. Richard

Hello Chartom. I am happy to see you enjoying a gamble free christmas. Wishing you a great year to come.

You have shown courage and determination during the18 days since you picked yourself up and started again.

I look forward to joining you in 2018 for a full gamble free calender year. Take care... stephen

Thanks Stephen for your kind post have left a reply on your diary .....

Day 19 ... Wont gamble today, just dont want to do it, know it wont be like this everyday but with stronger blocks in place and what i have learnt from previous failings i feel well equiped to deal with the urges when they do arrive .... still very much a case of 1 day at a time but determind to start the new year gf and move into 2018 in a good frame of mind.

Day 20 gamble free ...... all good no gambling thoughts,blocks doing there job,not getting carried away as have been here before many times .... still a case of one day at a time but will head into the new year gamble free and moving in the right direction.

Day 22 gamble free ..... New year tomorrow, perfect chance for me to finally let go of the past and look forward to a brighter future, only words i know which i need to put into actions, really want to draw a line and move on positively into 2018 to have a better live for me and my family ... the only way this will be achieved is if i remain gamble free, no other choice really all or nothing cause i cant have both .....

Day 23 gamble free ..... New year, fresh start , good blocks in place ready to start the year as i mean to go on ..... looking forward not back , time to change my life for the better, looking ahead to a gf 2018 with the help & support of my gamcare friends ....

All the best chartom I hope we can both go through 2018 gamble-free