For everything I did wrong, I did many things right

Hey Suzy,

You are definitely not going backwards Hun, slowly but surely forwards is the way we continue to go.

I have just posted on Dans day@times thread this might help.

Stay strong, those silly thoughts soon pass.

Suzanne xxx

IT DOES NOT MATTER HOW SLOWLY YOU GO!

I had to resist the urge to snort with disgust @ your brain telling you you deserve a few hours relaxing & then having the cheek to suggest that this could be achieved by gambling, with a little win to boot...We've listened to those lies for so long, thank goodness we now have the strength to decline Mr Gamble's offer!

Thank you for your continued support & showing me the way, keeping me on my toes - ODAAT - Juuuuuune 🙂

Hi Suzy just read your last post , your def not alone, i thought i had this addiction licked witha long stretch of no temptations at all. But recently , urges have floated my way, starting to think that you have thought" I deserve a few hours relaxation to play some online slots" and is true of our addictive brains trying to get back into the madness again.

However these urges, pass they always do. and the fact that we didnt act of them is probably the most important thing we can ever do. You've come so far 486 days plus gambling free , im around 100 behind you, so we are in similar places.

We know that any form of gambling will lead us back into the mahem , something we both know deep down we def dont want.

Keep strong, and keep fighting

Hi Suzy, I remember you were o e of the first people on her to make contact with me and would like to thank you for all your posts and support early in my recovery. I read that you were finding it tough over the last little while. You have the strength in you to make the right choice for you. I wish you well. John

Day 500,

It's so wonderful to be able to write that on my own Diary!

No urges at all lately & life is really good. Still taking it one day at a time and not a day goes by that I don't read the diaries. Thanks to all, Suzy

Great work SuzyLemon 🙂

Wonderful to see things have settled down again! Keep winning ODAAT - Juuuuuune

Fantastic achievement Suzy, 500 days of winning by starving this addiction, I know how much hard work it has taken to get to this stage so hats off to you girl:)))) indeed.

Keep strong, keep your recovery at the front and keep moving OAUs,

Suzanne xxx

Another inspiration.....is it worth changing my name to Suzy/Suzanne ;0)

well done ! 500 days 🙂

Hi Suzy and thanks for your kind comments earlier , your absolutely right it is about achieving a good balance and something I def need to work on ?.

A big well done to you on 514 today !!. Thats numbers I can only dream of ! One day, One day , Lol......

All the best for now Suzy !

Regards and all good wishes .......... Alan

Day 519,

It's Friday night & I have no desire to gamble. It really is such a waste of time & money. Hopefully those thoughts will keep me strong over the weekend. A few lines on my diary to strengthen my resolve and a reminder that I cannot go back to that other life. I cannot win because I cannot stop. Suzy

Hi Suzy, I'm new. I only read your last post. I want to say that I like the title of your thread. I like that it speaks to the things we did right! I was talking to a life coach a few days ago. I had a one hour free session. She took what I was saying and validated me in a positive way by saying things such as... You are patient. You were brave. You have planted seed and they are germinating. You have learned and are stronger. It sounds like you are commited. etc. The rephrasing really helped me. AND I totally hear you on the can't stop gambling once you start. I can go far periods of time but once I am in a casino even for a few hours , I'll spend till it hurts and there is no way I can recover the money. I always have to eat my losses and just humble myself to the fact that I am indeed an addict! odaat... T2

Thanks for your support Suzy. I see you recently also reached a massive milestone recently!
Feels nice to have some distance, some peace.

Louis x

Hey Suzy

I hope you're in not to bad a place. If you need someone to listen.you know where to find me x

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Thanks for your support Dan.

Counter has been reset to zero. After a major run of over 500 days, I thought I could play bingo. The slots were "winking" at me & I got lured back in. Slept badly but that's all part of it.

Most important thing is to be honest, pick myself up and move forward. Maybe relapse is part of our journey, it's now part of mine. If I dwell too much on the relapse, it will drag me back under. I always thought bingo was innocent enough. Now that misconception has been blasted once & for all. ALL forms of gambling just drag you back. Feeling sad and bruised but not beaten. Determined to get back to that gambling free life one day at a time. Suzy