For everything I did wrong, I did many things right

Hi Suzy,

Get straight back up girl and carry on forwards, curiousity has definitely not killed this cat, you blipped and now you are even wiser this can only now strengthen your recovery even more.

My support is here as always my friend,

Suzanne xxx

Hope your ok Suzy x

Hey up Suze, how you coping now? Rubbish blip but better you figured out now that there is no going back to gambling because you can use this next time Mr Gamble comes knocking!

Hopefully you've started to forgive yourself & are well & truely strapped back into that rollercoaster carriage now!

If it's not up already, chin up & see if the bright lights all around don't just put a smile back on your face! MERRY CHRISTMAS SuzyLemon to you & yours!

Day 30

Fully committed this time to a gamble free life. My recent relapse after over 500 days has shown that all forms of gambling will drag me back under. Finally accepted that now. January can be a bleak month or it can be a great month and I know my choice. Looking forward not back. Well done to us all on here, we are making such a difference to our lives. Special thoughts to those who have relapsed recently. As long as we learn from the relapse, there is no reason why we cannot become stronger and more determined. Gambling no longer holds any attraction for me now. It stinks! Suzy

Hi Suzy.

Great to read that you had got to over 500 days! That is a real positive achievement.

Can I just point out that I don't believe you had a relapse - more just a lapse - a one off. There is a big difference!

I came back here on 29th December, after going over 800 days gamble free. I see this as a lapse. A bit depressing counting days again, however, it's much better than being consumed by gambling again that's for sure.

You have it in you to take complete control again and you are showing that already.

Take care and remain strong and determined.

Feb.

Day 1.

Gambled for most of 2016.

No intention of gambling in 2017.

I clocked up 500 days in 2014/5.

Reading the diaries is what I need to do. I cannot win because I cannot stop.

Hello to all those who were here 12 months ago and all those who have joined since.

I wasted time & energy & money in 2016 but see the New Year as a new start.

Suzy

Hi suzy and welcome back
A previous 500 days in no mean feat and I'm sure you're more than able to smash through that counter again.
Anyhow just a hello from me
And here's to a bet free 2017
Deano

Hi Suzy I'm so proud of you for posting on here , it's so easy to give in to this terrible addiction keep posting and stay strong we all support you

Day 2.

Thanks for all the support. I am back where I belong. Where people are going through the same withdrawal symptoms.

Suzy

Suzy I think you are incredibly brave to come back and admit your relapse...500 + days is something to be proud of, I've only been on these forums & GF for 23 days and the support here has been amazing, reading the Diaries (including yours) helped me massively in the first few days and opened my mind to asking why I gamble rather than just regretting the lost money & huge debt. Keep posting, keep moving forward, you know you can do it now, believe in yourself, I do.

M x

Thanks Suzy for your post of support. i'm concentrating on being back on GF path, so frightening how we can be drawn in again. Keep strong you are so like me....a long period of GF then relapse in 2016. In my case a massive relapse losing much more money than ever before. It makes me sick to the stomach thinking of the figure but I'm trying to blank it out and focus on being GF. Now 53 days GF. I have closed bank account and online account. I resolve to stay strong and have 2017 a GF year...small steps one day at a time.

Mo

53 days GF.....the start of a new Year 2017. Resolve to be GF.

Mo

Day 3.

A small number of days but each single day is so important to clear the gambling fog and see normal life again.

I could have just started a new username and pretended I was a new member.

But it's better to come clean and admit I thought I could return to gambling after such a long gamble free time. It worked for a while but got out of control and I know for a fact it's all or nothing with gambling for me.

Hope you are all in a good place right now.

Suzy.

Day 4.

No gambling thoughts today.

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