For everything I did wrong, I did many things right

Lovely to see 421 days Suzy,

It certainly is work in progress, lol, but slowly and surely we know we are getting there.

Take care.

Suzanne xxx

Day 442

Another summer coming to an end as the schools reopen & we are back to school lunches & helping with the homework! It's normal life and so much better without the destruction that gambling brings.

Be kind to yourselves & starve those gambling urges, the urges will get weaker & you will get stronger. Have a lovely weekend !! Suzy

Congratulations on 455 winning days SuzyLemon & thanks for always having your finger on the pulse when it comes to my milestones 🙂

Who would have thought normal could ever feel so great!

Keep winning - ODAAT

Thanks for dropping by Suzy,xx

Hey you are doing amazing yourself, 456 days, your brain is definitely not deep fried now, but your gambling is lol.

Keep going and going, the hard days get less and less and more important, they get more and more manageable.

OAU

Suzanne xxx

Day 463, that's about 15 mths since I quit gambling. Reading the diaries tonight reminded me how I have to keep the fact I am a compulsive gambler at the front of my mind at all times. I cannot be complacent or I will be on that slippery slope. I feel I understand it all so much better than I did last year, why I gambled & how it takes over. Life is good now and I want to keep it that way. Good wishes to you all & stay strong. Bingo & slots look trashy after a year away from them. The urges level off and you spend your time doing much better stuff. Take care all, Suzy

Hi Suzy,

Massive congrats to you in reaching an amazing 463 days:)))

100% agree with you, Bingo and slots look sooooo trashy now, on the adverts, just like the bookies and arcades and casinos do,

when I walk past, so we must be on the right path lol.

Take care and stay SAS

Suzanne xxx

Hi Suzy I've only just started my latest recovery but your diary is a real inspiration. A few years ago I did 400 days clean before relapsing spectacular. Its been downhill ever since. Keep your guard up even at this stage. I'm now 6 days clean so aim to follow in your footsteps.

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Hi thanks for posting in my diary. desire boy eh? Think I might have to adopt that if I decide on a career in P**n!!

with hindsight I'm now convinced the reason I relapsed last time was that I relied on willpower alone and did nothing to treat the underlying issues. I'm two sessions into my counselling programme now and think it's helping. I'm a bit concerned that my counsellor says she's finding it fascinating to work with me. I could get paranoid!! It just shows how much gambling takes away. You're clearly very kind, caring and intelligent yet you say you still don't have a wide circle of friends??? You're also obviously very strong so keep on going. Might need your help seeing as though I'm 457 days behind!!!!

Day 470,

A really tough week at work. Tired and cranky (learning to say it like it is, so yes I am cranky!). Too many Friday nights (and all the other nights too) have been spent on the slots as a treat after a hard weeks work and a way to relax. But we all know thats the path to disaster. I have chosen a different path these days. So I am sitting in silence with just my thoughts. I love the sound of silence. Not listening to the false promises from the slots. My splitting headache will pass. My brain will clear by itself. I am not tempted by the slots but I do recognise in the past when I felt so weary I turned to slots so I am writing here on my diary so that it registers in my brain. Gambling fries your brain. There I feel a little better already! Have a great Friday evening all and don't let Mr G get the better of you. Suzy

Hi Suzy,

have deleted my post to you as I think today it was irreverent to our recovery, I had a silly light bulb moment yesterday, but have changed my opinion on it lol, if you never read it, you will be the thinking what us she on about, and if you did read it, you will think what is she on about, lol.

Keep strong you are doing fantastic

Suzanne xxx

Suzanne xxx

Day 476

It's great to see new members joining and previous members returning. This family is getting bigger and the bigger the better! There is strength in numbers. Stay strong, we are on the winning team. Suzy

Hi Suzy,

A massive thank you for warm greeting to the site. It was fantastic to see my first interaction with a fellow forum member. I have to say that I think it's wonderful to see you have been so successful. I wish you all the strength in the world to help keep you on track. I will give it some thought I.e. Starting a recovery diary, as I say, I'm still trying to navigate the site but feel it's the right thing to do. I will certainly continue to drop in and lend support. Congratulations!.

Stay strong,

Godspeed, OtterLady.

Lol Suzy, double deleted ;)))

479 days, you are doing great,

Suzanne xxx

Hi Suzy , Thanks for the comments , did make me laugh ! And your right , the sense of humour is returning, wondered where that went ?. Perhaps we could do some cover versions , Poker face , or that timeless classic Black is black [ I want my money back ] , " think thats how it goes " ?, Oh ! you've done it now . This means I've got to go away and come up with a gambling top ten !!. Ps I think dessieboy's got the womble bug too , must be catching ..... Take care Suzy and have a great " gambling free" day tommorow . Alan

Day 486 - almost 16 months and very strong urges to gamble this weekend. They seem to come in waves. Recently they happen when I am overtired and when the outgoings are high. A dangerous combination as my brain tricks me into thinking I deserve a few hours relaxing playing bingo/slots as a treat and to win money to cover the extra bills. I have read enough stories on here to know it is the way addiction tries to lure you back again. I know to give up gambling forever I have to work out all that caused me to gamble in the first place. I am slow at putting the pieces of the jigsaw together. I am not going backwards but not making huge leaps forwards either. Slow but sure maybe? Anyway the urges came strongly but I did not falter. I couldn't. Since I learned on here of the triangle, I have used it religiously. It works! The urges have weakened off again. I start a new week without a gambling hangover. Thanks to all who post, thanks for sharing your journeys and showing us the dangers on the way! Take care all, Suzy