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God,

Please don't give me another day like today...it is hard and i do everything possible to get over it...please let me have some rest from the urges....at least let me sleep all night and day if u planned my day to be like today. I beg you for help...i don't kill, steal or lie...i am honest as i can be...just give me strentgh.

And i think i am losing my mind..

Sometimes i do believe higher powers...after all it took me to today...where i am...maybe not stronger, but sure what i need help dealing with this...

Day at a time

Good morning diary,

Finally i'm in better spirits....d**n yesterday....one of the worst strugles to get over urges.....Another day, another choice to make. Yesterday is past, today is a gift, tomorrow is mistery!

15 weeks gamble free....and i will carry on on this side of the road..

Take care all

Sandra x

Hello diary,

Anoyher day nearly over and my holiday coming to the close. Checked my bank statement today, looked at all the transactions for the past year....how silly silly girl i was...i am so glad i'm coming out of it now and all i see for a month is : wage, rent, phone bill, car insurance, loan payment, credit card payment, water bill, council tax. Fantastic! It is slow progress, but it is progress and i am more than happy 🙂

Had a good day, went for a good run in this summery weather ( which coming to the close) cleaned house, cooked dinner and chilled out with my little Gizzy( cat) .....saying that i wasn't too impresed with him this morning opening back door and he was just finishing chewing little birdie!!!! ..... cats nature hey lol

Anyway, very slight urges today, but i tried to keep myself busy and reminding myself the bank statement from last year.

I'm glad to say it's all good, last day off tomorrow and i have a feeling it's gonna be another sports day:-)

That's it from me...108 ....bring it on!:-)

Take care all and stay strong

S x

Sandra.

great post to read.

thankyou for sharing.

keep making the right choice and life will improve.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thank you Duncs, enjoy the gift you gifted yourself - your life back! Strength to you my friend 🙂

Well, another sunny morning and i love today already:-) it's so 'normal' to go to bed at 22.00-23:00 and get up at 8 ish....i miss these hours...only one way out: CHANGE JOB!! ( which is not as easy simetimes..)

Anyway.....

Lots of things planned for today and believe me gambling wouldn't fit in even if i wanted to. Last day off,i am enjoying my freedom and taking the most out of life.

Wish you all to have lovely day and keep going strong...

Take care all

Sandra x

Hi Sandra

Isn't it weird how we av a real bad day with the urges every now again but only then to feel better the next and that where the one day at a time rule fits well if u can get through that day and don't give in the strength it gives u for the next is priceless and that as shown for u this week

Castle2

Thanx Castle,

Well well well diary, can't feel my fingers, but feel sooo good to leaving a message to each one of you my dear friends....my sister come round half way through,...i just kept typing lol,...not sure if i heard what she said:)

Anyways, all good my end, busy day, but quiet evening...no gambling though:)

Take care all

Sandra x

Yo,

Bless you sweet pea 🙂

All good your end , bloody terrific .( music to my ears)

Hugs !!!!!!!!!

Shiny xxxxxx

Hi Sandra... seems like you enjoyed your time off. Next time you have time off you can come and clean my flat. Its a big job mind, so best take the month off lol 😉

Well done for not succumbing to any gambling thoughts. Your doing mighty fine. Regards... S.A 🙂

Sandra, really want to say a big thankyou for the support you have given me over the past couple if months. Yesterday I was feeling very low but today I am back ready to fight the fight. Well done you on how good you are doing and if just shows it can be done. X Lyn xl

Hey Sandra

Your diary is a testament to your courage and strength. You are doing brilliantly- even on the rubbish days, you strive forward.

Keep up the great effort!

Take care

Irene

x

I love to have a bit of a mad posting session now and again aswell. Really feels good doesn't it. Just think that as your typing away you realise your really doing it, really fighting back and taking control. Thanks for the post Im so glad people are getting something from the thread and that it's helping. It's helping me and makes me feel really great that I'm helping others. I think because of the great responses this time round I think I will do another. Thinking something that runs over Xmas and the start of the new year - always a bit of a stressful time, where money gets a bit tighter. I will have a think. Take care Sandra. See ya at the check in and have a lovely weekend.

Hey Sandra.

its two way for me too Hun as your posts get me through some choppy moments and make me feel that I'm definately on the right path..

Being tired can make us feel in the twilight zone some days and i guess for you adjusting to working different hours has been difficult some days..

Changing jobs for sure is not easy but something unexpected will come along...sometimes I find ads for the best jobs when im not even looking ..

You are doing fantastic and are back in control of your life and finances...it's a good feeling paying bills isn't it?...talked about that with SA a few times on here...I like the feeling of being on top of everything and feeling good about it.

In the days of cheque books I used to draw big hearts on the back of them before I posted them off so I would associate paying bills as something good and not to dread.....lol ..crazy or what...?

Your doing amazing Hun xx

R and D xx

Thank you all for your kind words and understanding me:) xxxxx

Good morning diary,

Holiday over,as well as sunny weather:( All rebooted and ready for weekend work ( first few hours lol)

I do still talk in my sleep! d**n my mate is a bit shaky lol, couse apparently i was quite loud talking this morning, she nearly barged in to my room to see what's wrong.....oh dear, good job i'm working tonight, some more peaceful sleep for her lol

Anyway day 110, i am very happy for my progress, and just want to say, that i wouldn't be here if not of this site and lovely people on here. I am blessed to be accepted and taken for who i am.....Thank you all so much xxxxxxx

Time for a run, before it start raining, and i prob come back tonight to catch up with you my diary and everyone around:)

Take care all

Day at a time

Sandra x

Hey Sandra,

Just wanted to pop by and say well done on your continued progress, You should be really proud of what you have achieved, my diary is the only winning formula that im trusting.

Keep doing what your doing.

take care

blondiexx