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Thanx orange, i find a lot of diaries ispiring and mine......welll...just ramble 😉

So diary,

Got out! Yep i'm out of thar wonderful place, because couldn't hold everything in anymore. Good job they owe some time off for me so to go wasnt a problem. Anyway i was due for a good good ride anyway, so why not to go somethere to clear my head. Rain won't stop me:-)

I will not gamble, better spend that precious time with my thoughts....think think think....i'm glad i've got this feeling back..

Day at a time

All of your help and support is most appreciated and i couldn't be more thankful to all of you for showing me other side of the world......

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Sandra x

Hi Sandra

Is that a 'got out forever'? Or a 'got out for few hours'? whatever, you sound relieved!

Take care

Irene

x

Thanx Irene 🙂

Lol i meant i finished well early last night and didn't have to use my holiday, because company owe me some hours 🙂

Dear diary,

Feel so much better...went for a long drive last night..Found myself in Nottingham in early hours this morning...I needed to chill out with my thoughts, i felt them building up recently...Driving is another soothing escape route for me..... Bless Radio1 for relaxing music on Thursday nights lol

Anyway, day off today ( actually all weekend off), not much planned, which is on my mind, because i seem to struggle to get out of the bubble and go out there socialize.

As long as i don't gamble, my own company will do me for now, as sad as it sounds....

Day 117

Take care all

Sandra x

Hi Sandra,

Well done on 117 days, that really is a great achievement. I managed a similar period of time this time last year.

I am currently on Day 2 this time round, but feeling very good and glad to be back on the forum once again.

Keep strong and try and get out of that bubble, I'm sure it will do you good....

All the best

Ade xx

Yo,

Thanks for the supportive post.

Weekend off ..... Good for you .

Today is the start of my week 🙁

Enjoy Hun, I most of the time have to forse myself to socialise . I am much much happier on my own . There are a few of us like that on this site .

You know you too are doing brilliantly ,your diary inspires me just as much as everyone else's , I love the honesty and you write as if you talking which I love .

So keep posting and rambling lol

Anyways gotta dash work calls .

Have a relaxing weekend , you certainly deserve it .

Shiny xxx

Yo Shiny:) Respect my friend xx send you strength for your weekend at work 🙂

So diary,

Editing my life away...again..

Never mind...

No gamble today

Sandra x

Danger danger danger. How i'm going to deal with it. I want to cut my card up and delete the digits from my memory. I better give those 300 quidi've got saved away...for someone who needs it and not stinky rubbish slots.. hate it and want to shout out loud.

.....donating? ...worth thinking about it...thanx gambling, you really put my life in missery.....

S x

Hey S

You are going to deal with the 'danger'exactly how you have done for the past 4 months! Keep those urges as thoughts, not actions.

Read your 1st post-look how far you've come....use netline..keep posting here till it passes (you know the thoughts will go). Do whatever it takes Sandra-you are a strong wee cookie 🙂

take care

I x

You are a star! x

Hey Sandra...

just catching up with diaries this morning and was really glad to see that despite you having a few highs and lows you came to your diary and wrote it down and still kept connected ...

As Irene said ,,you ARE a star,,,

Driving always used to be my way of relaxing too and getting away ..

Hoping your friend is not far away and you have someone to talk to Hun...

Hugs

R and D xxx

Thank you girls xx

Today don't feel any better than yesterday. Feel like going to Africa for the winter, because weather is SOOO affecting me at the minute.

Managed to get over yesterday, with a lot of help and support from this site. Thank you all ....

Today...is another day, and will be my pj day. Don't think i will get out of bed, feel like sleeping forever...Always on my own, even cat is wondering outside.......sigh..

Went for a long run yesterday, and it really f***** my head up, because couldn't stopped thinking about my past.Come back, dumped all the s**t on my diary, and deleted it later...back to my old ways lol....Suffer Sandra, that's what you are best at.

Day 118...as i said last night i better give my money away than deposit it on slots. It's not all about money at the end of the day..It's boredom and loneliness, trying to pass minutes by.

Fantastic.....

Take care all xx

I hope you all enjoy your weekend

Sandra x

Hello diary,

Back again....!! in a lot higher spirits i have to say...Irene, you must be God send, i used your advice and went through my diary again...What a transformation so far...I really noticed i moan about work a lot and am very tired physically and emotionally couse of it.....Need changes, definitely.

I went quite far, many mood swings, trying to give up my diary, spits on this site, tears, drink, and fitness.

Jeez, it's only been 4 months and you all can read me like a book. Diary is a good form to express yourself, and i do write like i would be talking to myself. I forget people read sometimes and use it for venting my feelings out.

So many amazing souls in here and i wish i could help every single one of you to take pain and load of your shoulders...

Life can be very dark place at a times, and during these times we forget what we have.. being healthy and able to see life in it's all colours is the biggest gift you can have. grass is not always green, and we can't expect miracles to happen.

Supporting each over and offering that helping hand is a miracle itself:)

Keep up good work dear soldiers xxx

P.s...Change my mind for staying in bed( i change my mind too often i have to say lol )...going for a run, and then a little drive around, with music on, one of the things keeping me going as well these days:) You never know, maybe i see a prince charming on a way somewhere lol lol lol full of love now hehe

Take care all

Sandra x

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