Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Hey Blondie,

Sending you hugs, hope your doing ok.

Chicagoguy

Hey Ms B ...

(((((( C )))))))

Xxx

Hi Blondie,

Just checking in. Still thinking good thoughts and sending them your way. -joanxxx

Thank you so much everyone for your posts, hugs and kind wishes.

No gambling to report and with what has happened the last few days I wonder even more if doing what I have done the last 11 months and remaining gamble free, building up my strength and resolve to fight is where I am meant to be.

My mum is out of hospital after her heart attack, shE had an angiogram done and didnt need a stent in the artery , but she was diagnosed with breast cancer on Friday, a word that filled me with terror, but also a word that filled me with the will to carry on being present, living in this moment only and tackling what ever is to come by being strong and supportive for my mum.

They have started her on tablets as the cancer is receptive to oestrogen and the tablets shOuld attack the cancer and stop it spreading, she will have to have a lumpectomy and they will the. Take some of the lumpy glands away to see if it has spread but she can't have this done until the cardio doctor passes her fit for an operation. We will chase that up next week once things settle down a bit.

So I suppose like gambling we will take it one day at a time, And tackle what ever is thrown at us with a sense of humour and humility.

My mum said she couldn't have got through the last week without me which makes me proud, today I am present, today I can give my mum who needs me more than ever 120% of my love and support as opposed to being dragged into gambling hell.

My dad always used to say it ain't over till the fat lady sings and she Ain't singing yet.

No bet today, not a f*****g chance.

Thank you once again everyone

Take care

Blondie xxxx

Draw stength from this forum and from everyone who loves and cares for you lovely...

d**n right it aint over....your mum is not called the rock for nothing and she is blessed to have you as her daughter by her side ..

Keep posting Christine ....and I now have a new job...gonna track that fat lady down and rip her vocal chords out...

((((( C )))))

R and D xxxx

Now, how in the world could I possibly top Rach's last post? LOL! Tell you what, Rach, you track down the fat ol' gal and I will hold her down for you. Blondie, thanks for your support in spite of all you are going through still time out for others. You have a heart of gold!! Pulling and praying for you and your mom. -joanxxx

Christine.

It is with all my heart when i say " be proud be strong "

Your resolve to face forward to what gets thrown your way will serve you well.

May your mum get the best treatment that sees her return to full health, we you by her side she is in the best company.

Oh and as for that lady, well rach has that covered.

11 months of living, warts and all well done my friend.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hey Hun..just thinking about you lots today and thinking positive..

Wondering how the collasal positive, collective and (in my case scrappy doo ) energy of this forum can be used for good to help right now....

Feel like taking action ..putting my running shoes on and signing up for race for life..next one near me in the forest on 19 th May.

Well leave it with you hun..am happy to travel ... just planting seeds thinking of ways to literally put one foot in front if the other day at a time and keep that focus ..

R and D xxxx

So sorry to hear about your Mum's news Blondie, but having some personal experience of breast cancer with my own mum (who also caught it early, and has not had a recurrence at all, in 26 years and is almost 66 now) I think it sounds like it will be treatable, from what you describe.

Sending you lots of love and strength, and I know it isn't much, but thought you might feel like you could do with some good news of any sort(!) - I got the job : )

Lots of love,

f x

Well if it helps any I am a fat lady and I definitely have no intention of singing a note, tone deaf in fact.

Just wanted to say Blondie how grateful I am that you take the time to add to my diary amidst all the cr** that has been thrown at you recently. I had a dodgy week, nothing compared to you, but it makes such a difference.

I do hope all goes well and sounds from your diary that you inherited your character from your mum she sounds lovely.

xxx

Hey Blondie,

So sorry to hear about your mom.

Sending you lots of hugs, I understand your pain. I remember the day my dad found out about his cancer, stay strong for yourself and your mom.

Chicagoguy

Hey,

As always I love your positivity and draw strength from you. You are a star and a hugely bright one at that. I'm so sorry to hear about your mom but you both appear to have the perfect way of dealing with this situation. Absolute respect for you both!

Flagg

Hi Blondie

I'm so sorry to hear about your mum's diagnosis- She sounds as strong and determined as her daughter. I'm sure everything will work out fine for the family.

Remember to take care of yourself as well as your mum

Irene

x

Thank you as always for all your posts and well wishes.

I think the best lesson I have learnt over the past few weeks and one that I say to myslef when I feel those thoughts slipping is. " BE PRESENT ", live in this moment only, it's the same as one day at a time but on a more granula level, it allows me to take things just this moment at a time which is what I need to do right now, if I start thinking about tomorrow or next week, or 2 months time my head will fall off.

It seems to be working and keeping me grounded and also allows me to deal with that moment only and give it 100% focus rather than let my head skip into the future or think about other things.

It allows me to appreciate things more and feel gratitude for the beautiful things I miss whilst my head is living in tomorrow.

When I gamble I lose track of time, money, myself and other people, when I think about the person I am when I gamble it sends shivers down my back.

Today I won't gamble, today I won't worry about tomorrow or next week, today I will make the right choice .

No bet today .

Take care

Blondie xxx

Blondie.

"tomorrow never comes"

Are today is our tomorrow, yesterday!!

So today without a doubt will always be the most important day.

You my dear friend today made a great choice. you choose LIFE!!!!!

for that is the best choice,the right choice.

well done.

Duncs stepping forward never back.