Going to keep this thread now!

Hi Freda

Just wanted to say how much i enjoy and look forward to your updates on your diary.

I really struggled to learn to drive. It took me a couple of years and three failed attempts at passing. I used to get so nervous driving in cities and anywhere busy. Joining a dual carriageway from a slip road was horrible. But i kept at it and now i absolutely love driving. I love the freedom of being able to pack a bag and just drive anywhere. Keep taking the lessons, the fear does lessen.

Rob x

Awww, thanks, Rob! That's lovely of you to share those thoughts 🙂

I've been having problems with boyfriend. He has anger problems and say's I'm being nasty a lot. I'm not. Had to tell him, it's got to go, or I go. It's not his fault he's got all of this pent up anger, he was violently abused as a kid. He is, however, stubborn and proud and not seeking any mental health support, so.... nothing changes if nothing changes....

I'm really adamant I will have a loving partner, or no partner. Nothing else.

Hi f

Thanks for your posts and support. And ...well sorry to hear about the relationship issues. Being angry is something I carry in my being. It's not an excuse to keep those traits alive following child abuse. It's serious as we, being grown ups must understand.

He doesn't sound very healthy for you....why he won't accept help? We all need that to fight our demons and become better people. I hope he realises what's on the cards if his behaviour carries on.

Raise the bar high hun, know your worth and most importantly the line of tolerance. Don't settle for less than you deserve and you deserve so much more in this life!

Stay safe and keep calm

S xx

"An ear infection occurs when a bacterial or viral infection affects the middle ear — the sections of your ear just behind the eardrum. Ear infections can be painful because of inflammation and fluid build-up in the middle ear. Ear infections can be chronic or acute."

Apparently quite nasty experience. I know my sister gets them often esp in so. Very painful.

Maybe he feels tired and irritated if been looking after his kid 24/7. Don't jump to conclusions hun!

but as I said previously..he has no right to be aggresive/ angry towards you. There is NO excuse for such behaviour...and you are most definitely NOT his target to let anger out.

Look after yourself and I hope all will work out well for you

xx

Oh f..

Sorry to hear that! Control freak seems like good word here!

Your post send shivers down my spine as my next door neighbour is "strange". He has two kids...probs 7-8yrs old and time & time again they stay over on a weekends (he is separated) - he uses quite nasty language & sounds like has anger outbursts! For example, This morning I woke up to him shouting " f****g b*****d " at one of his kids 🙁

Nobody should speak to kids like that. It actually brings fear in me..shall I challenge? I am not really sure how to go about it. I personally find his behaviour appalling.

Restrictions like not having a bath and so on at night is not healthy. I had the same....unfortunatelly. but only cause Mummy needed peace and no disturbance around the flat. Number of times I had to hold pee in also...but I was younger than that..maybe 10-14.

Anyway. This doesn't sound healthy at all! Many bells are ringing and you kind of noticing them so think clearly hun and make the choice. Don't forget that you need to put yourself FIRST!

S&B xx

I'm very nearly done.

Do you know what I'm f ooking sick of? men pretending to be someone much more loving and attentive for a couple of months, then not bothering anymore. What is the point? You're still going to get dumped! The pretending just upsets someone unnecessarily.

I'm not a social worker or a charity case. My relationships need to have something in it for me.

f ooking sick!

I'm s o f ooking angry!

He is such an a r*e hole!

I don't even like him, I've realised. He's miserable. He uses "going through a difficult time" as an excuse to withdraw warmth and affection. I don't think warmth and affection ever needs to be withdrawn. You still love people when you're going through a difficult time.

I don't like him and he's selfish. Funnily enough, he was a completely different person for the first two months we were together. I liked that guy but he was fake.

The experience replicates gambling completely.

Intermittent reinforcement.

Just enough to keep you coming back for more. To try and make the lights flash again, like they did the first time.

Hi f

I sense a lot of anger, disappointment and sadness in your posts. So sorry to read about your pain hun!

Please let me know if I can be of any help...just shout & I'll be there!

Look after yourself

S&B xx

I am really, really, really angry!

I am sick of meeting selfish people with nothing to offer who pretend to be someone else to get you attached, then just go "surprise! I'm actually a w**ker!"

I am enjoying ranting because I'm furious and I'm not ashamed of it, or sorry, or guilty.

He was selfish in bed and didn't even cut his toenails, the dirty fu**er. Sometimes his face smelled like sweaty balls.

He was tight-fisted and mean with money, too.

I could overlook all of those things because he used to connect with me. Then even that stopped. A r*e HOLE!!!!!!!

Only someone with zero self-esteem would go out with him.

Arrogant scabby-faced goblin!

I think this story sums up how unhealthy he is. He can talk for hours about his personal sob-stories. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure he's had a hard time but he loves talking about it. Very attached to sympathy.

Anyway, he told me and my friend a story about how nasty his foster father was. How he wouldn't give him a key to the front door and his foster dad used to make him beg to be allowed in. He hasn't given his 16 year old son a key to his own home either. The reason he gives for this? He "hasn't had time". He's had time to go for coffee with his mates and do things for himself, though.

What a nasty horrible way to treat your own child when you already know how that feels.

s**m.

Passive-aggressive, face like a can of tuna, b*m-boil !

It's very therapeutic 🙂

I need to go to bed so haven't read the backstory but chuckling at your 'ranting' - albeit not the content or whatever lies behind it! hope you get some sleep and all works out as you wish..