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Day 228

Saw my Niece yesterday which, as always, was great. Finding myself getting very used to an independant single life now. I do still miss the companionship but life is moving on.

Yesterday I sent my Mum a bunch of flowers for absolutely no reason, much better than wasting and losing £50 quid on a bet. Stupid thing is, the stakes I used to bet with, £50 I would have considered small. This time the money bought my Mum a lot of flowers and she loved them.

Life is precious, stay strong and stop gambling, it truly isn't worth it.

Matt

Wonderful the things we can do Matt, with our money! Am sure your mam loved the flowers. Have an amazing weekend

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What a lovely gesture Matt and I bet it made both you and your mum very happy and proud! Have a lovely weekend ahead.

Our Lady

Day 231

Thanks ladies, my Mum loved the flowers but told me off for doing it ha ha.

Had such a good weekend. My friend came down on Saturday and we had a crazy session but so much fun. He woke up in the morning gets into bed with me and says I love my wife, I love my kids but I bloody love you too ha ha. We are like brothers but haven't seen too much of each other recently, that will change though.

Stay strong everyone.

Day 233

Went to the gym Yesterday and then came home and cooked myself dinner. I am enjoying my life a great deal now and actually feel I could be happier than I have ever been!

I am a massively different guy to the one who started this thread and I am hugely along the road of recovery from the nightmare period I had over Xmas and New Year.

Life feels so positive.

Stay strong everyone

Matt

Loving the positivity Matt! Stay strong

Fantastic to hear of your happiness, you deserve it! Change is never easy but sometimes it takes a while to realise it may have turned out better than expected. Enjoy a great GF day, take care S 🙂

Day 234

Thanks people. The transition has been so difficult, I feel like I have been to hell and back on repeat but all the pain I have endured has made me the person I am today and it has all been worth it in the end. The house stuff is ongoing but should be concluded shortly.

I had a dream last night about my ex, basically she had moved back in and I was telling her to get the f#ck out of my life. i guess that is symbolic to how I feel now. The girl has more issues than I have and as much as I wish her all the best I know I am going to do much better without her around. I am genuinely excited for my future, probably for the first time in nearly 20 odd years, when I was a kid with dreams of becoming a professional footballer.

Stay strong everyone.

Matt

Day 238,

Had another really good weekend. Gym Friday after work then chilled out at home. Saturday did a few man chores then headed out to watch the cup final with some friends I have recently met down here. Got speaking to a guy and he was banging on about the odds etc and I said sorry mate I don't bet anymore as I USED to have a big gambling problem. My words were said with such conviction as I totally believe it's all in my past. He said I have huge respect for you saying that. Really enjoyable afternoon/evening.

Today I am meeting a supplier of mine in Brighton for a meal and a few beers. He's flown over from America so it will be good to catch up.

I hope everyone is enjoying the long weekend.

Matt

Glad you had such a fab weekend and what a milestone to be able to say to someone 'I had an addiction' I literally hsven't told anyone but am considering telling a close friend just to not be under the pressure of secrecy,Enjoy the rest of the bank holiday take care S:)

Day 239

Hi Sharon

Admitting it and saying it out loud are really empowering and I truly believe the biggest step to kicking the addiction. I no longer carry shame from it and happy to admit who I once was.

I hope you enjoyed the weekend.

Thanks Matt, I totally agree with you! Yep, great GF weekend, felt good as put flatpack double bed together by myself and had saved up for it. This would be unheard of whilst gambling. Finally I am starting to feel 'normal' well as normal as I can be lol.Have a good week, take care S 🙂

Really pleased your getting back that feeling of "normal". 75 days for you today, that's a nice number. Impressed with the DIY skills too but more impressed you earnt the money to pay for it, nice feeling not wasting the cash hey.

Thanks Matt, yep am relieved that although I have a long journey ahead, financially I am mending the damage I have done. But also stopping the destructive cycle has highlighted other issues that I think I had been ignoring but now feel I should address to carry on being GF and opening up on here is helping me realise it'S ok to seek help in other areas. Have a good day, take care S 🙂

Day 242,

Manic week, mainly with work. Had a big show in London to attend then out in the evening. My industry is a very social one and I love that part. Had a lot of fun Wednesday night and I feel my mojo really is finally back.

Yesterday I had a sofa delivered so now the garden furniture can go back outside and I can start making a house a home again 🙂

This weekend is a busy one too. I am catching up with a friend tonight who helped me more than most in my lowest points. I stayed with him and his family for quite a while so it will be good to see them. I will be staying in their spare room under very different circumstances this time!

Tomorrow I am having lunch with my folks and then plan to do the garden in the Afternoon. Saturday evening I am heading down to another friends to watch the Champion's League final. Sunday morning I am taking my niece out to the cinema and for lunch, can't wait for that! Then the show stopper, Sunday evening I have a date, did not see that coming did we!

So all in all life is great at the moment.

Stay strong everyone, I hope you all enjoy a GF weekend.

Matt