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I second Sars respect, takes a lot of strength (whatever stage your at) to fight off the urge to gamble. Scary though that these urges can pop up at anytime.I sincerely hope that you know no one is ever going to judge you whatever you put on here, you have been a rock and an inspiration to so many and the support goes both ways. Take care S 🙂

Thanks Sharon,

I won't lie a big part of not placing that bet or re-opening the acct was pretty simple....I do not want to go back to day 1, I have come so far and would be letting so many people down., including people on here.

I hope all is well with you and your journey.

Matt

Hi Matt,

Thanks for the post on my diary. I have indeed read your diary from the start; What a rollercoaster and it is so satisfying to see you coming out the other side. I was routing for you as I was going through it and to see you still on the wagon and going strong really was inspiring. Like I said, it has given me the nudge to start my own! I am going to take your advice and write a bucket list right now too. Great idea. Small goals and big goals are the way to go.

Cheers, Jay

Day 312

Like it Jay and good luck getting stuck into it too.

Currently on a train on my way to Leeds to visit my best friend for his Birthday. Looking forward to catching up again. Nice to be away from work for a few days too, feeling very much like I need a holiday now!

Have a good weekend all.

Matt

Enjoy your well deserved break bro ! Stay gambling free ! Whooooop whooop!

Sars

Day 316

Great weekend, many laughs and good times. I also ticked another one off my bucket list. Sing karaoke in a room full of strangers. We were in some randon pub on Friday night and they had karaoke on so got up and performed ha ha. That will be my one and only go at doing that 🙂

Stay strong all

Matt

DAY 317

Next part of the bucket list booked. I am officially going whale watching and to hopefully see the Northern Lights in Tromso in December. The price of the whole trip is something I wouldn't have thought twice about gambling on Tennis, the horses or football, what an absolute waste of a life I could have been. Incredible what we can truly experience in life when not gambling. I cannot wait for it, I am a massive nature geek.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Matt

Wow how exciting, I know when gambling money seems to have no value just numbers on a screen!! Great to have some the to look forward to! S:)

Hi Sharon

Yep we have all been there, numbers are very real now and it's good to be back in the room so to speak.

DAY 319

So today my car has a problem, I take it to the garage and they estimate the repairs are going to cost £850....ouch!! Now before when this would have happened there is a massive possibility I would look to gamble my way out or not have the money at all to spare and have to make up some bull sh#t why I didn't have the money. Today as horrible as it is I know when I get paid next week I will have the money to repair my car and no bull sh#t needed other than cursing my bad luck.

Stay strong all

Matt

Hi Matt hope you're ok? S:)

Hi Sharon

All okay thank you, hope you are too!

Day 323 today. Had a mad busy weekend. My friend came down from Leeds and my dad threw a retirement party in a local pub. Was a really good night and he was taken back by all those who attended.

No gambling, no urges. This Thursday would have been my wedding day, very strange thought indeed. I have booked Thursday and Friday off. I am going to spend one day with my Mum and take her out. I am not sure how I will feel about it all but with the bank holiday coming I thought I would use a couple of days holiday to give myself a little extended break. It will be nice to have some time away from the office, chill out and maybe reflect on how far I have managed to come.

Stay strong all.

Matt

Glad you had a good weekend and have a long weekend coming up! Take it easy on yourself, you've been through so much whilst battling gambling. Have a lovely time with your Mum S:)

Hey bud ! You're doing amazing 323 days wow ! Heading towards the 365 😉 . Have a great long weekend with your mum . There's better things out there for you brother 🙂 stay GF

Sars

Thanks People appreciate your kind comments as always.

Also glad to read you're both going strong 🙂

Matt