Day 11
Moved into double figures I am happy enough with that I don't particularly want to be anywhere except gamble free. Stay well peeps
Day 15 suffering abit of anxiety unbelivable how hard I find it to cope with, first thing I think to do is go gambling.
I'll be alright but I have to admit I am using gambling to cope with my imagined or real anxieties.
Hi mate I myself have been gambling for 20 odd years, I can stop for a few months and then relapse and then the cycle of gambling/ abstinence keeps on rolling. I think we need to accept that we can never gamble again and our lives will be so much better. The hardest part is letting go as it’s ingrained in us. I’m on day 5 of the test of my life. LETS DO THIS !!
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Johnlostmydo, I am back to the beginning again down another 6K hating myself. I missed taking my Son to a soccer game on Saturday. My head is fried, I want to say lets do this how can I when I keep failing ? I am pretty tired at the moment I will talk more tomorrow.
Michael
Just for today I will not Gamble
Just for today I will be Patient
Just for today I will not look up any gambling related material
Just for today I will be happy
Just for today I will not carry money
My recovery starts today, it's day 1.
Hi Michael
Sorry to hear about your struggles, particularly how it affects your family life.
There’s no point in beating yourself up. Your sick. From a young age you’ve seemingly had major struggles which has fed addiction.
You can try and do it alone. You can tel yourself this or that. These are just thoughts.
But it’s not a thinking problem. It’s an emotional one. It’s like trying to tell yourself, when famished, that you don’t feel hungry. There’s an emotional yearning l, which manifests itself in urges. You need to address what’s causing all this.
You need help. On here, Everyone repeats the ‘ definition of madness’. The definition of madness, in your case, is trying to do this alone.
Are you mad? Hopefully not yet. Get support.
Best wishes
Louis
Just for today I will be Patient
Houston for today I will not look at gambling related material
Just for today I will not gamble
Just for today I will not gamble
Just for today I will be patient
Just for today I will not look at gambling related material
Just for today I will not gamble
Just for today I will not look at gambling related material
Just for today I will be patient
Just for today I will try not to be anxious
With respect, it's a fools errand to tell yourself you WON'T be anxious. Or that you WILL be happy.
Or to believe that repeating mantras works.
It's impossible to be happy all the time. It's impossible not to be anxious. It's called being human.
All you can do is actually take actions according to your values. Be the person you really, deep down, want to be. You'll still be sad, and anxious, but it won't matter like before, because you're being who you want to be, and you probably won't be gambling.
Cardhue not interested in what you have to say so buzz off
Just for today I won't gamble
Just for today I will be patient
Just for today I will not look at any gambling related material
just for today I will be happy
Just for today I will not gamble
Just for today I will be patient
Just for today I will not look at any gambling related material
Just for today I will live it gamble free
well done on your continuing success i think cardhue was genuinely trying to help you by suggesting you need to look at the underlying causes of your issues but we all have our own journey through this and different things work for different people. I personally havent dealt with the causes of my issue because i dont want to , im just like you taking it day by day and enjoying the benefits of a life free of the gambling monkey on my back. There are loads of people on here who are benefitting from fantastic support from their spouses and families. I also havent dealt with the fact that my relationships are such that i cannot ever talk to my parents, family or partner about my issues and i have only told one close friend who has been a massive support.
I have numerous issues which are all interlinked but its too full on to deal with all of them at once, gambling has been the major issue of 2018 and im throwing my energies into fixing that one, once im happy its sorted i might look at some of the others.
I suppose what im trying to say is there isnt one right way through this , we are all on individual journeys with our own circumstances and as the song goes 'there's only one way of life and that's your own'. and if the mantras work for you mate then keep them coming and beat this thing forever.
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