I will fight till I win

tt1980

Hi,sorry to read you gave to addiction,addiction will use all the different emotions to gain your belief in gambling will sime how bring resolution to your problems,once hooked it will simply take all you have to give.

the mantra we all live by the same whilst at it.

I cannot win because i cannot stop.

my hope is you don't fall into the cycle of payday loans,the interest simply ridiculous.

speak honestly to your debtors,see if a plan can be made to repay your debt without incuring such interest repayments.

they bring a destructive cycle of there own,again running the risk of gambling finding an in road in the future.

Will everything be alright???

that is up to you,recovery,arresting the next punt will offer you the opportunity to address those issues,gambling will without doubt just heap on the pile.

Embrace recovery,fix the mess yourself,yes it will be hard,times will improve,and lessons learnt.

you are at a fork in the road,I see where the two paths lead.

I hope you makeva choice which is free and will gift you the opportunity to forefill that pledge to your children.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Thanks duncan .... The payday loan is a one off I can swear on that attually cried as I did it and borrowed less than I need as phoned bills that I could most being suprisingly understanding .... I have kicked myself hard it's now or never I can be tottally debt free by November if I can be strong and that's what I'm planning on doing.... I am going to sort out going to ga I know now I can't do this alone I need help proper help and that's my next port of call
thanks for taking the time to help and advise I appreciate it
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Hey you, good to see you not giving up giving up 🙂

Get the blockers on everything you can get your hands on, the kids don't need access to gambling sites & it sure makes it harder to gamble when the urges kick!

Looking forward to some new poems! Keep fighting - ODAAT

Thanks odaat I did that last night boys shouldn't be any the wiser as u said they wouldnt try accsessing anyway and there not here right now found a ga meeting for Friday so going to turn upto that and set the ball rolling properly today is day 1 and it will be gamble free

Thanks nt I know it's not long away I keep trying to remind myself of this yet I was intent on making it worse but no more a realisation came to me my son's birthday is next week I am glad I had already bought his presents but what if I hadn't I keep asking myself this I went to far this time and on that I know I have no choice but to grab any and all help available so that's why I'm going to start ga meetings as well as keep my diary and not make excuses for myself I read and read posts on here I know I'm not the only one who has had a rough life and I'm wise enough to know I am the only person in control of what happens now and in the future I don't want to be where I was 10 years ago fighting off 10 yrs of debt I did it I paid it all and this is what I need to do now before it escalates to how bad it was before x

Day two had a nice busy day tried not to kick myself today its there in my head doubt thatl change anytime soon but my baby has a taster session at nursery tomorrow :0) I'm not proud at what I've done but I feel positive I can fix things one day at a time, practiced making my boy a tardis cake turned out rather well so took it to my dad as a thank you for being there for me, kids are all sorted so now I'm going to settle down watch and watch soaps before an early night I am shattered x

Today is gamble free and will remain that way..... one day at a time x

Ooo baby is on his nursery taster session I know I'll be at work when he's there but my hearts in my mouth right now clock watching to go pick him up

Aww bless, first day is hard

Keep strong and positive.

Suzanne xx

Day 3 ..... my baby loved nursery my boys are happy and I feel well just proud of them trying to attuall not keep thinking about the addiction one day at a time and hopefully I'll get there :0)

Great news 🙂

I'm taking a break for a while so you be strong whilst I am away! Keep fighting - ODAAT

Hope all is well odaat and thank you, today's been a hard day had to sit through a disaplinary with my closest friend while she was sacked for being ill we started working together 8 n half year ago and she's my rock and to watch her life unfold due to illness is heartbreaking another reminder my problems are little in comparison and makes me stronger in being a better no sorry not better a more responsible person, day 4 they've gone fast and I will be keeping at it I am determined this time next year I can say I haven't gambled x

Day 4 gamble free and positive I can...... I will ...... one day at a time x

tt

Recovery for me starts with a single brick, you lay a new brick each day you make a choice to abstain, a wall between you and your last punt will grow, it will serve to protect you from addictions callings, it will just keep growing each day.

You will eventually be able to stand on top of your wall, looking down on addiction, rather than addiction looking down on you.

Keep laying those bricks.

Oh keep the odd one back, every now and then addiction will scale the wall, try and pull it down.

You can use your brick to plant right in its face.

It's great therapy.

Be kind to yourself, addiction f*****g hates it.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

P.s well done for embracing the 2015 gamble free thread, another brick laid! !!