I will fight till I win

Hi tt,

Such an uplifting and inspiring post 🙂 so so pleased for you and just look how better things are already. The best part of recovery is that they will keep coming and you will find yourself reborn again...and that's my friend is worth all the sticks and stones we cross on the way to find something like this - peace of mind and freedom! Keep up the good work and keep counting down to that lovely and relaxing upcoming holiday 🙂 you deserve it!

Be proud and keep marching on one day at a time!

Sandra x

Thanks Sandra I really appreciate your kind words and on going support day 86 and 4 days till hol need to kick start sorting packing so that's my plans tonight one of us a day :0) one day at a time :0) kept singing that song today defo my mantra lately
I've got bills to pay so am gonna work work work everyday
I've got mouths to feed so am gonna work till everyone eats
defo got me through the day hahaha x

Well just finishing the packing I have never been so excited for a break :0) spends in the bank been and treated myself to my nails done and I can quite say I am happy contently happy :0) x

You have worked so hard for this, it's wonderful to hear you so excited...Have an amazing holiday 🙂

Thanks odaat it's nice to feel the hard works paying off I can't wait to spend 7 whole days with my boys making memories :0) and that I can go enjoy it with a light heart not worrying about bills etc who'd have thought it just a few months ago ....
I'm also a new great auntie as of yesterday :0) I can't thank everyone enough for all your continued support its has been hugely motivational and im just glad I didn't give up on giving up
thats me signing out for a week x

Hi tt

Hope you're making the most of your holiday and enjoying every minute of it 🙂
You're definitely deserve it!
Huge well done on your ongoing journey to better and peaceful life!

Be proud my friend

S x

Hope holiday was good 🙂

Hi guys well after the most fantastic holiday (no rain bar one day,family time and fun ) I am back the holiday was everything we all needed and more I feel close to my eldest again my heart could burst at the joy of watching them happy us all enjoying life and laughing together ... and I resisted the two P machines with ease ... The car had to go into a garage while down there sods law without a drama but here's the thing if I'd been been where I was (attually only noting the day when logging in) 100 days ago I wouldn't have afforded the holiday I wouldn't have afforded to fix the car and my boys wouldn't have had the time they did i wasnt laughing or positive so now skint, positive and knowing soon my red bank account will turn black on carrying on on this path I just want to thank everyone for listening for your continued support and hoping it all will continue one day at a time with a small step in the right direction :0) I thank this forum as without out I dare think of where I'd be x

Whoop whoop on your 1st century 🙂

What a lovely post to read!

Hopefully your heart won't actually burst 😉 I know exactly what you mean!

Keep stepping - ODAAT

Thank you odaat. .....
logged in today as feeling like my life's going a little to well no dramas happy can this really be?? I started panicking a little working myself up in a right tither like I'm waiting for something bad to happen (I'm used to drama I can deal with drama ) but contention it's been a while ..... trying to put it out of my head now focusing on another weekend of fun with my sisters family n my boys at touring cars
101 days today is and will be gamble free and after this weekend the saving hard/paying off remaining bills is first in line my goal now is to enter 2016 gamble free. ... debt free and some savings (how ever small) towards my boys security x

Hi tt,

I know exactly what you are saying about waiting for something bad to happen, :), I am coming to the conclusion that it is our u rational addictive side, Panicking, yes tt PANICKING, because we are starving it,

Keep starving it, it won't go away, but it can be starved, and we can WIN at last.

Suzanne xxx

PS, fantastic milestone 101 days be very proud.

Xxxx

Thanks Suzanne it's muchly appreciated ...... well what is up with me been in a foul mood these last few days still feel as if I'm waiting for something bad to happen and the truth is I don't know why..... received my wage slip today a nice bonus included which means bar finishing my overdraft off I'm straight with all my debts/bill's with enough over to really enjoy this weekend away again without worrying....I can go fill my cupboards (I am a little ocd on having them rammed I believe this is due to my childhood) ....I have paid for yet another school trip and school photos so I'm kicking myself at why I feel like I have this black cloud hanging over my head ....I'm emotional to excess jeeze I gave a friend some flowers as it's her 60th this weekend and I started blubbing. ...my hard work is paying off... I've put enough blockers in place to ensure I can't relapse even if tempted, I'm not dreading the postman incase it's a bill as I'm not getting reminders anymore were not without anything so what the hell is wrong with me why can't I just be happy and accept my blessings I feel like I'm fleeting from heart bursting with joy to crying like the world's about to end in each blink of an eye.well diary I've rambled enough so that's today's entry today is and will be gamble free
signing out miss rather confused right now x

Hi tt,

How are you doing these days? Hope all is well with yourself and the fight is truly on the go!

Please drop us a line when ya can, worried but that's just one of my "qualities" lol

Stay safe, keep fighting

S x

Hi tt

It's been a while for both you and me both by the looks ofit. Seen your day count and its fantastic, well done. Unfortunately I had a bit of a slip back three months ago so my day count isn't as high as it should be, in fact I have no idea how many it is alli do know is I'm three months worth of pay packets in with everything going well so must e at least 90 days.

Caught up on your diary and so happy to read the positive things that have happened. Great stuff.

Keep up the hard work

Bex x