I will fight till I win

Finding it a little awkward sat here at the min so taken myself to the kitchen as there all sat talking football bets (it's never been my cup of tea ) but listening to them talk about how much theyd win is making me uncomfortable as that what if strikes into my head and that would pay for ...... so my frustration will be taken out on mashing these potatoes once I've finished here I will remain gamble free

And another day is nearly done :0) my little man seems to be coming down with something hope he doesn't.... but after a hectic day I am off for a bath and an early night back to work tomorrow and ready to get stuck in x

Quick pause before i carry on with the days chores head is whirling my middle son has only gone and downloaded music/games to his xbox taking out the money I had left in the bank for charges so he's in trouble and lost his xbox for rest of week....work was hard a weeks holiday n I go back to chaos so this week's gonna be fun n little man has conjunctivitis in both eyes yay what a bloody day on a good note no gambling urges I don't have bloody time lmao best go tea to cook checking in day 9 and it will be gamble free
x

Finally bed time :0) what a bloody day x

Checking in day ten just about to call it a night as at work at 4 am another hectic day spent a few hours just me n my middle son as he's feeling it a little n not himself so we curled up with a movie popcorn n goodies likkle man still not good another bill through the door and me well its not the easiest of times but I'm positive things will turn around one day at a time day ten is and will be gamble free x

Hi tt

Another day navigated safely, keep up the good work and keep those poems going 🙂 ..words from the heart brings peace to the soul 🙂

Be proud, you're doing it and getting stronger with each passing day!

Sandra x

Thanks Sandra day 11 bad night with my likkle monkey then work at 4 am I am shattered as finished at 3 so early night on cards being extra vigilant at the moment as it's coming upto as many days as I slipped last time I am determined not to may I add I'm going to scrap through this next few month and then things should start to get better WE CAN DO THIS ☺x

Hi tt,

Yes you can do this girl. Well done on 11 days keep going.

Suzanne xx

Day 12 ..... checking in as I promised myself I would everyday no thoughts on g to be honest now paying bills and nothing being left well yeah am worrying about that but one day at a time and my plan is to get through each week paying as much as I can ..... prioritise list they said but everything's a priority to me as I know I made this mess and it's mine to fix just seems one thing after another right now .... I know consequence of this horrible addiction and I am facing it head on Just need to keep reminding myself things will get better
x

Day 13 .... a bill payment down kids ready for a munchies movie Friday and me well another week nearly done baby a little better and the weather's supposed to be nice this weekend so who can complain ?? Small blessings and a reminder of how things could be a whole lot worse if I'd carried on on the path I was still early days but a day at a time and we're clear we can and will do this so over and out I've three boys eager to open the popcorn lol
hope everyone has a good gamble free day
x

Day 14 .... read a thread on here about being a fake gambler if you've debts under 5000 hahaha well thats alot of us saved errr not how narrow minded I have about 3000 in all total living debt but that is huge to me and shows me I have a problem as most of that was given to the evil addiction And obviously not mine to give or it wouldn't be debt!!!and even if i wasn't in debt I work hard and don't wish to throw my hard earned money away ! I was truly gobsmacked at reading such utter nonsense and arrogance .... I am a gambling addict I will never win as I couldn't stop so I choose recovery not to give it another single penny and I believe this is the only way!!!! Would that said person tell a drug addict you haven't killed yourself so your not a true addict or an alcoholic you don't drink x amount so your not an alcoholic!!! I was going to post but then i thought of that type of person and I imagined he wrote it for reaction to feed his anger and having someone else to blame /slate so instead I wish him the best in his recovery it's going to be a lonely road with his attitude
anyhow enough of that I am going to today count my blessings I have a roof over my head, food on the table and three wonderful boys to laugh with and share with..... here's to the next 14 days being gamble free
x

Thanks nt and I agree these laSt few weeks when I'm bugged about lack of cash I do remind myself of these things and to be honest after reading/listening to others I could quite kick myself as things really could be so much worse x

Hi tt,

2 weeks already great stuff,

Yes Sandra told me about that thread or ( tread as she calls it lol) listen a very wise man told me months ago, take what you want from this forum and disregard the rest, ignore it. He also has said many

a time regardless of how much debt you are in, if we compulsery gamble on our means, whether that be 10000 a month or 1000 a month we are all in the same boat if we feed it and leave ourselves totally S***e (if that makes sense lol) I read that thread and totally dismissed it,

You are doing great, keep going forwards,and winning.

Suzanne xxx

PS that wise man if you have not guessed ( and I know he won't mind me saying ) is our very own Duncsxxx

Thanks Suzanne duncs is a wise man I like to read his comments always gives you food for thought ☺signing out on day 14 gamble free and half way through reading the fault in our star's recommended to anyone who enjoys a good read
hope everyone's well and enjoying a gamble free weekend x

Day 15 .... feeling rather off sorts today (usually brought on by a big loss) but as I haven't played I haven't lossed I don't understand why I'm feeling the curl up music up block out the world kinda feeling
payday this week and although blockers in place so can't play want to try minimize the head f**k I've already organizaed a day out with boys Saturday but any tips would be appreciated
right well best go prepare dinner and uniforms etc
hope everyone has a good gamble free Sunday x