I will fight till I win

Sorry to read about your sad news tt, not surprised you feel gutted.

Try to keep positive and stay strong and safe.

Suzanne xxx

Day 21 ..... house is scrubbed from top to bottom, and tonight I am going to my sister's.... been a deep day remembering memories looking at photographs and general thinking, the blows seem to be rife this year so far but then I ask myself if I hadn't made a mess of things the end of last year would I be taking each blow as badly as I seem to be.... I can't believe I've been so selfish as to not even know what was going on with my friend and my biggest regret is there's nothing I can do about it now I can't say that I'm sorry for not being there .... so not one more time will I spin a wheel to escape for what use is that to the people that need me or that I could help today is 21 days but I know now I will never give in on not playing or wasting another second of my time on it x

Just home from my sisters so here's to 21 days xx

Good thinking. I like your attitude. Its time for us to enter into life & play our part. Without intimate personal relationships, kindness & a willingness to share our humanity with others what do we have

Happy mother's day to all the mums out there....I awoke to handmade cards,keyring a new top and pants and a new handbag and purse I am blown away I always prefer handmade presents but my eldest had spent some of his birthday money on my presents ftom him and his brothers least to say I was choked to tears and couldn't thank them enough my greatest present is just to have them call me mum, let alone being spoilt like this my boys are truly selfless another reminder of how I need to will stick to not gambling so I can go back to spoiling them instead
I hope everyone has a wonderful gamble free mothers day x

Happy Mother's Day to you tt, your boys are very proud of you, and so should you be, you are winning now and getting your life back.

Enjoy your day hun.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks Suzanne your continued support means alot :0 ) had a fab day still had chores to do but we all did them together and caught a film :0) here's to another day gamble free xx

Day 23 ..... well abit brighter today I've found a second job bar work/waitressing on a weekend every penny to the pot so feeling a little more in control of being able to get myself outta the mess I'm in :0) also viewing a nursery tomorrow so everything moving in the right direction x

Dropping in to say Hi tt1980 and "Well Done" on 23 days.

The second job sounds good, not only with regard to the extra pennies but could also be fun.

I need to review my work situation as I think it contributes a lot to my state of mind (Work alone from home.) so also my escapism into gambling.

I used to do bar work as a teenager and although exhausting sometimes, it was fun and you met a lot of people. I do think I am maybe a little too old for it now and also my husband is a little old fashioned and believes I should be around in the evenings and weekends to look after his needs.... Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.

Well done again on 23 days.

xxxxx

Hey Sally, yeah I used to do it too although taking time away from the boys I do think it's a step in the right direction the sooner I can pay things off the better ill feel and weird as it may sound I love knowing I've earnt my way and fighting paying back what I gambled away , I also have a buffet job in two weeks so that's some more to the pot...I guess the biggest thung is I feel I'm back taking control instead of everything controlling me defiantly puts me in a better head state
I feel for you it would drive me insane working from home so I agree with you it can't help with state of mind I hope things will get better for you in that department,
hope your days going well x

Day 24.... busy day at work due to the higher bodies coming to visit u really would think the queen was calling haha....... nursery visit didn't end up well so back to the drawing board on that score But am confident I will get there step at a time .....
today is and will be gamble free because I choose to say no x

Well done on 24 days tt, keep going and keep choosing NO.

Suzanne xx

day 25 I do have to say it's becoming easier maybe because I'm putting things into action and taking control that im not on self destruct mode right now or maybe just because things are seemingly quite after recent
episodes but I feel calm, I feel confident that in the next few coming months my debts will be paid and maybe just maybe I will be back on the right track ..... maybe I needed this to see there's no escape from being a gambling addict just forever recovery and to realise I can not control it if I choose to play either way I choose no not even a penny

Thanks nt defiantly no complacency here defo learnt that this time
day 26.... The sun is shining, what a difference it makes ay been out in the garden with my boy well once I'd finished work that was but it was lovely .... something so small but makes a huge difference then I've sat looking at my lists in 6 weeks (thanks to second job) I can pay off 710 and live stretched but meaning that it would only take 18 weeks to be overdraft free so no charges to find and would be done just in time to enjoy spending abit on the boys through holidays ..... The sky is defiantly looking clearer today is and will be gamble free x

Hi tt,

Sooo good to see such positivity from your post Every day we abstain is a little battle won 🙂

Pat yourself on the back dear soldier and treat yourself for such an amazing job you are doing 🙂

keep fighting, keep winning. You and your family deserves peace and calmness in your life...with plenty of smiles to put that icing on the cake ☺

take care

Sandra x