I will fight till I win

Great strong post tt, keep going and keep POSITIVE.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks Sandra day 28 today will be gamble free as I attually for some time feel like me the old me, been to a friends tonight four cans a good catch up setting the world to rights and I feel sober and content as I climb into bed boys are at there dad's so a nice lie In my way :0) Hope everyone's well x

Just seen post thanks Suzanne the support off everyone on here is overwhelming and appreciated dearly x

28 days and feeling good for the last few months I've been panicking around this point that I didn't have enough for bank charges trying everything to scrape them together on top of paying/ staying on top of regular bills this month well its already sat there waiting for them to take it ...(no extra charges for going over overdraft limit). its nice to know that along with the new job I can after this week start seeing a difference I'm still going to be phoning the bank asking them to reduce the overdraft as I go as not to trust myself with the money being sat and growing (way to soon to trust myself for that)in bank but rather than the 50 every four weeks I can this week start 100 PER week I know I keep going on about this but it's huge to me to see a difference to be able to start seeing a written positive step forward ....I know each day is a winner that im not adding to the problem and not gambling but I need to see that im rectifying the debt and so far only being able to pay off 50 and struggling so badly is having its niggles x

Another good day enjoying the better weather visited my brother to see my beautiful neice bought a bargin black dress for the new job (was panicking as nothing suitable for a black uniform 5* resturant) as lost so much weight nothing fits me but at 8.89 who can grumble and now feel a little more relieved .... tomorrow I shall blitz my home and have my sister n fam coming for tea so another packed day on the horizon and on that note I bid everyone good night 28 days and a million miles away from how I felt 28 days ago x

Day 29.... today has been good yet frustrating to say the least my sister and family came round for tea we visited the fish shop where they have a play area for the kids to play and all was great getting back to the house they were on there phones on football betting now even though this is something I've never been intrested in so have no urge to do I found myself having to justify myself yet again when they tried telling me it's Easy money turn two pounds into 30 trying to shove there phones in my face to show me how u play it ya da ya da ya I got cross and I firmly told them I couldn't win as I wouldn't stop and so I won't be gambling at all as that's the only way I can be my sister apologised saying she'd forgot I said where as u may put fiver on and take if u win or be happy if u lost my brain doesn't function that way on the positive side my eldest son said to me earlier how proud he was that I'd told them straight it did bring up frustration and a quick thought on making money which I quickly shoved in a box and slammed the lid, and mentally high fived myself on still feeling more in control of what I want to achieve and how I'm going to get there abstain and maintain work my b**t of and enjoy the freedom it will all eventually bring not only financially but for my sanity x

Day 30 .... not alot to say to be honest no urges feeling positive at starting the second job this week already planning working three days of the bank hol weekend with being off from 1st job and seeing that overdraft come down, oh and being a whole month tomorrow is making me not beat myself up like I was last month :0) another day of winning
not really been posting on others diarys I do read them but sometimes don't know what to say or its already been said
so as I promised I would post everyday this is today's entry
positive mood sun is shining and still winning x

Day 31 .... long way from 31 days ago emotionally,mindset and physically before I was tired grumpy a walking big load of emptiness now I'm perky feeling much more like the old me and so positive seeing light at the end of the tunnel .... attually laughing I get emails from a psychic never paid her but she used to email prompting a gambling win and at that time I did usually win anyway thinking about it I think it had prompted me to gamble further when she said I was due a big win clearly didn't work as I have a big fat deBT ... a big win haha my my looking at it clearly now .... I am now winning as my hard earned cash is my own and although it's spoken for it isn't wasted and soon enough will add up into savings so I have just unsubscribed, I will make my own luck by fighting,working and saving :0) x

The sun may not be physically shining today but HD (happy days) it sure turned out nice again as we like to say 🙂

A massive congratulations on a full month of winning by anyone's standards 🙂

I hate to say it but I think that psychic was right...Maybe not the type of win you were expecting but this is quite possibly the biggest win of your life...Recovery!

Keep @ it - ODAAT

Lovely poem on Wayne's thread hun and let me congratulate you on 31 days of winning.

and as Junniee says thst physic was corrects out a big win, recovery is the biggest win you will ever achieve.

Suzanne xxx

Hi ttreally glad things are going so great for you. Looked on your old post and thought you'd stopped posting. Then realised you'd started a new thread. Congratulations on a month, thats fantastic. Haven't posted in quite a while as been busy and was away past three weeks. What alot of good that has done, feeling motivated and everything id looking bright. Like you i am also looking for second job to get rid of the debt to make quicker progress. The great thing is neithrr of us have added to them. Hope all is well.

Becky

Thanks odaat, suzanne it sure did turn out nice again and as always I appreciate your support ..... The physic well yeah this is and will be my biggest but unsubscribed as the latest email said she attually saw the lottery numbers on my tv and I had won .she would give me the numbers for just 19.99 well if that truly was the case am sure she wouldn't need my 19.99 as she'd put the numbers on herself lmao .... I'm not even starting on that avenue

Hey bex glad to see your well and going strong hun, the second job is ideal am nervous at starting long time since I pulled a pint but it's uplifted me loads am sure itl do the same for you too just knowing were fighting in the right direction, it's good to hear from you glad the break has done you well and to hear you sounding so positive :0 ) I have kept my eye out for you x

Day 32 .... work... half hr at the park with Lil man and busy sorting my catering stuff out buffet to do Friday (extra pennies extra pennies) ..... maybe one day that dream will be a reality I often look over my business plan thinking what if....I love it being in the kitchen, seeing that final spread/cake knowing I created it one day ........
today is and will be gamble free a few more pennies to the pot everything to live for everything to fight for and everything to smile for
it sure did turn out nice again today ☺x

Every little helps my friend 🙂
Hey who said you cannot start your own business? Cmon now, no reasoning with yourself, just do it!
You have skills in culinary sector?...hmmmm..if ya make cakes I'm assured customer for your business! Promise ☺

Keep up good work, you have more strength than you realise. Well done!

Sandra x

Hi tt hope all is well. Just checking in to see everything's ok? Its funny as i haven't been on here in weeks yet spent nearly the whole past 2 days reading and posting. Congrats on your day count.

Bex x