Day 42 been and had a meeting with my brothers ex to arrange seeing her all went well sun is shining washing on the line and work later feeling good today is and will be gamble free xxxx
That's a bummer 2 phone payments taken out sooo annoying when we are counting every single penny .
But you are 43 days today great going, be very proud and have a lovely Easter.
Suzanne xxx
Happy easter guys :0) family here for dinner today touring cars on the box :0) kids happy with all the chocolate they have (I could open my own shop with it) lol today is and will be gambe free not long till first mile stone of 50 days and every day gets that little bit easier to be able to say no hope everyone's well and thanks to you all for all your support xx
Quick check in currently trying hard not to throw up must have caught bug off little man needless to say today is and will be gamble free x
Day 46 feeling abit better today thank goodness works busy as ever but I'm keeping positive 4 days and I'll be fifty gamble free can't quite believe the days have gone so fast hope everyone's well x
46 days and staying positive, lovely strong post,
Well done tt
Suzanne xxx
Day 48 checking in quickly again as just finished work quick kid sort and then back to work for a late finish payday today so next job is too pay all those manual bills .... I attually said out loud today things are finally looking up 200 paid off overdraft by the end of Sunday kids are happy and although quite tired and busy I've a smile back on my face hope everyone's ok xx
Been working all weekend but day off today :0) well day to catch up on housework lol
day 50...... them last 50 days have flown by and amother payday under the belt but I am feeling very much like the old me with each passing day .. kids are all well and not much else to say haha hope everyone has a fab gamble free Sunday I know it's prob been a struggle with grand national but hope everyone's staying strong xx
Congratulations on your 1st 50 days 🙂
You should be very proud!
Keep winning - ODAAT
Well done on the 50 days milestone! Your posts are getting brighter every single day. There was a leaflet on here on the old site called "women who gamble". It shows how much guilt we feel towards our children when we waste our time & money feeding online bingo/slots. It goes against everything that motherhood stands for. This explains why you felt so awful when you gambled. It sounded like you tackled it years ago and were gamble free for many years? It was lying dormant like you said. It is inside us for life but we can only deal with it on a daily basis. Those 50 days are a great foundation. You have told people and it is out in the open. You even know it will escalate ...you have been doing your homework well !! Even your picture with the baby steps is exactly what is needed. You are doing great. Your children have a great mom. Yes you came off the road to recovery lately and got caught up in gambling again but you are back on the right road again. You can do this, you have 50 days behind you. Take care, Suzy
Hey tt,
Whoop whoop on your first little milestone and keep them coming! Keep believing and being kind to yourself 🙂
Every day you abstain opens the door to the world you so deserve. It will only get better
Stay safe and have a wonderful Sunday
High five to you!
Sandra
Another big whoop whoop congrats on 50 days from me, it is a very good milestone to reach and you have done it.
Well done you.
Suzanne xxx
Thank you all so much for your kind words its really appreciated ... Suzy I think that's one of the hardest parts of relapsing the never ending tourturing you do to yourself especially where the kids are concerned but although I'm working more we all seem happier and the kids have noticed mums back :0) routines are back in place instead of time wasted in a zone and we're all benifit ing from it nt there will be no complacency next goal is 100 then 150 etc etc blocks are all still in place and remaining in place as said I was a good ten year gamble free and the lesson learnt no matter how long it is always going to be there I will only control it by not gambling at all
thanks again guys x
Day 52 seem to keep skipping a day here lol it is only because I'm extremely busy with work and today after work I enjoyed the sun with my babies that and other than work n kids I don't have much to say at the moment haha I've decided this is a good thing as I've had enough dramas this last year to last a lifetime it's attually amazing to think that alot of it came down to my gambling too sometimes your your own worst enemy ...... so am just enjoying being gamble free.. drama free .. and working on becoming debt free I did question myself how things had changed and that id just gone into existing mode not really living was getting quite morbid on how would anyone even care if I wasn't around anymore would I be missed ?? but I soon snapped out of that I just looked at my boys. And that's the answer to all to at least one person (3 for me) your somebody's world and that's worth fighting everyday for x
Morning 🙂 Not entirely convinced that anyone would want to buy the ramblings of a mad woman but I'm glad you enjoy my diary 😉 You must be very proud of how far you've come, so quickly, especially with everything you had to cope with @ the start...I'm so glad that you have realised you are their world! You cannot put a price on love!
Keep winning - ODAAT
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