Day 37,closing in on a mini target of 3rd jan- we have a nice day planned out for the kids which I booked in march.
Busy day today,more work in the garden,thanks nt for the post yesterday,yep the blue skies were with me,hopefully again today.
More time with the kids.
Holiday is going quick now,before you know it;it will be Monday 5th.
just for today I shall not gamble
Hi trigger,
37 days well done
Suzanne xx
Day 38,- 900 hours according to my clean time counter!
Another day planned on my garden project,day spent with the kids; no thoughts of gambling.
Just for today I shall not gamble.
Thanks for the post emily.
Day 39; Garden project developing nicely,the weather has helped.
Off out to house party 2nite,party at home 2mo.
On November 22nd I didn't think I would get through to the new year without a bet.
I made a plan,put blocks in place, took each day as it come and it's day 39,bills got paid no probs,not at the pace I would like,but I can live without that.
You cant win cos you can't stop,just for today I shall not gamble.
Happy New year.
Day 40, -hungover,will not gamble today.
mindset good tho thumping!
Day 41,still feel hungover,no more drinking to extremes for me.
Nice family day yesterday,no gambling.
Pay day today,nice to knock one off my cards down to 600.
Just for today I shall not gamble
Day 42, 1000 hours! A planned day out today,will be fun with the 2 little n's.
No chance of gambling,and don't want to gamble.
I'm focused on getting to august 10th,holiday time when I shall be credit card and overdraft free.
Beyond that a gamble free life.
just for today I shall not gamble
Day 43,garden work planned,kiddies party this arvo,no gambling in my plans of thoughts.
just for today I shall not gamble.
Thanks for your post Em.
Day 44, back to the grind today,be good to get back into routine,it will help my recovery
Can really start putting a dent in those debts,positive thinking,I don't need gambling.
Just for today I shall not gamble
Hi Trigger,
Well done on 44 days, keep thinking positive and keep winning.
Suzanne xx
Day 45, - back in routine,quiet day at work,doesn't help at times.
Wish I could fast forward to the summer and be further down the recovery road,but that's the addictions way of getting to me.
Remember thinking on Nov 22nd I wish I could fast forward to jan 5th,it seems like yesterday,time does go by so quickly.
At times I can't believe I've been so stupid as to throw money away like confetti,actually thinking I could win.
Watching horse racing has actually helped me,being a favourite backer it's amazing how many times an odds on favourite loses;it just re confirms my thoughts you can never win,especially us as we can't win cos we can't srop
I don't recommend watching racing,I don't make a point of it,but it has no negative affect on me;the opposite in fact.
Work all week and a busy weekend in the process of being planned.
All being good credit card 1 will be down to 500.
just for today I shall not gamble
Day 47 , a quiet time at work,makes the days go slowly,at the moment I'm wanting to get as far away from Nov 22 as poss.
No thoughts of gambling;really couldn't waste another penny , more than ever I can not see the point;I could never win.
I'm back to that stage of trying to fill my spare time;wot little spare time I have.
I have my garden project that can fill daylight hours on a wkd if the weather's good,but no real hobbies as such,the only hobby I had was throwing money away!
Gona explore hobby options.
I know thd buzz of gambling is hard to replicate,but I'm looking for things to keep me busy;I'd rather be bored and happy, a simple family life is what I yearn,stress free.
Just for today I shall not gamble
Don't wish your life away Trigger, you already have 47 days 🙂 between you & your dreaded date which was in a completely different year anyway! Try & enjoy your freedom, don't be confused remembering a buzz gambling gave because that was only seconds in a lifetime of anguish!
I abandoned all my hobbies so many years ago, I can't even remember what they were! So for now, I am here, having a lovely time meeting likeminded people who don't judge & just wish the best for everyone they encounter & I'm enjoying my freedom.
There's always something to keep you busy if you have the inclination...Lots of little old ladies (& men too I expect) could do with a green fingered volunteer to keep their weeds @ bay & even just a walk in the fresh air can do wonders for lifting spirits!
Keep doing what you're doing - ODAAT
Thanks for your post odaat; your right I shouldn't be wishing my life away.
I'm going to make a concerted effort to enjoy each day as it comes.
It's the hardest part of the year for me,work quiet I hate it,I get bored easily.
Boredom combined with the debris of debts this addiction leaves us with makes days like today a struggle.
It must be the time of year,I've giving up gambling for at least 4 out of the last 5 years between oct/Nov and jan,a small gamble in jan has always lead to destructive gambling for the rest of the year.
The 25th Jan last year is when I fell off the wagon,I'm very mind full of that date.
I started betting on Asian basketball games under/over points - hundreds of pounds- f***n crazy!
Even if I got 9 /10 right it would never be enough.
It may have taken 25 years of gambling but it has really sunk in now.
I can't wait for the day I've paid back all the gambling debts,there the only tie I have with gambling now.
A day at a time I will get there.
Day 48 , the dreaded lurgy has hit me;I will soldier on!
Been doing some serious reading on this site,there are some strong willed,determined,wise people on this site at the moment,it's all good to aid my recovery.
I've a long way to go,but on the right road.
Just for today I shall not gamble
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