The title of my diary says it all....
Had a major relapse last couple of weeks (after 34 gamble free days) that has led me to lose £400. Money that I can ill afford to lose.
It's time to stop this.
I'm gambling because I feel under pressure, both financially and due to my lifestyle.
Gambling is what I have become accustomed to. Only now that I've recently bought my own place (on my own), it's starting to look ridiculous.
I have to stop.
I'm not in debt, but I do only have £100 in my savers account. I do draw the line when it comes to having debt.
But I know I still have a major problem.
By rights, I should have about 6k in the bank. But I don't.
I have to work harder at trying to occupy my mind and to steer well clear of any gambling related things.
Day 0.....
Small beginnings....
Hi. Then you are lucky that you have that resolve which is a big leg up. You've taken the right step. It doesn't matter how much. You're a gambling addict like me and everyone here. You're not on your own anymore. Post, write and read. Learn and you can do this if you really want to.
I see that you're starting your recovery today too mate!....
Let's do this together! Day by day!
Let's firstly get to a week....
And then kick on from there!
Good luck mate! stay strong
Hello Moorey,
You said you draw the line when it comes to getting yourself in debt which is good. Could you change that line and work towards not gambling if it's causing you problems?
I know it sounds almost too simple to make sense but you obviously have some will power and boundaries which I certainly didn't when I was gambling. It's something I have now though because I've learned to build up my strength and will power.
All the best!
Check out my blog www.conradnose.com
Hey buddy keep your head up ! I know this time you're coming back stronger . You have the determination to do this just think " we cannot win because we cannot stop gambling " . I'm rooting for you man you can do this again one day at a time .
Sars
Hello Moorey. There a few issues for me just yet. I'm right behind you though. You don't need me. You've taken the first step already. I'm looking forward to hearing your story and hope you stick with it all the way. I'll join you when I'm totally ready.
Thanks for the responses guys!...
Conradnose, I'll be sure to check out your blog buddy.
Hoping to come back even stronger this time!....
So so sorry , you must have had a miserable couple of weeks .
We're all with you Mooray . Obviously I don't know how your feeling but guess I've been in similar situations . It's not nice , dark lonely places where you really don't want to be .
Good news is your back and determined to try again . Wishing you well .....stephen
Abstainer wrote:
So so sorry , you must have had a miserable couple of weeks .
We're all with you Mooray . Obviously I don't know how your feeling but guess I've been in similar situations . It's not nice , dark lonely places where you really don't want to be .
Good news is your back and determined to try again . Wishing you well .....stephen
Cheers Stephen. Yes it's been a dark couple of weeks. All the hard work I did for the previous 5 weeks was undone in a matter of days.
But, as you say, I'm back. I'm determined to do much better this time.
You're doing fantastically well mate! Into the 60's. Well done!!!!
You must be feeling the beneifts.
Take care buddy
Day 1 complete.
Today's emotions have been mainly filled with sadness and regret. Work today was extremely hard.
Hoping the days get easier as time goes on. It's still fresh in the memory. I always feel that getting to 4 days gamble free is the first target. That's when you can truly say that your recovery has begun.
Well done Moorey. keep going!
Dear Moorey,
I am only 25 days in myself, but I remember those dark first few days. I just want to tell you that it does get better (you would have felt that yourself after 34 days, no?). There is no such thing as a mistake, only a lesson IMO! Sounds like you are learning that lesson. Up you get, you can do this. Be gentle with yourself though, you need to boost your strength. I have lots of regrets too, but we can't allow the past to take our future. Well done coming back, that must have been difficult and it shows you do have resilience.
Good to have you back Moorey , it hurts to see a friend struggling with the addiction . I imagine you have been to a sad lonely place of pain and self recrimination .
Don't know what else to say , you know we're all with you and wishing you well.
Yesterday is dead and gone , and tommorows out of sight
It's so sad to be alone , help me make it through the night .......Gladys Knight ( wish she'd get her own diary ) !
Take care Moorey .... stephen
Sorry I've posted on your last thread
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Hi Moorey, thanks for your post on my thread, which I've replied to on my thread.
P.S. GF tomorrow........? Yes? Good man 🙂
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