I joined over 2 years ago after I relapsed and I've been doing ok I guess, limited to £50 a month but now I want to stop for good. I stopped on the 8th May, I have since then played £20 in an account I forgot I had money in.
Last night I played a free £5 and won £209 I deposited £20 in order to withdraw I only have £100 left and I'm determined to withdraw it and move on.
I'm going to write in here any time I feel the urge, I'm not going to play free slots either I'm so determined to beat it
Free play / food / incentives all the little distractions to keep us involved
don't feel too bad though chiapso, the gambling industry spends MILLIONS keeping us involved
Ugh it's on my mind constantly that there is £100 in a pending account, I messaged them to say I want to "cool off" for a week because I assume it will withdraw whilst I'm cooling off, then I can self ex when it's gone through.
There's really no point in self exclusion you just find new sites 🙁 it's killing me
Chiapso, if you're gambling online, get some blocking software on your devices. Betfilter and Gamblock are available at a cost or K9 is free. If you can get someone else to run the install and set it up using their e-mail address, then you should not be able to remove it yourself, short of wiping your machine. Your ISP could also provide the means to block categories and sites for any device that connects to your home network. Also, call your mobile network and ask them to block 18+ sites. All these barriers can help you, by giving up the time to rationally think through the consequences of your actions.
Day 2
I have tried to block sites but there's so many ways to do it it's impossible.
I blocked myself from the site so will have £100 soon I hope! I've no feelings to gamble today at all,
Yes, you're right it is impossible, you could have someone else install K9, but then go out and by a new PC. You could block 18+ websites on your mobile, and go and get a new SIM on a different network. You could get someone to setup the filters on your ISP, and then change ISPs. No-one said it made gambling impossible, where there's a will there's a way, but the aim of the barriers is to make it as difficult and time-consuming as possible, so you have the best chance of stopping.
I've been through all that before I just find a way around it like its a challenge I would borrow a laptop or even reset one. My husband doesn't know about my relapse I confided in my mum, she helps me more. My husband just wanted to take my cards away and I got really depressed and wanted to gamble more.
I use to be a lot worse spending £300-400 a month and sometimes more was in 3k debt then husband cleared it then 2k debt and my mum cleared it. I have no been in any overdraft or loan for 4years so that's something. And I have gone back on to £50 a month but this last 2 month I've been playing free but I still can't sleep at night knowing about free money even though I won for basically nothing I am scared it will lead to more.
Day 3 I am not going to gamble today 🙂
Just searched " no deposit bonus" ugh. But I did NOT do it!
I'm so proud of myself.
Day 5 I will NOT gamble today 🙂
I just got paid so big test. I hate having money, does that sound weird? It makes me very anxious
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