Captain, as everybody else who has posted has said, I do not believe that anybody will be rejoicing at your failure to resist random betting.
The course you chose has to be the most difficult as you are constantly staring temptation in the face. The fact you resisted for so long is the thing that most of us are surprised at---I know I would have given in much earlier.
As gamblers we usually try to deflect responsibility for our actions so possibly your statement about others wishing you to fail may be your sub-conscious trying to justify something to yourself. At the end of the day mate you have been brave enough to come back on here and bare your soul to us all which I am sure most of us will be both pleased and proud that you did because deep down this community know what is like to fail.
Hopefully this time you will be even more determined to succeed but do not be too hard on yourself as you should concentrate now on how good you felt when you were not out of control with your gambling.
All the best Captain
Stumper
Dear C,
Long time no speak! You sound angry and sad to me and I think that is all normal and ok. I had those feelings C.....still do when I look at how i have facked up my finances.
Only you know what is right for you...what works for one doesn't work for another. You'll get there...it takes time and patience....and it's definitely achievable and worth it too.
If you feel a bit grumpy or miserable I would highly recommend netline...one to one support...it's great. Pop back onto chat, i haven't had the time just recently for chat but i will try to go in to support you if you like.
This is no easy task C so don't be too hard on yourself.
Let's have you looking up at that blue sky again!
Your friend...Jas xx
Captain,
Like everyone else who has posted on you diary i am sorry to read that you have gambled compulsively these last few days,i find it incredibly surprising that you think that some people will be gloating at what you have done......,i would be amazed if that was the case Captain!!!,the only difference between you and me Captain is that i know that it's impossible to gamble in a controlled way in the long term,i have tried and failed many times in the past.I am a Compulsive Gambler and as such the only thing that has any measure of "control" over my gambling is the addiction.I sincerely hope that you can avoid what has happened to you these last few days in the future.
Seano.
Hi Captain
I havent posted myself for a while,but its good to see you posting again.I dont know wether you are still going to random bet or you are going to abstain completely.But as i said to you before you have my support either way.Lots of people slip kid.None of us are perfect or we would not be on here.All the best Jeff.
Thanks for all the supportive messages folks, really appreciated.
Random gambled today again, the bug is back inside me. I won, but thats besides the point, I will lose it all eventually if I dont get back under control.
Tomorrow is another day.
Hi Captain,
If you are anything like me you (you are) then you will not stop random gambling now until the losses become unbearable again. Which they will at some point.
Only problem is that you will have then added significantly to the debt that you have worked so hard to make inroads into over the last few months.
I wish i could bottle the feeling i had in the pit of my stomach on Saturday morning after a bit of random gambling that i did last Friday evening. I'd give you a dose right now and it would soon make you think twice about having a bet tomorrow.
I hope you get back on track soon Captain but i know it is easier said than done.
Keep posting mate good or bad.
I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP
True?
A Captain is a leader amongst men and we are looking for you to be positive now.
Stumper
Another day, another day of random gambling.
Incredible how easily you can just slip back into the habit of it after 4 months away. After 5 days straight random gambling, feels like I've never been away.
Back to gambling silly amounts on stupid cartoon races.
The beast inside me remains hungry and I'm feeding it.
Snap out of it Captain!
We both know the virtual racing is a joke. You are not alone though mate. I've had the occasional flutter at Steepledowns in the last few months. There is nothing virtual about a loser mate.
You are right it is shocking how quickly that one random bet leads us back to our former self. At least you are still posting though mate. You can definitely get through this.
I hope you find the resolve to start fighting your addiction again soon.
Well said curly.captain how you could think people want you to fail is beyond me..personally that was the "beast" inside you speaking...my outspoken words on your diary at times was because i too tried to moderate my gambling but failed miserably and just didnt want you falling into the same trap..that trap door has well and truely opened now my friend and you may not like this but it may now be time for total abstinence..i for one hate it at times (abstaining )as its been a huge part o my life but i know its the only way forward and deep down i think you maybe realise that too...chin up dude you can do it.we all can
Come on Captain-you are still posting so deep down you know that what you are doing to yourself is going to bring only harm. There is no pot of gold at the end of that rainbow you are chasing.
When you said that others were willing you to fail mate perhaps the only person who did not really want you to succeed was yourself as you refused to close the doors behind you.
You can only stop this if you yourself really want to--if not you will always keep going back and sinking deeper and deeper.
I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP
Stumper
Hi Captain,
Seems to me your at the crossroads again and it's time for a big life changing decision. Only, it doesn't have to be as dramatic as that. Take one big leap, stopping altogether, and then baby steps (filling the time void, taking up old hobbies again or starting new ones etc..). Your life could be so much better if you did this, and YOU CAN!! You will get such a buzz when you achieve mile-stones along the way mate.
Cmon, you can do this!!
Stay Strong
Steve
Thanks for the supportive messages guys. I respect the views that say stop completely but I will never do that. I'll be fine again from August when the football season starts again. I know I can do controlled sports betting only during football season, I've proved it. Between now and then I can only hope I find something else to give me a buzz, or hope I dont lose too much.
I have gone from £1000 down after 3 days random gambling to £400 up after 6 days so could be worse but I am just an accident waiting to happen at the moment and my work is suffering.
On the subject of celebration of my current demise, there is no doubt there are people on here in that category. There are people on here predominately to take joy from the failure of others because they cannot succeed themselves and cant bear that people can actually beat this illness we have.
They know who they are. They are the real losers.
Hi Captain,i hope you can find something that will get you through until August,i know from my own past experience where you are at the moment,and without a doubt it's hard to stop when the "beast" gets a grip on us.Have you thought about not taking your cards etc with you when you go out to work?...at least then you will limit your access to funds until you get home.Anyway,keep posting and keep trying to find something else to fill your time.
Seano.
Canny see anybody willing u to fail mate...we are all here for the same reasons...personally feel your looking to blame anybody else and not yourself...only YOU can sort it mate..chin up cmon you can do it..
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