Hi Captain I do hear you on the high and migthy theme and I suppose it comes with the territory. Each person imo has to make there own choices as to what is best for them. Others might judge in one way or another but again its there choice.
I can see that they are people at different levels in relation to a gambling problem. Not 1 glove fits all sizes. Some can make a responsible choice some cant. I formyself can not ever do responsible gambling in any form as I immediatly snow ball. But thats just me. And I have fallen off the wagon a number of times.
Your here and I respect you for that - zero judgment and if you have paid of xxx££3 debts with some take back from the bookie then good for for 🙂
Either way they are people here for you no matter what you choose. All the best to you Blocked.
Ha..its the right worshipful master of the high and mighty here lol....captain captain captain....jeff jasmine etc all have one thing in common mate in that they are being successful in what they have set out to achieve on these diaries....im gonna blow my own trumpet here (rooty tooty toot ) near on 6 months ago i was very near in the gutter through gambling yet now after a sustainable abstainence i am proud of my achievement thus far...if that makes me high and mighty ha, ....people should judge your diary from day 1 mate and not just the past couple of pages...maybe the editors should now ban me for being up my own a r s e but from what ive interpreted these diaries are 99% made up of genuine people who genuinly want a better life in that well away from gambling yet your blinkers dont seem to see that !!! I am very supportive when i can be but will say my piece if need be...yesterday i felt a certain diary went too far and i have most prob been the number one supporter of that diary even trying mind games at times which unfortunately hasnt worked..if the editors read this i apologize but do think anybody reading your diary for the 1st time will be led into a false sense of security...captain i really feel and fear for you :-/
Captain,
thank you for posting on my diary....,i don't understand the point you are making about certain camps and site "godfathers"....,in my last post on my diary i said that a certain diary i had read had caused a period of "self reflection" about my own gambling and where it taken me,i also stated that i wasn't taking any moral high ground....,and i'm not Captain,in the early days i said that you had my support in your attempt to control your gambling,and i also said at the time that i didn't think it would work for me,and that you needed to be careful...,that still stands Captain.....,i can't personally gamble in a controlled way,and i would be the first to admit that for CG's i advocate abstinence and limited access to money, because that works for me :).I get no pleasure whatsoever reading that your struggling at present Captain,and i sincerely hope that you can regain some control soon.
Best wishe's.
Seano.
Your diary makes for hard reading Captain....the theory of controlled betting is one that I have thought about quite a bit since I quit, but what worries me so much is that I'd follow you onto the random gambling, which is what really caused the problem for me.
I liken the football betting to the couple of pints and a game of pool in town on a Thursday night.... if I do it often enough, I will eventually lose the control, and stay out all night and then regret it.
All the best,
Ryan
Morning Captain,
Been catching up on your diary and very interesting reading it makes too 🙂
You actually make me smile especially when you have your "angry pants" on. I am only making lighthearted fun C....c'mon give us a smile! Laughter is a brilliant medicine.
I would like to suggest something. Maybe barking up the wrong tree....and I am no Doctor but do you think you may be a little depressed C? You often say you are bored and things seem flat without gambling. These feelings can be signs of depression C. I don't want to nag...but perhaps you could consider going to your GP. Just a thought as I often worry about you.
Keep going C.......Jas xx
Glad to read that you appreciate certain people's posts Captain. I had made a decision to not post on your diary again as I considered that you did not welcome my advice or concerns about your methods of handling your situation. I have made an exception however following the recent entries.
I do not know or even care whether you consider me to be one of the high and mighty on here--whoever and whatever they may be.
In the past I have tried like many others to give you constructional advice in my opinion but regretably you seemed to completely ignore a number of suggestions such as helping others and thinking more about other people for a change. Having suffered from depression myself I know only to well that sometimes one can assume that people are getting at you when they are actually only trying to help. I will not tell you to pull yourself together as again I know from experience that if that was the case then nobody would ever feel down.
Being judgemental is something that I am possibly guilty of but truly I am only trying to be observant and helpful. I again know how easy it is to think that people are judging you because when I was depressed I found it hard to accept anybody else's point of view and used to think, who are they to say that.
Over the years however I have begun to slowly realise that I am not always correct and that others are often right.
I do not wish to criticise you as you are your own person however, you have stated how difficult you find it to make friends and I can understand that from how you post sometimes. Whether your stories of huge wins are true or just fabrication I do not know or care but I do care that such stories can have a bad effect on certain other individuals. They have obviously got a number of peoples backs up yet you still repeat them and then bemoan the fact that they do not like it.
Personally I feel you are wrong to say that others were waiting for you to fail--I think you knew you would fail and were not that bothered when you did. I still think that your method of dealing with this illness is wrong for you but I would always respect your decision to do what you want. It is your life--not a rehearsal-live it as you see best my friend. Please do not criticise others though who feel that you are wrong.
I wish you well in your recovery-as always
Stumper
Evening folks. Thanks for all the posts. all contributions welcome.
Few brief notes:
1. My comments on others recent behaviour on here has nothing to do with my recent downturn, and in fact was made based on comments based on other diaries as opposed to on my own diary.
2. Jas - I am annoyed at myself for my return to random gambling but I'm not depressed and dont need to see a GP - if you knew me for real you wouldnt even think of suggesting that my friend, just shows how just reading someone's typed notes can be misinterpreted!
3. Stumper - I value your views, even when we disagree, so please dont stop posting on my diary as you had been considering.
"2 days without gambling for me, never tried to stop completely before, only to limit myself to advance sports bets but have taken advice to try and stop completely as I cant just stick to sports bets, end up doing other random bets at bookmakers and lose all my money."
first paragraph of you initial post on your diary Captain.....,what's changed in 5 months mate?.....,nothing...in spite of lots of supportive posts and ideas to help you?.I really do hope you can get yourself out of the current stage of your "random" gambling,and get back to some sort of control (as is your chosen modus of operandi)....,just ask yourself though,will this cycle your now in repeat itself this time next year?
"Nothing changes if nothing changes"
Seano.
Hi Captain
After catching you in chat earlier i found myself compelled to read a little of your diary. Well, interesting read, ive been on this forum for nearly a year now and have read some cr**, oops shouldnt have said that lol. i must say i found your postings to be honest and quite bizzare, think maybe cos my gambling habits where completely different to yours.
I asked you in chat if you gambled for escapisim or just the buzz. You said both, so maybe you need to take a realy good look at yourself and come to a decision what you realy want out of life. I was just a slot gambler and gambled for just over 20 years, i have not gambled since sept09, i went through counselling and recently come of the anti ds.... The reason i am saying this if you truly want to quit, you will. I have stolen from various people including parents, work and friends (yer im ashamed of that but its in the past now) and my life has improved no end! You talk of winning and losing whole heaps of money which i can only dream about, but money is not everything, family, love and happiness are far more important.
Maybe im just being me, life is better without gambling tho! I hope very much you win your battle,
take care and sorry for my waffle, ands
ps, have only flicked thru it quickly!
pps find another buzz even if its a spliff
ppps joking
It's good that you feel you have made progress Captain....FFS though don't undo that progress over the next six weeks,otherwise it counts for nothing!!!.It may seem like a long time but the football season will be with us in the blink of an eye mate......,you can beat this Captain.
Seano.
You can beat this----if you want to
but
This will beat you-----if you want it to
Don't lie down mate-fight back
I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP
Stumper
HiCaptain
as always it was nice to speak to you in chat this evening.
You very obviously have a vast knowledge and passion for domestic football, but as you pointed out the boredom has set in until the season gets underway again.....
Humour me (if you like) and write a small list of 3 (just 3) things that you enjoy that are in no way gambling related.........
Till then
Kim x
Kim - nice to chat and thanks for the post...cant find your diary so replying on my own... 3 things...
Women
Running & Keeping Fit
Reading
Do all of those already ( to varying degrees lol )
Your welcome ........dont have a diary as such ..... but here is a bit more of how i came to be here
http://www.gamcare.org.uk/forum/index.php?tid=10043
Those 3 interests take just 1 away from the equation.......... and you are left with ?
Will read your info Kim, but I must be being thick..dont get the 'take one away from the equation' scenario ??
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