Metamorphosis

Just home and will repost later.

what a strange world it is, two weeks ago after some major family curved balls and health problems I felt almost suicidal but this weekend has been one of the best for months.

Out of the blue calls from three different friends I have known for years so Friday hair repurpled with a touch of pink (eat your heart out dame Edna) and dinner with a friend. Spent sat with another friend then sat night with yet another friend of thirty years and her family, coming home with one of her beautiful paintings as a gift. Today the icing on the cake literally at a fairy and pirate party for thirty five year olds (as in 35 five year olds)- bliss.

There is a low mist over the river, a slight breeze rustling the trees and the light from my bedroom window reflected on the water ripples. Family issues mending, snuggly and warm in my duvet and relaxed enough to dream again that with a little effort life can be good once more.

Hey there,

Not much to say...just thank you...my heart light up reading ur post...happy time spend with friends and calm life on the river....love it!!!

((((((((((( DF )))))))))))

S x

Hi Dragonfly,

I'm off to work in a second but dropped by to say hello. I love the new pic of your river! And, am happy to hear that as Sandra just said that you have once again found some serenity on your beautiful river. -joanxxxx

Thanks Sandra and Joan and how lucky am I as my winter wonderland is very beautiful.

Read an article about opiates being used to block gambling urges - replace one addiction with another or what.

Had such a good weekend with no time to have any thoughts of spending sprees and exhausting as I find socialising hard work as by nature a fairly solitary person but love spending time with others especially old friends which I guess is a contradiction in terms.

Have a parcel to collect for someone and thinking of my journey to get there and where I will be, suddenly out of the blue I am thinking I shall reward myself and continue my happiness by going on a fun spree as near one of my old haunts-------- what the f*** is wrong with me.

I am staying at home, the parcel can wait and I will think of a suitable explanation. Know from reading Souls thread how hard this is and not going to risk it today.

Instead I am going to think about designing a stained glass window for my shed/ studio/ summerhouse for when it gets built next year as my friend has booked me on a course in the new year.

If I am going senile in my old age why cant I forget that I enjoy gambling rather than forget where I put my keys.

LOL Lol Lol yeah I'd do better with the loosing my key thing too. LOL glad ya had a good weekend and wishing ya many more.

Hey DF ..

It's hard to switch how we reward ourselves isn't it and that's how these habits start as I know all too well myself so you are not alone.xxx

Thank you for your post which gives me massive confirmation that I'm on the right lines in trying to unravel this stuff..

In my job..my manager and the headworker have bonded together and I as co manager am " the bad one" for telling the truth! " Funnily enough my boss is in my role in her home life as her daughter and her abusive boyfriend aligned against her....hmmmm

Thinking of you DF and to many more good weekends g /free..

R and D xxx

Hello Dame DF im sure Edna isn't a patch on you.

Its nice to cybermeet a fellow ( Dame ) Doreenitis sufferer but thanks for that link and the fukitiol going down a treat.

As always its such a pleasure you popping by my diary and even more superb that your carrying on this g/ free life, keep sailing on.

Wishing you well

Hi Dragonfly,

Taking a quick break from my cleaning frenzy before this guy gets here. Yes, Wild Willy's has the most amazing burgers!! I plan on savoring every bite. Am thinking about that word savor and am thinking that maybe that's what I need to do more of. Slow down. Stop racing around and trying to swallow everything whole. Take my time and savor happy moments b/c life is full of cr appy moments too eh? Sorry to hijack your thread here. Thanks for stopping by!! -joanxxxx

Thanks folks and lovely to hear from you.

Having a duvet day as very high risk frame of mind as wanting to escape level of anxiety.

Even forgot to go to works do last night as so stressed and tired and too late by the time they phoned to see where I was.

Family over tomorrow for more renovation, may even get a working toilet by the end of the day so need to relax and breathe.

Thinking a lot, probably too much, but struggling to express myself again.

As I live on the Thames I was worried about tidal wave and ending up with houseboat perched in a tree in my garden but barrier seems to have done the trick and water levels still ok. Around this time last year my garden was under five foot of water and I had to abandon ship shortly after for two weeks so fingers crossed but has been a rough time for some.

Although not offering much support to others I still wish everyone strength at this difficult time of year.

Hi DF,

Hope you had a lovely and cosy weekend. Duvet days can be best days at a time 🙂

I hope you avoided tidal wave on the river and all are safe and dry. We had flooding here ( east Anglia) and it was really horrible experience. My place stayed dry, but people next street wasn't as lucky. Shook us all, but so much you can do when mother nature shows it's force.

Anyway, hope you finding peace with yourself and looking after yourself.

Take care

Sandra x

Hi Dame DF

I must admit to being mega impressed and a bit envious of the pink bit!!

It sounds like you've been coping well recently. Glad that the family stuff's cope-able for you. Saturday's duvet day sounds like bliss. I do enjoy a "switch off" day- just lock out the world and chillax with my thoughts.

It makes me smile to read about the stained glass course. I think that'll suit you to a tee and you'll have the skills to incorporate some of yourself into your new build- fantastic!!

Take care of you

Irene

x

Stop the f*****g world I want to get off.

http://youtu.be/-a-ZK1WwzIA

Hi Dragonfly,

Here and listening... -joanxxxxx

Hi DF,

Stopping the world is on my wish list for Xmas lol...

But, i suppose it wouldn't turn if you wasn't in it xx

So let it turn Hun...we need to see that calm side by the river xx

Relax, get sum rest and start again tomorow 🙂

S x

DF,

It is easier said than done, i know. I would lie if i say i have the spirit for the festive season..What suppose to be joyfull time, comes with emotional rollercoaster. Just need to ride it out girl. Nothing else will help, we are humans, we have feelings..good and bad...

We will come out the other end. You will never be alone sweetheart, stay close, tough time will pass and we can cheer each other for the start of 2014 🙂

Stay strong DF i do care about you

Sandra x