Metamorphosis

Hi Dragonfly... great to read the positivity in your posts. Life can be hard as you say but with a positive outlook even bad experiences can bring be seen in a positive light.

Here's to waterproof gardens and a cure for flu... regards... S.A 🙂

Hi Dragonfly,

African apple cake sounds delicious!! Your comment reminds me of a figurine that P and I keep on one of our shelves. It's two round middle aged women huddled together over a blueberry pie and they are clearly scarfing it back because they have it all over their faces. The caption beneath says" it's just fruit". Lol! I'm supposed to be off of refined sugar and find myself from time to time looking for it in all of the wrong places. I can have fruit but, I don't think they mean the entire 2 lbs of grapes in one sitting. Ha ha ha. I'm still quite round myself. I love the idea of hurling myself into the surf and winding up somewhere on your shore. I really am glad to hear that you are getting some peace. Me? I grapple with the demon several times a day it seems but, mostly on the weekends. I seem to be the trouble maker. If I push the envelope P will usually cave. So, I am doing my darnedest to be a good girl. Blaaaahh.. 😀 Nice to hear from you Dragonfly. Stuffing myself with grapes and waving. -joanxxx

Hi DF,

Oh I like this talk about guardian angels. It is good and calm feeling when they are by ur side. Complete harmony and you don't even realise when the corners of them lips are lifting up and shaping into a smile.

My guardian angel is back on my shoulder. Thank god for that lol. It must of had a day out socialising on Saturday (something I don't do as much lol) so I was left to share that poison with devil. It's ok, sometimes you have to defend yourself without someone elses help..must hav a good immune system cause the poison soon cleared out of my body.

Yummy, I agree with sis here, that apple cake sounds heavenly...just after a run so that wouldn't b a good idea to top myself with lol...but hell I'm already hungry...might need to wonder to that shop lol lol

Good to see you in a good place and even better to see you filling those pages with so bright colours. Way to go!! Can't wait to follow your progress in this magic journey of life.

Hope river brings calm for you today, you so deserve it. Stay well my friend, take care

S x

Hope all is good with my dear friend. Not every angel has wings, that's for sure girl.

Stay safe and hope to read your lovely posts soon. Enjoy your evening and coming weekend..river must be at it's calmest...

take care and peace to you

(((((DF))))) xx

Hi Dragonfly,

Just dropping in to say hello and how are you? How is life on the river today? It's rainy here but, still very pretty to look at. I will probably stay inside and curl up with my new book. It's supposed to be number 1 on the New York Best Sellers List: Miss Peregrines's Home For Peculiar Children. I thought I might like it. I am a peculiar old lady. The title spoke to me. Lol! Have a lovey day Dragonfly. -joanxxx

Hi Sandra and Joan,

all good here on the river today but had an exhausting week. Totally overwhelmed with work and ended up with a 12hr day on wed and know I will never get the time back as have about 80 hrs toil. Scary as if something goes wrong we are the ones the papers crucify.

Spent yesterday recovering, just reading on the deck and pottering as so hot here. Many canoes and boats on the river and always so friendly, waving as they pass, I like the idea of being alone in my own company but linked into the outside world in this way. No pressure to be a certain way but not complete isolation.

It is usually when I am exhausted that the demons hack their way in however this week called at the services twice and although have damage limitation in the form of reduced amount available on my card I didn't give the machines a look, just went home and ordered an expensive vacuum instead. Boy do I treat myself.

Taken to link up theatre by a friend one evening, a brill idea where London show is filmed live and screened at local venues all over the world at the same time, much cheaper and easier than trailing up to London, loved it and once again realise how important not to let life slip by and to search out 'stuff' to do.

A perfect day on the river today as storm last night has cooled the air. There are three Kenneth babies surviving who sleep under my bedroom window at night and the coots who sound like Sweep a la Sooty and Sweep are making themselves known begging for food. Mandarin duck babies and the green parakeet young all around today and I keep having to shoo the dragonfly outside as my windows are wide open.

None of this related to gambling? How wrong. When the demons fill my head and my eyes I see none of the beauty in life. I also see the pain and suffering but that is balanced by an understanding that in a small way I can make changes to my own and even others lives, none of which is possible when I am wasting my time and money.

I will have a lovely day today because I choose to and hope you all do as well.

Hey girl and I can so related to needing that recovery day after along week. LOL Hell this was a real fricked up week for me hour wise at work. I normally do 3rd shift and stuck to the regular hours for the first 3 days of the week. But yeah come Thursday in 4 hours earlier than usual and Friday the same. It's like ya got this regular clock that everybody goes by and then your internal clock your body goes by. Hell mine is use to 3rd shift and being done 8 hours earlier than I would of been last night was nice. My internal clock is saying no fricken way. LOL Yeah up after 4 hours sleep and and now is about the time I would be crashing out would I have stayed on my regular shift. Yup my body just wants to shut down right now. Hell some how I got to get my internal clock regulated here cause yeah, starting Tuesday I go first shift for the summer. LOL Lol Lol

Gotta say I know what ya mean too when ya talk about when your tired your more likely to gamble. Yup working the hours I do, come Saturday morning when I'm done with work it has always been my down fall day. So yeah know where your coming from.

Well sounds like ya got a nice day going on around ya and yeah enjoy it girl.

Hi DF,

God, I keep reading my friends posts today and it gets better and better 🙂 Peace - such a powerful word and gives so much out to people!! It is calmness to soul, something to treasure and keep holding on to.

You've got it girl. Right here right now. Even if you feel a bit tired (don't get me starting on working hours lol) you still managing to find that balance for yourself. It is music to my ears and I can see how much joy and happiness you get out of that lovely river. Something no money can buy.

I am so drawn to the sun and sea and so treasure those moments where I can feel free, leave stress and troubles behind and just find my inner self once again. I think it's amazing how much you can get out of simple things mother nature got to offer....even if it is not that kind to us sometimes.

I wish you to have a lovely weekend, plenty of sleep and rest and keep that new sheet open, the story of your life and coming future ahead 🙂

Take care

S x

Hey girl, hope Sunday is being kind to you and your enjoying all them good things in life.

Hey DF,

How is the life your end? Hope you are enjoying every minute of peace and calmness of that beautiful river.

Always in my thoughts

Stay safe

S x

Hi Sandra and Soul, hope you are enjoying the lovely weather today.

Have been reluctant to write on here recently as I put down my feelings and before I know it they have disappeared into the ether.

Another exhausting few days at work but Grandparents day at school yesterday with picnic lunch re energised me.

Realised at work I was arranging a meeting for a Thursday evening near Brighton as thinking at the back of my mind I could stay out late gambling as no work the next day. Shows how deeply ensconced in my brain the demons are that they manipulate my thoughts to such a level. Changed the meeting to earlier on a different day so danger over. Have avoided quite a few pitfalls this week as exhaustion and stress big triggers.

Finding it much harder not to waste money gambling now that I have money put by as my brain tells me some of it is 'spare' and I should be rewarded for saving. Having re mortgaged my house three times and eventually sold it in the past this is a new experience for me.

Wonderful weather and long evenings are good for my soul as health dreadful at the moment, just a shame I cant garden but it will improve.

Sleepy now so going to chill and will repost tomorrow.

Well you just keep Ignoring them demons and let that savings keep growing as it should. Hell we ain't getting any younger and need something to fall back on should times get tough. Hell the only thing standing in the way of your happiness is gambling. So just push that bast-ard down and trample it as ya pass it by.

Hey DF,

Let me tell you a tip about posting. If you planning to write a long one or similar just before sending select all and copy it and if it don't work after you send it you still got it for a second go. I know how frustrating it must feel cause had posts dissapearing many times before but now I always copy before sending.

Keep fighting girl, keep getting your peaceful life back.very simple reason - YOU ARE WORTH IT.

Hope you are enjoying your day and having peace to your heart and mind

Take care

S x

Hi DF,

Just bumping ur diary up and hope all is good in ur world 🙂

Soon be weekend and I'm sure you will mk the most out of it.

Stay safe

S x

Laptop has crashed, using pad but hopeless with dodgy hands so need to get new laptop or fixed asap but have the cash for it hooray, new experience not worrying about money any more after so many years and all my own work.

Hope everyone in a good place as can't check on here. If I can do it anyone can and in a good mindset at the moment despite many stress factors in my life.

Hopefully sorted soon and I will be back 🙂