Know you are by my side Sandra and really helps so much.
Not a good place inside my head at the moment and so much harder without my anaesthetic to get me through.
Not gambling won't mend my son who is desperately ill, unable to speak or see properly yesterday, it wont keep my friend alive as she struggles through her chemo, it wont rescue my mother from her bi polar terrors.
Not gambling makes it so much harder for me without my easy escape and the monkeys chitter chatter on my shoulder in the darkness keeping me awake til the early hours.
Everyone's lives are filled with a mixture of pain and happiness, I am no different, have had an amazing life, known amazing people and am thankful to those I have met on here who have taken the time and trouble to help me get by at times like these.
It will pass and I am so much stronger now, will take a f*****g wrecking ball to take down my wall these days but f*****g hell, was that wall built with blood, sweat and tears.
See Sandra this is why I have not been writing recently, no happy riverside tales tonight.
Hi Dragonfly so sad to hear such horrid stuff & see you hurting like this, there's nothing I can say or do to take away any of your pain so just wanted to send you some support!
Sounds like blood, sweat & tears are as strong as bricks & mortar! May sleep prevail tonight as you need to remember to look after you in times of trouble!
..just to add to ODAAT comment...you're never on your own
(((((((DF)))))))
Keep pushing through and talking
S xxxxx
Cathartic to write, released the tears I can't shed during the day when I am expected to be the strong one solving everyone's problems.
The night time is the worse when everything else is still & your mind just won't give up 🙁 Have you tried a hot bath & a glass of warm water? I have terrible problems sleeping & it doesn't afford sleep but it calms me!
Probably not your number one priority @ the moment but I'm incredibly proud to be walking alongside someone with such strength that in times like this, you are still refusing to give in to the evil!
You may need to wear your mask for them but shout & scream here if it helps! LIFE IS SO BLOODY UNFAIR!
Keep writing hun...crying is healing...and now just come along to my other tread to share a little smile.. (Rachel found it hilarious today so thought i will share..hope moderation stays away from my sense of humour :-D)
Love
Hugs
Sandra xx
Hi Dragonfly, just a qwik fly by to wish you & yours the very best in these horrendous times! I'm taking a break from here & would hate for people to feel I am abandoning them!
Keep shouting it out on here & being strong everywhere else - ODAAT
Thank you peoples.
The sun is shining, shiiiit happening in my life, I am not gambling.
It is what it is.
xxx
Hey there...sun is shining indeed :-)..s**t will not stop coming our way in one shape the other (just worked it out after 29yrs of questioning this lol)...but we are here to do our best and deal with it in sensible manner...not always successful but who are we to foooking give up? NO! We are a fighters from heart and you my dear are more than a proof to show us all how we can deal with things head on!
Keep at it..keep fighting..keep winning
Love, hugs
S x
Ummmmmm...i meant "rosy flowers" won't stop coming our way lol....don't wonna be censored no more 😀
Later hun
S x
Dragonfly wrote: It is said in some Native American beliefs that dragonflies are a symbol of renewal after a time of great hardship.
In Japan dragonflies are symbols of courage, strength, and happiness.hi dragonfly would be nice to chat sometime still getting used to site
Hi thanks for offer be nice to talk still getting used to site
Don't know if last message reached you
Hi dragonfly my name is Jen I also have a diary on here. Did not have time to read all of your diary is it's almost 500 posts long LOL just read the last couple and sorry to hear you have some stuff happening in your life it's always hardest when we are being tested sending hugs , good for not gambling. I've had a slip above my own so I know how demoralizing those can be. So it's great whenever we can stick to our plans.
Hi Dragonfly,
Thoughts are with you... and despite what you may have going on in your life, you still found the time to pop into my diary and show support. Thanks.
I hope you can find time to relax and do the things that you like to do. You don't have to be strong all the time. you know this.
Take care and keep the gremlins at bay.
Warm regards... S.A 🙂
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