Hi Dragonfly , just popped by to wish you well and say a big congratulations on 3 years , Wow !
Have a great Day !
ooops thank you triangle and Alan but I worded my entry really badly. Three years with the forum not three years gamble free but determined to fight on and who knows in another three years with the ongoing support from here, I might be able to write just that.
Hi again , Your still here and keeping up the fight and that's the important bit in our ongoing recovery !.
Still sending you My full support and best wishes .................................AlAN
Hi DF,
Know you have problems with Internet so just touching the base on here to remind you that you're an amazing lovely lady and will always stay in my heart!
Gonna get in touch via other route, just thought this diary belongs on page 1! INSPIRATION indeed вє
(((((((DF)))))))
S x
Yo my Cumbrian rooted old bud.
Have kept up with your diary and felt an element of addictive guilt that I could never reciprocate the support you've afforded me in the past.
Did read a great old line from our old pal Rach, that genetic age doesn't come into the equation when it comes to recovery, it depends alot on how many onion skins we need to remove. I get that finally.
I'll forever be greatfull in your past support, time now to afford yourself the same.
I wish I were a glow worm
A glow worm's never glum
'Cause how can you be grumpy,
when the sun shines out your b*m?
Thank you for your kind words folks and thought of you often Volcano wondering how you were getting on and the banter in the past was the bestest ever medicine so never feel you didn't support.
Killer flu bug so been housebound for two weeks but on the mend. Still await consultant apps at hospital, the health service imploding so wondering now if I will ever get back to work, scary though with majorly reduced income, will that be a trigger or a controlling factor.
Much introspection regarding 'happiness' recently. My ex and best friend both terminal and 'coping' in polar opposite ways. My ex has withdrawn from any form of social contact, even me, whilst my closest friend (who has dealt with far more invasive surgery and treatment) held her 70th birthday two weeks ago, 70 friends and family as guests, strictly come dancing theme complete with professional dancers and a smile for everyone, I have never her seen her look so happy. Really got me thinking.
My bucket list is tiny, I have had such an amazing life full of so many experiences (just as my friend has) and my life on the river is a form of paradise so health and money aside what will make me truly happy. I have to acknowledge that I can no longe be an adrenalin J****E and as my soulmate in Ireland and closest friend have done, accept that the simple things in life are the most important just as Duncs, Joan and Sandra will testify. Life is not simple but acknowledging what is important to me is.
Hey DF,
Really pleased to see you posting. Hope you will stick around because you was and are very inspiring soul which should voice herself more.
Your ex and your best friend has been on my mind since you shared the sad news about them. Life is short so we need to fill it with good days, amazing memories and few goals вє
I am proud of you for aknowledging little things what matters the most...
Alongside you all the way girl!
Stay safe, warm and keep talking.
S x
Yo DF,
Had intended to post earlier but has taken a bit of time to get all the meds together to cure your Optical Rectumitis. Am a little disappointed mind as thought your Cumbrian blood would of known the ingredients. Have posted it in a bottle and should reach by Tuesday.
You've got alot on your plate at the moment, so choppy waters and do get your state of introspection. Am hoping you've got the necessary tools in place, ie company and not bottling all your thoughts up. The swans are cool but unfortunately don't speak our language.
I think it's nice when finally the penny drops and we realise the simple things are more like the treasures we've been looking for.
An irrelevant thought, but whenever awake at night, this by all a counts as a pal told me this evening is when creativity is best explored.
As always I wish you well
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Yo DF!
No gambling!!!! - no problem вє..you know the drill, keep pushing those thoughts away!
(((((DF)))))
Sing lulabys to the swans...
They know the drill!!
Ummmm..chocolate вє..nice one DF! Don't feel guilty for guilty pleasure!
I was thinking of the expectations WE put on ourselves...kinda unachievable sometimes huh.
My t**t D******d boss has many expectations of me in workplace, that's fine, it only cost me few years being crossed off of my life lol..
The expectations in life i put on myself is deffo jaw dropping. I need to be kinder to me...i don't know how lol..bull!
Sorry for the rant, it's just getting on top of me now...3 years of tough s** recovery and look at me now.. still here, still saving, still doing graveyard shift and still....killing me softly inside out.
30yr old lady in 90yr old mindset!..go me lol.
Anyway, you keep fighting...left, right & centre!!! Boom boom - do not give up! ..it is just bull & ya know that urges will eventually pass...breeaaathhee Hun.
Please keep talking, I'm surfing in & out till 6am...then..just a chilly peaceful beach for a change!..maybe just found my own answers...i need peace...saddo i am 😉
S x
i hope your reading the right book...
And dont agree with regard to being too old for lady of the night....:-)
Hows about feeding the frogs, are they night creatures?
Hope you enjoyed your choccy santa, but i feel left out now as i rummage through my cupboards.
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