Ha ha lovin it, naughty zippy.
Consultant appointment this morning and whisked into emergency op, ouch, asked him what caused the problem and he replied 'just bad luck' - had to laugh out loud, me unlucky, never.
Flying the diarys today.....
Keep battling through the shi.te. Keep talking to the swans. Keep connected with friends/ family. And stay connected to the good thoughts and the fortunate experiences life has afforded you. Remove the Un from unlucky
Hey DF,
Just a flyer by to wish you safe and calm weekend.
Thank you so much for your unconditional support as always вє
Hope the river stays calm.....
S x
Fantastic youtube clip...
Its all simple afterall in finding our own Utopia. As we had it all along, now its a case of moving from the eye of the storm...
Everything spirals up....Its about Energy..
вє
Hope recent storms passed without any destruction caused to the boat and your lovely soul.
Keep talking Hun, keep staying safe and healthy.
S x
The Cumbrian swan tapping at the windows for a feed.
I trust all is good on the boat...
Thank you
Tap into your cumbrian roots DF.
Bang the desk and in chorus with you 'Climbing back to the kerb as NOTHINGS gonna beat me now !'
Wishing you well. Talk, you know it makes sense...
Hello my dear friend
Latest news pierced my heart a little ....and you slipping is the last of my worries!
Struggling to express myself but all i can say - be kind to you. S*it storms will pass, they always do.
You are more in control than you think. You don't have to stay in the gutter, you can choose another path going forward. .not as rosy maybe and few twigs and stones on a way, but the clear picture in horizon nevertheless.
Here with you girl!! Holding your hand and staying by your side unconditionally. That's the least i can do...sun will shine again вє
Let it in your heart, don't run away from those warm rays
S x
Thank you both.
Can't sleep which is crazy when so exhausted but thought swirling. Spent yesterday with young man working on my boat who unknowingly put things in perspective for me. So young he has been ill all his life which he knows is limited and lost his best friend to suicide yet he works and makes the most of every single day. Made me ashamed and led to me waking in the night and appreciating how lucky I am to have experienced so much throughout my life that when I try to compile a bucket list there are very few wishes that have not already been fulfilled.
So with the help of the angels on here who fluttered by and this young stranger I am building a strong ladder reaching well up out of the gutter, back into reality, the birds are awakening on the riverbank, the sun will rise again.
Hai DF.
When your heads swirling like the storm, sleep doesn't come easy hai! I've been trying the oil burner and valerian SleepEezy tablets and some nights they seem to work with the most colourful of dreams but it does mean pushing yourself as much as possible during the day using the physical energy up as much as possible.
I'm sure you've climbed higher mountains than any kerb. You've got to much in you and around you to be in a gutter. So begone bad thoughts.
The sun goes down. The Sun goes Up.
Morning df
I am glad you have navigated yourself back to the recovery room, the door revolves as you know.
Like me you had to find the bottom, the point of no return, nothing lays ahead apart from a brick wall for you to smash your head into and behind the brick wall addiction built to keep you from seeing life.
The one behind you can be torn down, you can break through it and take control of your own life.
The other option will be to continue punishing yourself, to keep repeating the same action, live in the ever decreasing circle that is continued gambling.
I will you to break through that wall behind, to take all the help out there and rebuild your own wall between you and addiction.
As ever you know where to find me 24/7 unconditionally.
Duncs stepping beside you always forward never back.
Once again thank you for kind thoughts and rescue remedy. I do take valerian sometimes as much prefer herbal to prescription meds as they are gentler on the body without the fuzzy feeling the next day.
Finding the strength to head up north to visit my mother in hospital so will be offline for a few days as only have a rubbish phone at the moment but safety nets in place as a limit on my card and no cash with me. Last time I went out had a puncture and cost
me £95 for new tyre so fingers crossed the bad luck fairy is taking a break.
My daughter's birthday today, geez where do the years go and time is so precious, people are so precious. Would love to write my life story entitled - 'Random acts of Idiocy' as I have risked losing so much.
Have a safe trip DF,
Sending you strong and positive thoughts, to push through these tough times.
Suzanne xxx
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