my betting diary

HI wp,

I hope your really proud of racking up those gamble free days, its obviously a really really difficult time for you but your remaining strong throughout.

Be proud wp, today you did something amazing.

Take care

Blondie x

Hi wp,

Thanks for the post hun defo alot stronger than i was:0)

Sorry your still having problems with your ex,its a long shot but have you tried mediation,might be worth trying before going through the courts and its something the courts would make you do anyway.Then whoever is dealing with it can see how difficult your ex is being,make sure you keep all the texts etc so you can show what you have to put up with.She cant beat with you the same stick forever hun yourve proved your not gambling ,for three years now thats got to count for something surely.

Keep that head held high and keep fighting i know you will.

(((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))

Staying Strong

L xx

Hi wp.

The situation your in at the moment must be so hard.Really hope it comes out good for you.All you want to do is see your kid.Hope you get to do that.As for you still gamble free...it proves to all on here that it can be done no matter our personal life.Your a hero on here mate!

Viggo.

Hello m8

Just popping in to say hope you got to see your kids last night and everything went well.Jeff.

Thanks for posting again on my diary. I'm quite surprised if anyone posts, since i don't get many replies and assume there's not many reading.

I didn't say I was thinking of returning to gambling anywhere in my diary; however, you're right Mr Mindreader, I had toyed with the idea. Thanks so much for the much needed advice at the right time.

As for you, well, I think I've read all your diary. I started at the beginning 18 months a go, then kind of worked backwards for a while, and now I've kept up with as and when. Possibly i missed a few pages in middle. And, without wanting to sound patronising in any way, what's happened to you is truly awful, and a wake-up call to idiots like me who are still harbouring dreams of the odd flutter. I have two boys, one just a baby, and I can't imagine being away from them. This f*****g gambling really is a parasite, eating us up from the inside out.

thanks again

Its been a while ?

Little ones birthday party today,got my family down for it. Saw the wee one for 20 mins on her birthday yesterday.

just received text.

YOU thought you were clever today but you were not welcome.

Do not pull a stunt like that again otherwise I won't be so accomodating and YOU will receive my back lash.

This really is one unforgivable ex partner who just won't let it go.

Some of you just don't realise how lucky you really are 🙁

Been sending loads emails back and forward to solicitors to which I've just found out its £19.50 per mail.its crippling when your still paying thousands gambling debts.

More correspondence required there then after today.

Today I haven't gambled tomorrow I won't gamble,this is one b.....d of an addiction.

Take care all.

Winning post 🙁

Yo,

You know once again I am touched with a sadness that no matter how long you have abstained that you still live with the aftermath of it all.

It is difficult to know what to write , other than I wished she would give you a break . And I hope that you do not shoulder all the blame , you can only do what's humanly possible , and in my eyes, been clean this long is the best you can do .

Just wanted to write something , I hope you feel a tiny bit comforted , cause no matter how unforgiving your ex may be or pointless this may seem at times , you are a bigger man , for staying clean .

Shiny xxxxxx

HIya wp...

just popping in and sending my support also....

I see in your ex there a horrible vision of the way I could have turned out full of bitterness all the time if i'd not sorted myself out,got a grip and looked at my own shortcomings.

As Shiny says too...I hope you do not take on all the blame...you are doing something about it and doing the right thing for yourself which is to keep on the right path.

I hope in time any guilt you carry you can forgive yourself for as if your ex will not forgive you will be flogging yourself for ever which is unfair and you dont deserve that.

Sending hugs to you tonight

((((wp))))

R and D xxx

Hi wp,

Many many thanks for the support on the Gamcare Live thread. It is really uplifting to get support from such a well respected member of this forum. I hope Gamcare can get involved in some way and I was considering going to them for support. Thank you for putting the suggestion forward.

If the interest is there I would do my very best to make it happen.

Thanks again for the support,

Flagg

P.s I only have one diary but I think my name is attached to 4 threads. Apologies if it is Flagg overkill sometimes haha!

Hi wp... just wanted to thank you for your support. Its swings and roundabouts with this addiction isn't it. I take you up on your suggestion to aim for the 1018 gamble free days and beyond... a day at a time of course!

Your ex is very bitter isn't she. I guess some people hold on to anger and never really deal with it. Just keep on doing the right thing for you and your family... am sure you will. You have the constitution of an ox my friend, you will cope. Warm regards.. S.A

wp,

Just sending out my support to you at this tough time.

This fight must be exhausting but you will get there my friend.

I know that I am very lucky that I am not in your domestic situation. I narrowly avoided a marital split two years ago and if I were to gamble again it would be clearly all over. I can't imagine how difficult it must be for you. Your posts really help me to remember where we are and what we face. I share your position on finances, with regular reminders on finances when we can't get basics because of the loan repayments. 4.5 years to go on those and it won't be soon enough. Pain in my hole paying them off and remembering the madness that got me there.

Sending you peace today.

Brian

Hi Winning Post, I had a chippy lunch today in honour of you! I'm in Edinburgh for work and drove through Biggar and thought of you! Not a lot I can say to you. Just keep going. Take care fella. Russ

With thanks to shiny,dotty,flagg,s.a,ade,Brian and Russ(next time in Edinburgh area try broon sauce on yer chips,special recipe).

3 YEARS AGO TODAY I PLACED MY LAST BET.

3 miserable,long,long, lousy years.

Can't say im in a good place just now,certainly had urges of late with passing thoughts of a punt or two.

Not had contact with little one since her party and texts, phone calls now go unanswered.

Christmas just around the corner to which im tempted to spend at my parents (120 odd mile drive) BUT it would just be my luck to be invited round to see the bairns on Christmas day and with that little hope i think i will stay where i am and make my own entertainment.

Have left the solicitor for now to get Christmas out of the way purely for financial reasons.

Its certainly a "bah humbug" feeling for me 🙁

Take care all and make sure you have a gamble free Christmas and new year in what could be (from my own experiences) a very testing time.

Today i haven't bet tomorrow i won't bet into my 4th year i go and its all thanks to YOU the people on these pages,there are FAR too many to single out but whether you have been with me since day one or just recently passed through I can't thank you enough.

Best wishes.

Winning Post.

Have seen your name popping up on here regularly. Thought I'd take a look at your thread. Started on page 1, read a few pages and then clicked on your last page. The inspiration I got from seeing you saying 3 years gamble free was just amazing. Just noticed that it's coming up this week too. I can't congratulate you enough. I will draw a lot of strength from that. I hope to still be posting in 3 years time as an ex-gambler due to the amazing people on this site. Best wishes.

G

Great stuff on your gambling free time wp... you have done fantastically well. Remember that life would have felt much worse if you'd of been gambling as well, you know this. So life might still feel pants right now but atleast you haven't got any new problems created by renewed gambling on top as well. Stay strong in that resolve mate. I think you will... warm regards.. S.A 🙂