my betting diary

Congrats on the 6 week mark mate. I know what you are saying about this other person who has lapsed after 20 months but to be quite honest if I last 20 months I would at the moment see that has a monumentous achievement. One little lapse is not the end of the world I suppose as long as they manage to get back on track. All the best

Stumper

Hi wp

6 weeks m8 onwards and upwards. Yes we all have to be aware that we can slip at any time.Stay strong m8 .All the best Jeff.

thanks jeff. . Your encouragement is always appreciated. . Today has been my hardest day yet for some reason. . I went up to my parents today in scotland to get the deposit for the flat which i was getting and i get a phone call from the landlord tellin me he got deposit from someone else before me. . It felt like a right kick in the b*****ks. . I feel if i had enough money i would have let you all down and gambled today. . Also keep thinkin about how long i can keep this up. . Bad vibes i know but today i did not gamble . . On the positive side thats 43 days now bet free but only just. .help me my friends am strugglin. .

Stay strong mate you owe it to yourself !!!

You only have to look at the number of people who post on your diary to see that you an inspiration to alot of people on here, myself included.

You have it in you mate i know it ... stay strong. Ryan.

thanks ryan mate. . Day 44 today and am happy to say no bet. . This is an uphill struggle just now for me. . Reading that post of 20 months bet free then lapse has really struck me. . I just think how would i feel if that happened to me. . . I will get round to posting other diaries when i get oot of feelin sorry for myself. Sorry folks i will be more positive in future.

Hi wp,

If i didn't have a bet for 20 months and then had a lapse and then got back to being gamble free again then i wouldn't be too sad about it. Everyone is allowed a moment of weakness. We are only human after all.

Sure it would be great if you, me or any other person on here has truly gambled for the last time EVER. I tell you what though if i can not gamble for 20 months, then have a bet, then do another 20 months gamble free, i will still be in a lot better place than i was before i first logged on here.

Don't feel down mate, you are doing great and you are a big help to me and others on here. You are winning this battle wp.

Morning Winning,

Hope your mood lifts soon. Don't worry too much about S.A he is a strong guy and will bounce back from his lapse...we are all human and these things happen.

I remember when I first came on here and I made friends with a member...they decided to go back to gambling and to leave the site. It made me feel really low...I soon bounced back though. This recovery is yours....so think about yourself first.

Jas :-))

Mate. we are all human and therefor designed to err. If someone has a lapse at the end of the day that is what it is. They have committed no crime, it is not illegal and nobody has died!!. Basically a lapse can sometimes have a good effect in that you feel really bad about it and bounce back more determined to beat this thing than before.

At the moment I am enjoying a period in my life when I am not gambling at all. Will it last? who knows but at the moment I am enjoying the present and am glad that I have not bet on anything since 1/12/09

Personally you are doing really well and you are the person that counts most for yourself. We do not know any of our 'friends' on here but just like when a friend we do know is having a bad time we feel sorry for them as we of this site are 'family' albeit of a strange type!! but family we are

Stay strong

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP

Stumper

Cheers for the post on my diary wp. Also well done on your continued progress. Excellent stuff. Good to see you are back to your usual positive self today.

I'm playing Lundin links and the new, jubilee and old courses at St Andrews whilst in Scotland mate. Something to look forward to!

Keep going wp you are giving the gambling demons one hell of a beating.

day 45. . Thanks for the posts folks Am happy to say i am feeling much better within myself today. .I put the last few days down to losin out on a better flat and my recovery process. .kind of withdrawel symptoms similar to what smokers get if that makes sense. .Every day canny be rosey in our position yet every day without a punt is an achievement in itself.today i did not bet tomorrow i wont bet. . Keep up the good work folks we can do this. . We all can.

Hi winningpost,

Thanks for your posts on my diary, it's nice to see people dropping in, and if anyone gets just glimmer of hope from my ramblings that's good, i haven't read all through your diary just yet, but wanted to drop in and say hi, the withdrawal symptoms are natural, any one with any addiction go's through them i think, but they will get less, it's a time thing, keep strong and keep posting,the help here pulled me through in my darkest days, with your own willpower things will get better. catch up mare soon.

regards for now.

green x

Hi winningpost,

Thanks for your post on my diary

sounds like gambling has caused you just as much grief as me,well done on your battle against it so far though,stay strong mate,have a good weekend.

Seano.

Hi wp

Just to say well done on day 47. Although it does seem longer.It may be because you post on many other diaries offering help and support. Well done kid Jeff.

Hi wp

Thanks for the post last night. Please read my latest post - hope I can count on your continued support.

Hi wp

Thanks for the guidance this week - its meant a lot. My dad has indeed made thigs hard but doesnt realise what hes doing.

I always enjoy reading your posts as your accent seems to come through in what you type. I can almost hear you speaking!

Hope you have a lovely weekend

Eyes X