My Diary

4 days GF

I actually thought it was 3 days until I logged on which was a bit of a bonus.

Weekend went well, although there were urges but I suppose that is to be expected overcoming an addiction. The battle is not giving in.

I try to think back to a time when I didn't gamble and why I started. I don't have a bad life and have a happy home, just miss my cat who was like my little friend. Finances are not great but not awful either, they could be so much better. Wife has booked us to go to Rome so really need to knuckle down.

Here's to a gamble free day.

5 days GF

Too busy yesterday at work to look at my phone to gamble, not that I want to.

Left my phone in the locker at the gym which gave me another hour away from social media and any gambling thoughts.

I wonder how much gambling has increased with advancements if smart phones? I've never been in a bookies but it is so easy to tap a few buttons on a screen.

6 days GF

So close to a week, but been in this position and messed up before.

Pay day Friday and it will be a chance to clear a bit of debt off the credit card. Another session in the gym last night gave me chance to lock my phone away, get my headphones and lose myself in a workout.

One more day till a full week.

7 days GF

A full week GF, 1st milestone met. Aiming for 10 days now

8 days GF

It's payday and I have literally half my wages to pay bills and live on after clearing the overdraft. It's going to be another tight month. The bills will be paid but socially I won't be doing anything.

The only way to get out of this is by not gambling.

2 weeks GF

Hit the 2 week mark, struggling to not to give in to urges. I thought the first few days would be hard but this is the most difficult.

18 days GF

I'm now 18 days gf and another weekend out the way. It's the weekends when I'm at my most vulnerable so it does seem strange to say I'm glad it is out of the way.

19 days GF

Another day down. Being busy at work is really going to help, no time to gamble.

22 Days GF

Another weekend to battle, but it's bank holiday and no work for 4 days. It's weekends like this that I would be glued to my phone betting, but not this weekend.

Have a good Easter everyone and stay GF.

0 Days GF

Back to my idiotic ways, so ashamed of myself. I'm ruining my life.

Dust yourself down and start again. It’s the only way.

It’s my Day 1 again too.

Let’s take this one day at a time and beat this awful addiction that’s ruining our lives.

Hi IdioticM,
Sorry to read about all your relpases, but its good that you are continuing to try.
There is a saying "Nothing changes if nothing changes". What are you going to do differently this time to help yourself?

Sounds like online gambling is your vice, so why not register with gamstop, and get yourself excluded from the sites, so that gambling would be more difficult for you. Always ways around it, if you really wanted to find them, but it might give you a bit more time to think about what you are doing.

Damo

1 Day GF

Thank you for your comments. I've installed gamban on my phone and it is working well so far.
Had a bit of problem yesterday self excluding from a sports betting site, I'm not sure if I'm allowed to name said company. But anyway, I tried to do it through the site and an apparent technical fault prevented me from doing so. Instead I emailed customer support with all my details to self exclude and still they wouldn't due to wrong details. Emails went back and forth all afternoon and it was getting tiresome, even admitting I had a problem didn't speed up the process.

It's ridiculous and immoral, I have a problem and they want to keep me as a customer. It just adds to pressure I've put on myself.

Has anyone else came across this?

2 Days GF

I'm still very much in the gambling hangover, just taking it one day at a time. Pay day in a few days, not that I'll see much of it.

3 Days GF

Another day down, going to keep plodding on.