My recovery diary

Lou!! 200 days! So pleased for you. You are always such a support to me and others. You should be so proud of yourself xx 

Proud of you Lou.

You have always been a great inspiration to me and I am happy to see you 200 days gamble free.

Respect from

Aum ?

Many congrats lou on the 200 days, u may not think it, but you're doing it soo well, so just continue and the great feeling times are on the way to be sure......

All the best

adam xxx 

Thankyou all xx

Just read another forum members post about relapse when gamstop ran out.  The same happened to me in october. I thought i would be able to gamble 'sensibly' and in a controlled way, which i realised after was a mistake.

My gamstop runs out in october so i thought i would extend it now just the thought of it makes me feel sick and anxious. Im not sure why because gambling and loosing all my money feels worse. I really cannot face the 5 year option maybe this is something i can work towards with some therapy support. But i decided to at least just quickly extend it by longer rather than waiting untill october.

However when i went on it only gave me the 5 year option this time to add as an exclusion. This put me off. Im not sure why i couldnt extend it for a shorter time.

Loux

Hi lou, really well done on the 200 days you must not underestimate what an achievement that is. In fact how we struggle with this addiction every single day we don't gamble is an achievement. Don't put unnecessary pressure on yourself right now set a reminder for yourself to look at gamstop about a month before it expires, right now you don't need the stress of it lou. Concentrate on getting yourself feeling better the gamble free time will follow you along xx

I'm a little late but congratulations Lou on 200 days gambling free! (Well, 202 days actually) 🙂

It really matters this Lou and you are showing mettle and real inner character.  Really really well done 🙂 

lou i looked into the gamstop thing and good news.  U dont need to renew it continues to work untill you personally turn the gamstop off!!!! so we dont need to do anything it continues forever......no more worries!!!

Thankyou all, and yeah adam problem is theres still the opportunity to get it cancelled whereas with the set time period you cant. Ill probably contact them, but im just trying to get a few days rest

Lou Xx

Restful day, did have a bit of a gambling thoughts earlier but didnt act on them ..there just thoughts as i was feeling a bit sad and had a trigger around gambling talk but i know the affects long term are not worth it.

Lou x

Lou x 

I hope you had a relaxing birthday yesterday Lou.  I'm really hoping this will be the year for you!  You've put in an awful lot of groundwork; your commitment to being gambling-free is fantastic because it shows and proves you really want that better life.   So, chilling out as you are right now, here's to a sunnier future 🙂

Thankyou Roch thats very kind

Lou x

Will be 205 days into this recovery period. I think gambling thoughts will still come from time to time..thats why having gamstop is important because i dont bother even trying with it. 

This site has helped a lot meeting others going through similar experiences. 

Still on track to hopefully pay off my debts this year, having the debt management plan with stepchange and seeing it go down monthly is some motivation.

Just keep having waves in depression and anxiety which make it hard at times but i know gambling would make it worse

Loux

This is such a bumpy journey im still gamble free but only just..and a lot of that is due to having gamstop and my dmp.

I just feel like im struggling through but im so close to just self destructing ..wether that be gambling or something else. Last night i got an urge to gamble i know the consequences but i just felt i really want too ..i didnt but then i  had a  thoughts to just end it all bit didnt have the means of how i was thinking. I just went on netline and spoke to someone instead.

Ive got work tomrorow i need to pull it together and get through that...its just so hard not acting on how you feel 

Lou x

All i can suggest tonight is an early night, get some sleep, rest xxxxx